Hello there. I am not sure if I posted this wrong section or whatever but I need help, in any way so please forgive me if I chose wrong section. Basically I am teen who tries to find himself, I am 14 year old male. Sorry for lying about my age when opening profile, I just need help.
A year ago, I discovered God, I let Jesus in my heart and started progressing in every single way. But recently I am losing faith. Not because of bad thing but... religion doesnt make much sence to me anymore. First things first, is Jesus really son of God? Is he really here with me. Does God really exist and if he does, how can I for sure know his personality is not just a fiction but instead truth. Do I have purpouse? Why is there one God but multiple teachings about him. Why do bad things happen? Why is someone happy but someone else lost mother or father today. Why did all these kids get killed and raped. Now why is there sickness, now why such good people die from cancer? Who created evil. Something is tempting us, we believe its enemy, but why does God let that. Why didnt Jesus just stand up from that cross and stayed here with us. A lot of questions going in my head. If I just ignored everything and continued caring only about myself I would be selfish, christianity didnt teach me to be like that. I am still Christian but after ecerything I see and hear, it is hard to believe in Jesus and to believe that God cares about us all. Someone did create all of this, but does he care about all of this. I did get help and a lot of you did... But how can I after a lot of trying still be addicted in some way to inappropriate contentography, why can't I be clear? Why is my brain somehow rejecting all of this.
I am not spitting on religion, I am sure there are answers, and hope someone shows me. I also pray that God helps me see him and Jesus in my life. But somehow I dont see progress, instead I see my own failure to control even my own thoughts.
I will repeat, once I was close to God but now I am just lost, what is happening?
A year ago, I discovered God, I let Jesus in my heart and started progressing in every single way. But recently I am losing faith. Not because of bad thing but... religion doesnt make much sence to me anymore. First things first, is Jesus really son of God? Is he really here with me. Does God really exist and if he does, how can I for sure know his personality is not just a fiction but instead truth. Do I have purpouse? Why is there one God but multiple teachings about him. Why do bad things happen? Why is someone happy but someone else lost mother or father today. Why did all these kids get killed and raped. Now why is there sickness, now why such good people die from cancer? Who created evil. Something is tempting us, we believe its enemy, but why does God let that. Why didnt Jesus just stand up from that cross and stayed here with us. A lot of questions going in my head. If I just ignored everything and continued caring only about myself I would be selfish, christianity didnt teach me to be like that. I am still Christian but after ecerything I see and hear, it is hard to believe in Jesus and to believe that God cares about us all. Someone did create all of this, but does he care about all of this. I did get help and a lot of you did... But how can I after a lot of trying still be addicted in some way to inappropriate contentography, why can't I be clear? Why is my brain somehow rejecting all of this.
I am not spitting on religion, I am sure there are answers, and hope someone shows me. I also pray that God helps me see him and Jesus in my life. But somehow I dont see progress, instead I see my own failure to control even my own thoughts.
I will repeat, once I was close to God but now I am just lost, what is happening?