Y'all (Tennessean here)
In March 2017, I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. I was literally on the toilet every day, sick as a dog. I would leave class just because I had this weird feeling. I'd go straight to the bathroom just to cry. I lived on gatorade and chips just to stay hydrated because of all the diarrhea. The medicine helped a lot. I even got some of my memory back, just being able to concentrate. Every time I thought I was ready to go off of it, my doctor gave me a reason to stay on it (winter, graduation, find a job, etc). So I listened and continued to pray about this journey. I really did not want to be on this medicine, but I stayed. I gained about 40-50 pounds while on it.
I went on this medicine because in 2011, I always had these things going through my mind like what if I had done something that was not forgivable. It was literally always on my mind. I had terrible dreams of words being said against God (all His names and persons), and it would replay in my mind. It drove me nuts. I got to the point, 6 years later where I could not take it anymore. I went on the medicine and I was scared to death that I could not get off of it.
What I am here to say is that if you need help, seek it. Seek it through God and go from there. I ended up just taking a small dose of medicine, I sought some mental health counseling which did not help my problems, but it was a good vent to let off what was going on in life, and now I do biblical counseling at a church. I even have been off of the medicine for a month, but only taking it as needed which I have only taken once. I believe that I am completely freed from that. I thought that coming off of the medicine was going to be a challenge because a lot of people have a hard time coming off of it. Not me. I had God by my side. Is my whole problem solved? No, I still growing with Him. I do regret a lot of the stuff that has came through my mind and has twisted my way of trying to think or talk which were total accidents because I was so frazzled out. He is still here and He has taught me so much.
What I want you to know: If you are scared to come off of med, do a lot of prayer. If you are on the ones that I was afraid to come off of, it's not as hard as the Youtubers say it is. Trust Him and listen to your doctor on how to come off of them. I split the pill in half and took it every day. Then the next month, I split that in half for two weeks and was able to come off of it.
Take care, yall. I just felt like I wanted to share this! I don't share much.
In Christ,
Sister Carrie
In March 2017, I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. I was literally on the toilet every day, sick as a dog. I would leave class just because I had this weird feeling. I'd go straight to the bathroom just to cry. I lived on gatorade and chips just to stay hydrated because of all the diarrhea. The medicine helped a lot. I even got some of my memory back, just being able to concentrate. Every time I thought I was ready to go off of it, my doctor gave me a reason to stay on it (winter, graduation, find a job, etc). So I listened and continued to pray about this journey. I really did not want to be on this medicine, but I stayed. I gained about 40-50 pounds while on it.
I went on this medicine because in 2011, I always had these things going through my mind like what if I had done something that was not forgivable. It was literally always on my mind. I had terrible dreams of words being said against God (all His names and persons), and it would replay in my mind. It drove me nuts. I got to the point, 6 years later where I could not take it anymore. I went on the medicine and I was scared to death that I could not get off of it.
What I am here to say is that if you need help, seek it. Seek it through God and go from there. I ended up just taking a small dose of medicine, I sought some mental health counseling which did not help my problems, but it was a good vent to let off what was going on in life, and now I do biblical counseling at a church. I even have been off of the medicine for a month, but only taking it as needed which I have only taken once. I believe that I am completely freed from that. I thought that coming off of the medicine was going to be a challenge because a lot of people have a hard time coming off of it. Not me. I had God by my side. Is my whole problem solved? No, I still growing with Him. I do regret a lot of the stuff that has came through my mind and has twisted my way of trying to think or talk which were total accidents because I was so frazzled out. He is still here and He has taught me so much.
What I want you to know: If you are scared to come off of med, do a lot of prayer. If you are on the ones that I was afraid to come off of, it's not as hard as the Youtubers say it is. Trust Him and listen to your doctor on how to come off of them. I split the pill in half and took it every day. Then the next month, I split that in half for two weeks and was able to come off of it.
Take care, yall. I just felt like I wanted to share this! I don't share much.
In Christ,
Sister Carrie
