Hi, Devin
It is good to see you, again
The Bible says that if any person is in Jesus, the person's old past is gone > "passed away" > 2 Corinthians 5:17. And the person has a new beginning.
So, to me this would mean that as far as God is concerned, you are new, in Jesus. What this evil world did to you does not decide how God sees you and all He pleases to do with you. And God will do all which He is committed to doing with you, in every detail. He will not fail.
So, with God you can't miss out on anything which matters to Him.
My opinion, then, for you to evaluate for yourself, is that > to God, no you are not damaged goods.
But, Devin > we all still need deep correction so we are not giving in to how this evil world would effect us . . . now.
"Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." (Romans 12:21)
It helps me to forgive ones who have bullied and violated me, in my past. Also, when people now do evil awful things to me, I do well to get with God in prayer, and trust Him to correct me so I am loving those people and I am ready to be their example of how to love . . . so God can use me to help them find out who Jesus is and how to love.
Jesus has done this with us. He expects us to follow His example. Why expect less? This is so good, what Jesus wants to share with us.
But yes it is impossible for any of us. If you get to know some Christians who are more real and who really can forgive, I'll be they will tell you they were not always this way, but they needed to get right with God and be changed to be more like Jesus so they could really love even awful people . . . like Jesus did, on the cross.
So, I would say you are not some special case without hope in your case. But God sees us better than we do, and love "hopes all things" (in 1 Corinthians 13:7).
So, I am honored and pleased to meet you, and God bless you