I found out when I went through a nervous breakdown about 4 years ago (because of work), that I was very fearful of my bosses, and leaders at work. I found that in time I grew attracted physically to them. Once I received treatment through a state health agency in my town I was put on disability for a year to treat my episode. All my symptoms went away. No more anxiety or fear. And not one homosexual thought in 4 and a half years. It was not a biological "gay gene" it was rather a psychotic episode that was treatable. I am not saying that yours is the same as mine, I am just saying that those thoughts and feelings will go away with treatment. I still take medicine as it's a lifelong thing. But there are many cases of homosexuals changing, repenting, whatever and taking control of their sex lives in a Biblical manner. Sex abuse as a child or adult, by fathers, or by Priests, can cause this said fear and codependence. Many times counseling is needed. And Sometimes medicine can take the edge off of your nervousness, and making your mind calm down enough to realize- I am really not attracted to the same sex, that was just a front because I was scared to cope with my responsibility (in some cases) , and with others they are afraid to cope with their masculinity as it may have been robbed from them as a child through molestation. It is easier in high anxiety cases to siphon the masculinity from others than to use the God given masculinity we all have. This co-dependence creates a sense of laziness in emotional connections, and one finds it easy as well to just like the same person they are codependent on for strength. Now this may be why you have a “manly” partner, and a “feminine” partner in homosexual relationships. I assume this is why. The first step in overcoming this is to treat anxiety/paranoia if any. Then to ask God for strength and grace to put you in situations with increasing responsibility while not crushing you. In time as you gain confidence you start to realize, I do like the opposite sex, that was just a cop out because I was afraid.
see this link for more stories:
http://www.restoredhopenetwork.com/index.php/resources/stories
I think ultimately my desire to follow God and be what He wanted was more important than any sexual desire I had. I struggle with other issues but that is one that God has completely given me victory over.
focus on the family has recommended these ministries for those desiring to come out of the homosexual lifestyle:
Restored Hope Network
Home | Desert Stream
Katharos Network - Home
There are many reasons to fight against homosexual thoughts:
Yours and others healths, and to heal your relationship with God.
The National Center for Biotechnology Information ( a governmental agency)
"Men who have sex with men (MSM) are the population most heavily affected by infection with human immunodeficiency virus (HIV) [1]. The rate of a new HIV diagnosis among MSM is more than
40 times that of women and more than 44 times that of other men [2]. In 2010, male-to-male sex remained the largest HIV transmission category in the United States and the only one associated with an increasing number of HIV/ acquired immunodeficiency syndrome (AIDS) diagnoses [3]. Although MSM represent about 7% of the male population in the United States, they account for 78% of the new HIV infections among males, reinforcing the need for intensive HIV prevention services and testing campaigns [4]."
eHealth Interventions for HIV Prevention in High-Risk Men Who Have Sex With Men: A Systematic Review
But I can't post the study as it gets sexually explicit. But I have read the thoroughly, and it does say that MSM male sex needs to be restricted, and that there currently was no way to stop transmission. Condoms do lessen the transmission, but not enough.
"In addition, the use of condoms or other physical barrier devices does not always prevent trauma
during vigorous physical interaction and trauma increases the risk of transmission of infection."
official court documents regarding legality of MSM in belize here is another quote:
"Some Public Health practitioners and agencies have hypothesized that decriminalizing
the practice of anal intercourse among consenting adults would lead to a reduction in the
incidence rate of HIV infections among MSM.
To date, published data have not substantiated
this hypothesis."