Something to know about me is that I have limited expression of emotions.
Two of those emotions I lack is love and sorrow.
I do express a notion of "love" but without any feelings involved. For me, love is more about the concept of trust. Trust which can be gained through either spending time with the person or discernment.
Sorrow/loss I express differently. I get confusion mostly which isn't an emotion. I become a lot less efficient in things I normally do and make mistakes. I have to figure out how to do things differently than before.
I'm unable to cry as a result.
For someone I trust (and hence, love) like close relatives, trusted friends, I'd do my best to give them attention, help, time, and keep them safe.
Most people who knows me thinks I'm normal but to me, it's all just an act. I act to look normal, to blend in. But deep inside, I'm probably as cold as a computer.
My main goal in life is to gather as much information about our world in order to know the whole truth to know what really is good and evil. My instinct to care for people I trust and to be "good" according to the standards of this world is mostly about fulfilling that goal.
This makes me strongly drawn towards people who have genuine spiritual gifts as they help me gather information I can't get anywhere else. Most Christians only confuse me as they act in contrary to what they claim to believe.
What people see in me as "love" is all about purpose and action, but zero emotion.
So what gives?
Two of those emotions I lack is love and sorrow.
I do express a notion of "love" but without any feelings involved. For me, love is more about the concept of trust. Trust which can be gained through either spending time with the person or discernment.
Sorrow/loss I express differently. I get confusion mostly which isn't an emotion. I become a lot less efficient in things I normally do and make mistakes. I have to figure out how to do things differently than before.
I'm unable to cry as a result.
For someone I trust (and hence, love) like close relatives, trusted friends, I'd do my best to give them attention, help, time, and keep them safe.
Most people who knows me thinks I'm normal but to me, it's all just an act. I act to look normal, to blend in. But deep inside, I'm probably as cold as a computer.
My main goal in life is to gather as much information about our world in order to know the whole truth to know what really is good and evil. My instinct to care for people I trust and to be "good" according to the standards of this world is mostly about fulfilling that goal.
This makes me strongly drawn towards people who have genuine spiritual gifts as they help me gather information I can't get anywhere else. Most Christians only confuse me as they act in contrary to what they claim to believe.
What people see in me as "love" is all about purpose and action, but zero emotion.
So what gives?