I am conflicted as to whether I should ask for council on this issue. Sometimes I think God tells us to do certain things, and he wants to keep it private. I have been struggling so much with this; I don't know what else to do. I have been unemployed for the majority of my adult life. I have always been supported by partners or family. God convicted me of the gravity of this sin. He told me to live on the streets, in order to stop sinning against my mother, whom I live with. I am also negatively influenced by the worldly values of my family by living here. I think that I know the two businesses that He wants me to apply for positions. But step one seems to be an unrelenting get out on the streets first. I know this sounds incredulous, but it has been eating at me for months. I keep trying to get myself to do it. I tried chatting with an online Christian Support person - he asked what I expected him to do about it. Everytime I fast, pray, and read my Bible - this is the direction that I get. I'm not sure what I expect to come out of this thread.