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Dear friends,

This should maybe be posted in the prayer requests section so forgive me for posting here, I'm sure you won't mind.

Andrea and I are really struggling. Although she has registered here, she's kind of not the person to check forums so she will not see this.

Also excuse me if I post things that are strange to the Orthodox view, but I know from experience that you are the most loving group here, if I post these things on the "correct" forums I might get torn to shreds. So please pray as you feel it is right to do so - I feel safe sharing these things with you -

Andrea - her health is really bad. The cancer is gone, but Arthritis and Fibromyalgia are huge problems. She can hardly walk now at 50 years of age. She is in constant pain from head to foot - a baby Christian who cannot claim all the promises of God. She needs something from God. She has no life - 2-3 hours of seeing the grandkids and she is in bed for 2-3 days.

It's not right and it's not fair.

I've lived like the devil for most of my life and got away with everything. Taken drugs, drink, 50+ partners and nothing. Yet Andrea has had 2 partners, her first husband and me, never smoked, never drank yet suffers like this.

Me - my work is hell. I've been in my new job 70 days now, and it's been constant abuse. I've had 4 claims of sexual harassment from a bitter man-hating feminist. As a Project Manager I've been repeatedly told to f**k off and other words from employees when I have asked "how is your work going?". A director told me over a month ago to "get the f**k out of the company" and abused me in the middle of the office. I am being nailed to the cross on a daily basis as I am accountable for the project, yet I'm treated worse than a cleaning lady. On Monday things got even worse - I was threatened by a colleague - he waved a screwdriver in my face and then smashed it into the desk twice. The police are now involved, and I am off on 2 weeks work related stress and medication. Great - but I have 1 weeks pay - so I'll be down $1500 for the second week.

The cancer already had us almost bankrupt financially now this.

I want to believe God works everything for our good. I can't see it.

Friday nights I get wrecked on beer....it's the only time I feel I can cope. God seems so far away. I get very down into a spiral...if I was on my own I'd not be here. I know I want to follow God but there is so much darkness inside me. We need miracles. We need health, a decent job, hell some money to pay the bills.

I need a revelation that God loves me. My daily perception - He isn't the prodigal father at all...he hates me terribly.

Then the grandchildren :

One is autistic
One is getting deaf
Theo was one last month - he's getting tested for epilepsy today

It's all going so pear shaped. Where is there any relief or help? Where is the balm from Gilead?

Don't give a s**t about myself. I want healing for Andrea. I want relief for her. The kids need God to break the curses that are on their lives.

Prayers appreciated - thanks my friends.

Dave
 

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Sometimes God walks us through very dark places where it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but be assured the light is there because He is the light. And He said He would never leave you nor forsake you! I've been in those dark places that seemed endless and hopeless, but He's always gotten me through. There's always hope in Him!

I pray that your family will see the mighty hand of God bless you with strength, healing and wholeness. The following verse came to mind as I've been writing this and praying for you.

Hebrews 10:35--So don’t throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you need endurance, so that after you have done God’s will, you may receive what was promised.
 
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Dear friends,

This should maybe be posted in the prayer requests section so forgive me for posting here, I'm sure you won't mind.

Andrea and I are really struggling. Although she has registered here, she's kind of not the person to check forums so she will not see this.

Also excuse me if I post things that are strange to the Orthodox view, but I know from experience that you are the most loving group here, if I post these things on the "correct" forums I might get torn to shreds. So please pray as you feel it is right to do so - I feel safe sharing these things with you -

Andrea - her health is really bad. The cancer is gone, but Arthritis and Fibromyalgia are huge problems. She can hardly walk now at 50 years of age. She is in constant pain from head to foot - a baby Christian who cannot claim all the promises of God. She needs something from God. She has no life - 2-3 hours of seeing the grandkids and she is in bed for 2-3 days.

It's not right and it's not fair.

I've lived like the devil for most of my life and got away with everything. Taken drugs, drink, 50+ partners and nothing. Yet Andrea has had 2 partners, her first husband and me, never smoked, never drank yet suffers like this.

Me - my work is hell. I've been in my new job 70 days now, and it's been constant abuse. I've had 4 claims of sexual harassment from a bitter man-hating feminist. As a Project Manager I've been repeatedly told to f**k off and other words from employees when I have asked "how is your work going?". A director told me over a month ago to "get the f**k out of the company" and abused me in the middle of the office. I am being nailed to the cross on a daily basis as I am accountable for the project, yet I'm treated worse than a cleaning lady. On Monday things got even worse - I was threatened by a colleague - he waved a screwdriver in my face and then smashed it into the desk twice. The police are now involved, and I am off on 2 weeks work related stress and medication. Great - but I have 1 weeks pay - so I'll be down $1500 for the second week.

The cancer already had us almost bankrupt financially now this.

I want to believe God works everything for our good. I can't see it.

Friday nights I get wrecked on beer....it's the only time I feel I can cope. God seems so far away. I get very down into a spiral...if I was on my own I'd not be here. I know I want to follow God but there is so much darkness inside me. We need miracles. We need health, a decent job, hell some money to pay the bills.

I need a revelation that God loves me. My daily perception - He isn't the prodigal father at all...he hates me terribly.

Then the grandchildren :

One is autistic
One is getting deaf
Theo was one last month - he's getting tested for epilepsy today

It's all going so pear shaped. Where is there any relief or help? Where is the balm from Gilead?

Don't give a s**t about myself. I want healing for Andrea. I want relief for her. The kids need God to break the curses that are on their lives.

Prayers appreciated - thanks my friends.

Dave
Lord have mercy! Praying for Andrea and all of you :crosseo:
 
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Dave - I've only just seen this.

I'm so sorry you are still struggling so much .

You have both been added to my personal prayer list.

Cancer is not easy to cope with - OK the medical aspects can be 'dealt with' but it's the other stuff that so many folk forget about - the extra stress on the 'other half' , the coping with finances [ or lack of them :( ] etc etc etc.

Lord have mercy !
 
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Forgive me please, I only just saw this now.

Prayers for you both, and for all of your family.

It is a lot to be going through. I only wish I could offer some real comfort, or words of wisdom, but I have none. Only that I walked through some really dark situations myself when dealing with cancer and family and financial issues all at once. Three years from my diagnosis and things have finally been improving over the past six months (or looking like they will), but I'm not there yet.

All I can really offer are my prayers. And you have them. May God have mercy on you and on Andrea, as well as your grandchildren and their parents. I hope you can very soon begin to be encouraged.

God be with you all.
 
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Thank you for your prayers.

Beginning to think I'm one of those people destined for hell. Andrea excited to go to a service tomorrow night for healing prayer from a guy called John Mellor (Australia).

Me? Can't be bothered would rather drink and be on my own.
 
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Thank you for your prayers.

Beginning to think I'm one of those people destined for hell. Andrea excited to go to a service tomorrow night for healing prayer from a guy called John Mellor (Australia).

Me? Can't be bothered would rather drink and be on my own.
Everyone goes through phases like that. All you need to do is decide not to give in and start struggling against it. Lord knows I'm having to do the same. Recognising that you are failing is half the battle.
 
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Thank you for your prayers.

Beginning to think I'm one of those people destined for hell. Andrea excited to go to a service tomorrow night for healing prayer from a guy called John Mellor (Australia).

Me? Can't be bothered would rather drink and be on my own.

folks who see how fallen they are, are often closest to the Kingdom.

hang in there.
 
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Thank you for your prayers.

Beginning to think I'm one of those people destined for hell. Andrea excited to go to a service tomorrow night for healing prayer from a guy called John Mellor (Australia).

Me? Can't be bothered would rather drink and be on my own.
I actually worry sometimes about emotion-laden "healing services" (to be fair I've never heard of this person - it's just the general atmosphere). It can sometimes be good for people. It has been good for me at points long in the past. But sometimes people pin hopes on the service and their faith can be damaged in the long run.

If it were me personally, I would not go. Though if I had an opportunity to visit particular monasteries and ask for prayer I would definitely make that effort.

Anyway. NO ONE is "destined for hell". God desires each and every person to be saved. But we all go through very dark and tough times. Generally repeatedly. Just hold on. Prodromos and ArmyMatt are both very right.

Prayers for you both.
 
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