Sometimes i get jealous of other people with spirit filled christian parents. I didnt, and have a lot to forgive them of. Im a strong beleiver but i need to forgive my parents. Any similar situations with anyone?
So I am a sickly little old lady now, and when I go to my place of worship, I go with a cart I can push. It carries my Bible, my siddur, purse, pen and paper, a drink, hand sanitizer . . . . and a little desk. And Velcroed to the corner of the desk is a tiny book I titled "Mother."
That little book is around a couple years old, and when I think of something nice that Mother did, I make a note of it in the book. Many days, even weeks, go by without my writing in the book, but yesterday, I wrote in it, "When we moved (from far-northern California) to Mississippi, it was miserably hot, and the mosquitoes were thick. She taught us to wipe ourselves down . . . , when going to bed, with rubbing alcohol, to cool ourselves and to send the mosquitioes away."
The first entry in my little book is "Mother married Father." Another couple entries are, "She carried me to birth" and "She let me live." The Sun, there were times when I didn't think I was going to live through her beatings, and I hated her for decades.
But the day came when I decided to make the little book, in order to stimulate love for her. As a believer, I knew I needed to love her, although both she and Father have been dead for years. The book has helped. Tremendously. But it is our G_D Who has brought me this far.
I am now 70 years old, and I'm still working on this. Don't let that discourage you: I refused to work on it for years, while you are working on it NOW! But today, I can honestly say that G_D has changed my heart toward her, has shown me many reasons to love her, including His love for me and His Commands. I am SO THERE!!! I am so there!
G_D can work miracles! He is GOOD. His interest in you is profound, and He wants your success.
(The Sun, when I was in their home, we were a church-going family, Father was a preacher, Mother a Sunday school teacher, etc., but none of this helped. It takes actually knowing G_D!
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