Ever since I was as young as I can remember I’ve always gotten nightmares very easily. Not only have I gotten nightmares from stories or movies or a TV show but I’ve had nightmares from songs or words people have said.
I’ve always had an overactive imagination. Most of the time it’s a gift that’s very handy and I’m thankful for it but sometimes I wish I didn’t have any imagination because I get horrible nightmares from the smallest of things.
Sometimes after a nightmare when I wake up I can still hear and see things from the nightmare when I’m awake clearly as if they were real. These nightmares or night terrors I should say aren’t just one night and then it’s over. I can get them for weeks or even months on end without relief.
It’s also getting worse as I’m getting older. Before when I was younger all I had to do to avoid nightmares was just avoid scary movies, shows, and stories. Easy enough to do and I don’t mind that. Thing is as I’m getting older I’m getting night terrors and panic and anxiety attacks way more often and way more easily then I used to. Now I have to avoid certain music, certain songs. I can’t watch or read or listen to any news at all anymore, and I have to be so much more careful with what I watch or listen to now even if it’s not intended to be scary. Like the other day, I was watching Aerial Britain and they were showing the most beautiful Aerial views and talking about the history of Britain I was enjoying it but I had to mute it for a couple of minutes while they talked about Brahm Stoker and his inspiration for Dracula. I couldn’t listen to it because I knew if I did (though I know vampires are all fiction) that it could still give me a panic or anxiety attack or a night terror.
I’m tired of this. I’m tired of living in fear of what I may see or hear for fear it’s going to scare me so bad I’ll be sitting in a rocking chair rocking back and forth staring at a wall humming to myself. For fear that I’ll get night terrors for months and months on end. I don’t want to live in fear any more I’m tired of it. I’m almost afraid of reading or watching or listening to anything at all anymore because I fear how it’ll affect me and I don’t want to live like this anymore. Avoiding horror movies is one thing that I can accept but I don’t want to live in fear of day to day life.
Please pray that GOD will help me to conquer fear and that He’ll protect me from all nightmares and night terrors.
I’ve always had an overactive imagination. Most of the time it’s a gift that’s very handy and I’m thankful for it but sometimes I wish I didn’t have any imagination because I get horrible nightmares from the smallest of things.
Sometimes after a nightmare when I wake up I can still hear and see things from the nightmare when I’m awake clearly as if they were real. These nightmares or night terrors I should say aren’t just one night and then it’s over. I can get them for weeks or even months on end without relief.
It’s also getting worse as I’m getting older. Before when I was younger all I had to do to avoid nightmares was just avoid scary movies, shows, and stories. Easy enough to do and I don’t mind that. Thing is as I’m getting older I’m getting night terrors and panic and anxiety attacks way more often and way more easily then I used to. Now I have to avoid certain music, certain songs. I can’t watch or read or listen to any news at all anymore, and I have to be so much more careful with what I watch or listen to now even if it’s not intended to be scary. Like the other day, I was watching Aerial Britain and they were showing the most beautiful Aerial views and talking about the history of Britain I was enjoying it but I had to mute it for a couple of minutes while they talked about Brahm Stoker and his inspiration for Dracula. I couldn’t listen to it because I knew if I did (though I know vampires are all fiction) that it could still give me a panic or anxiety attack or a night terror.
I’m tired of this. I’m tired of living in fear of what I may see or hear for fear it’s going to scare me so bad I’ll be sitting in a rocking chair rocking back and forth staring at a wall humming to myself. For fear that I’ll get night terrors for months and months on end. I don’t want to live in fear any more I’m tired of it. I’m almost afraid of reading or watching or listening to anything at all anymore because I fear how it’ll affect me and I don’t want to live like this anymore. Avoiding horror movies is one thing that I can accept but I don’t want to live in fear of day to day life.
Please pray that GOD will help me to conquer fear and that He’ll protect me from all nightmares and night terrors.
