Praying for you. It is hard to go through times like that. When I feel far from God I go to Psalms. Read what the scriptures say. See how David felt alone at times. He called out, over and over. And God was faithful. God still is faithful.
God is always there, even if we think He isn't. It isn't that He isn't speaking to us, it is more like we aren't listening. Sometimes we want to hear Him in specific ways, but that doesn't mean that is how He wants to be heard. When it comes to feeling Him, it isn't always about an actual feeling.
Read His work, pray before you do for His Holy Spirit to guide and direct you, to transform your thinking, to open your eyes and heart to what God is saying in His word. The Word is the Sword of the Spirit, it is so powerful. Find God there. He is always there.