- Aug 5, 2019
- 20
- 14
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Private
One morning I took my daughter to school, and my wife went to work, I had no job because, I had take care of my daughter and her grandparents for five years, I became mother and father to my beautiful family.
That summer time I felt a weight came upon me; this weights this force that overthrew me.
That morning my wife went to work and I took my daughter to preschool. That morning about 9am tears of fear fell upon me, conviction upon my heart.
This conviction upon my heart, was very detail something that me not be express, because the hurt was in my heart crying every early morning, no one to confess.
This burden that I have was much greater than me.
It was like spiritual burning in my heart.
Than that morning I went to see my cousin to ask him for help and he pray for me that morning.
I went back home and lock myself in my apartment, this was about 4 a.m. in the morning I put on a Christian radio and I fell dying inside of me.
This burden was much, much greater, even in morning.
I when I put the Christian radio and cried out to God.
I just have no strength I asked God to please release me, for my body was in flame, waves after waves of burning in my soul and my heart and in my mind.
Please God release me from this burden, I am sorry I did not know, I still remember those day and all of my sins.
Then I saw a vision of being chastised and a vision of a warrior and ancient people.
It was about 10: 00 a.m. in that morning my burden it continues for while; as I look out window I saw visions of ancient people chastising me,
I was still in my sins.
I fell down on my feet I could not move, I cried out, please take this burden from me, it continued, I was like in the center of a great storm, every morning at 4am, it just kept going, I started confess my sin again.
All of my sins, but it would not let me go.
I had to confess all of sins, I was chastise over and over and over, until for three days straight. I was stripped down all of my manhood, I almost lost my daughter, three time, I could not sleep, I prayed ever day, I continue confess to all of sins, All! of my sins, even those secret ones, until I surrender completely to God, UNTIL the Spirit of God was satisfied, it was the most darkest days of my life, those months my Heart, could not take the harsh ship of all of my sins against God, I kept seeing visions, they always happen early, early in the morning, here was no life in me to give, Just my soul to the Spirit of God.
I have sin against God the Father.
Finally the Spirit of God the Father answer my prayer, He had given me mercy upon me, and given me Grace.
Who could I tell, who would believe me.
Looked desperately up into the heavens crying out to God for Hope, in those days I could not sleep, trying to sleep just trying to read the bible hoping, crying even months later. And that last day, in a dream the word came to me, and in those words I saw,
But now, thus says the LORD, who created you, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.
Isaiah 43:1
No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you.
John 15:15
Grace
That summer time I felt a weight came upon me; this weights this force that overthrew me.
That morning my wife went to work and I took my daughter to preschool. That morning about 9am tears of fear fell upon me, conviction upon my heart.
This conviction upon my heart, was very detail something that me not be express, because the hurt was in my heart crying every early morning, no one to confess.
This burden that I have was much greater than me.
It was like spiritual burning in my heart.
Than that morning I went to see my cousin to ask him for help and he pray for me that morning.
I went back home and lock myself in my apartment, this was about 4 a.m. in the morning I put on a Christian radio and I fell dying inside of me.
This burden was much, much greater, even in morning.
I when I put the Christian radio and cried out to God.
I just have no strength I asked God to please release me, for my body was in flame, waves after waves of burning in my soul and my heart and in my mind.
Please God release me from this burden, I am sorry I did not know, I still remember those day and all of my sins.
Then I saw a vision of being chastised and a vision of a warrior and ancient people.
It was about 10: 00 a.m. in that morning my burden it continues for while; as I look out window I saw visions of ancient people chastising me,
I was still in my sins.
I fell down on my feet I could not move, I cried out, please take this burden from me, it continued, I was like in the center of a great storm, every morning at 4am, it just kept going, I started confess my sin again.
All of my sins, but it would not let me go.
I had to confess all of sins, I was chastise over and over and over, until for three days straight. I was stripped down all of my manhood, I almost lost my daughter, three time, I could not sleep, I prayed ever day, I continue confess to all of sins, All! of my sins, even those secret ones, until I surrender completely to God, UNTIL the Spirit of God was satisfied, it was the most darkest days of my life, those months my Heart, could not take the harsh ship of all of my sins against God, I kept seeing visions, they always happen early, early in the morning, here was no life in me to give, Just my soul to the Spirit of God.
I have sin against God the Father.
Finally the Spirit of God the Father answer my prayer, He had given me mercy upon me, and given me Grace.
Who could I tell, who would believe me.
Looked desperately up into the heavens crying out to God for Hope, in those days I could not sleep, trying to sleep just trying to read the bible hoping, crying even months later. And that last day, in a dream the word came to me, and in those words I saw,
But now, thus says the LORD, who created you, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.
Isaiah 43:1
No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you.
John 15:15
Grace
