In other instances I receive a kind word from persons like yourself. I liken these to holy kisses. And there are moments when grace is the lone response. Grace for myself and others with a willingness to do better the next day the Lord provides.
If you were lacking in the attributes you seek to embody the failures would have no effect. It is because of your sincerity and effort that you feel as you do. Only a knight would exhibit the same.
) to me than what caused yesterday to be such a burden. I have heard a ridiculous amount of unjust and insufferable things leave the mouth of the lab manager at Albemarle since my past year there, but this morning, on the inside for a few moments, just about did me in after an accusation left his mouth towards all of us techs in general. For me to say that today was the worst I had ever suffer from him yet, is certainly saying a lot. And immediately I imagined myself telling him off with a short sentence, followed up with a simple "I quit", and walking out, leaving Nel to have to scramble to find a replacement to take care of my lab for the day, which I knew that he himself would never be able to do (if anything I bet he literally considers my paygrade and manner of work to be beneath him, aside from the fact that i know he has no idea how to do what i do with any kind of efficiency anyway). Of course I did not actually say what came to mind, and i even managed to calm down and not let it really bother me for the rest of the day, certainly not to where I would speak in anger about it to other people who would similarly have reason to feel just as insulted as i did. But just know that no one - especially hard workers such as most of us techs - should ever have to suffer the bs that he had the utter gall to direct at us this morning. Seriously, it's like the man does everything in his power to be as unlikable to everyone around him as possible. I am thinking of addressing his sometimes outright insufferable rhetoric and mannerisms on the anonymous hotline service that some companies have, where you can call out someone you work with on their behaviour, be it unethical or unsafe in some way, without needing to identify yourself and allegedly needing not fear retaliation or punishment of some kind for speaking up. I imagine over the years a few people around Albemarle have already done so in Nel's case, honestly. Where even if it will never amount to him getting fired, it at least gives people a voice who have had to put up with him. I wonder if I could legitimately record him during one of these times where we can normally expect to hear some sort of injustice from him with the phone in my pocket or something, where he would not be aware, so that I could have his own words played to whoever I would be speaking to on this anonymous "speak up" hotline, and not have the veracity of my story blurred somewhat by my own words going off of naturally flawed human memory of the event in question.
Since another worker there, Larken, had graciously volunteered to save me some time getting along with the inconveniences of the new information management system by taking up residence at my computer for most of the day, she was just past a doorway in the computer chair entering in some information for me, and I left the sink and went over to Larken, like, 'Hey, you're about my age (don't worry, @LaBèlla , I assure you she had already voluntarily revealed her age to me in a past conversation - I wasn't displaying an utter lack of social grace by just guessing upfront and implying an older age for her ). Did you also know this movie from your childhood titled Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead? With the daughter from Married With Children and all?" Larken enthusiastically responded yes and suggested that I indeed go look it up somewhere for streaming on the Internet after all these years. The line at the end of a scene shooting up fine dinnerware on the roof of a house as harmless summertime mischief for teens, "The dishes are done, man", is just always going to stick out to me.
I am happy to hear today fared better for you and you practiced restraint in your response to others and yourself.
I wonder in the course of your musings if you recognize your bravery and courage. I question if you realize how refreshing your transparency is in a world of masks and innuendo. I hope you realize how rare it is to open yourself as you do and continue to grow the more you unveil.
There is nothing more beautiful than a soul laid bear. I hold it in the highest esteem. The lone trait that comes close is manners. Never change. Praying for you is easy and a joy to do so.
That would be pretty cool to see, actually.When I woke up this morning, I had a new sewing idea. It might be fun to try making some hand puppets (I haven't made any before).
If you do make some, I can finally give you the name Multipuppets.
That would be pretty cool to see, actually.
Must make some puppets for my 284th name! 
