im numb

tyler234

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my life is bad right now. for the past 3 years its been a frozen waterfall. i miss my old life so much. im numb as numb can be. the only things i feel are. warm/cold, loud/quiet, high/sober. for three years ive felt nothing, not like when i was a kid when human interaction brought so many different feelings and emotions, i miss it. i miss the love of another friend. i miss when my brain wasnt bogged down. i cant make a life out of what i have, or been handed with in life, and im still almost 20 years old. i cant get a job or make any friends :( because my brain is so bogged down i cant think of anything to say during an interview or conversation, its like my brains dead(can still think and rationalize though) it sucks life has got to be this stale, hell, even sharp would be better than this. i havent lived my life yet and here i am waiting to get cancer and die while its slow and dull being scraped through these boring long days. prayers wont help, bible verses wont help,,. nor will advice because i just dont see this situation improving i dont see myself becoming motivated to try either. i guess im posting this on here because for the hell of it... maybe, just maybe, god will make my misery end somehow because i dont see anything else will. even though i know god wont help can you still pray to him that he ends my misery?
and yes i may sound common and simple but this is just as crappy as something complicated. not feeling anything sucks.
 
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Mel333

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my life is bad right now. for the past 3 years its been a frozen waterfall. i miss my old life so much. im numb as numb can be. the only things i feel are. warm/cold, loud/quiet, high/sober. for three years ive felt nothing, not like when i was a kid when human interaction brought so many different feelings and emotions, i miss it. i miss the love of another friend. i miss when my brain wasnt bogged down. i cant make a life out of what i have, or been handed with in life, and im still almost 20 years old. i cant get a job or make any friends :( because my brain is so bogged down i cant think of anything to say during an interview or conversation, its like my brains dead(can still think and rationalize though) it sucks life has got to be this stale, hell, even sharp would be better than this. i havent lived my life yet and here i am waiting to get cancer and die while its slow and dull being scraped through these boring long days. prayers wont help, bible verses wont help,,. nor will advice because i just dont see this situation improving i dont see myself becoming motivated to try either. i guess im posting this on here because for the hell of it... maybe, just maybe, god will make my misery end somehow because i dont see anything else will. even though i know god wont help can you still pray to him that he ends my misery?
and yes i may sound common and simple but this is just as crappy as something complicated. not feeling anything sucks.

Praying for you!! I recommend reading some proverbs each day or some other verses in the bible. I hope you will feel better soon.
 
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