In October and over the years I've dealt w addiction to a certain med
I have anxiety so I truly do need it....In that month I bought a Internet Benzo off the dark web...I was taking it and getting into my roomies Norco..
My gf talked me into throwing it out...I started to go thru withdrawals and my roommate told me I took a whole bottle Of Norco without him knowing...
When I came to my senses I asked myself I must be dead...
Folks it's a terrible feeling being a christian and thinking you died of a OD....
I started to go into this trance where I thought the heavens and Earth would pass away and I was going to stand in front of Christ and give an account...
It's was terrifying. Then I thought well I accepted Him as Savior so this must be Heaven...It's a strange feeling thinking you have nothing else to worry about.....
I thru out all my Psych meds and started to get very delusional. I have taken them for eleven years not once have I stopped. I went into In patient and got back on them...I started to come to about a month but was still very delusional.
finally I got better...Folks God has been with me the whole time, I hear Him in His Word more then ever....I've been thru a lot, the Lord knows that...I was just trying to drown out my pain but thru it all I've come to realize that He Loves me more then anything..He came down from Heaven and it cost Him everything but I believe He would do it again if it was just for me He loves me that huch....
I don't know why I'm still here....There was like ninety pills in that bottle.
I have anxiety so I truly do need it....In that month I bought a Internet Benzo off the dark web...I was taking it and getting into my roomies Norco..
My gf talked me into throwing it out...I started to go thru withdrawals and my roommate told me I took a whole bottle Of Norco without him knowing...
When I came to my senses I asked myself I must be dead...
Folks it's a terrible feeling being a christian and thinking you died of a OD....
I started to go into this trance where I thought the heavens and Earth would pass away and I was going to stand in front of Christ and give an account...
It's was terrifying. Then I thought well I accepted Him as Savior so this must be Heaven...It's a strange feeling thinking you have nothing else to worry about.....
I thru out all my Psych meds and started to get very delusional. I have taken them for eleven years not once have I stopped. I went into In patient and got back on them...I started to come to about a month but was still very delusional.
finally I got better...Folks God has been with me the whole time, I hear Him in His Word more then ever....I've been thru a lot, the Lord knows that...I was just trying to drown out my pain but thru it all I've come to realize that He Loves me more then anything..He came down from Heaven and it cost Him everything but I believe He would do it again if it was just for me He loves me that huch....
I don't know why I'm still here....There was like ninety pills in that bottle.
