Hi there,
So I am not singling any one out (if you want to show sympathy you can), but now that I have been on medication for a while now: I am not experiencing (theological) highs and lows. I simply do not have a taste for controversy in the Bible at all. By the same token, I am not interested in past views of the Bible changing either: I just don't have the strength to pursue them.
The Bible says we overcome the Devil by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony, and that's about where I am. I am writing this as evidence, that at one point I believed as much as you could possibly believe about scripture and now it has all be drugged away - but I remember that my works will follow after me, if I die in the Lord from now on.
It is hard, I used to feel really special, like my interpretation of the Bible was going to be believed by everyone, that I would just walk up to the pulpit and start preaching wonderful things - now I just wait.
Don't be scared of medication, that's not my intent - I'm just saying sometimes the will of God is simpler, because that's all there is...
(maybe something you can take from this, is that the more controversial you try to make your theology, the more likely to be exhausted you will be (when trials come!)?)
So I am not singling any one out (if you want to show sympathy you can), but now that I have been on medication for a while now: I am not experiencing (theological) highs and lows. I simply do not have a taste for controversy in the Bible at all. By the same token, I am not interested in past views of the Bible changing either: I just don't have the strength to pursue them.
The Bible says we overcome the Devil by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony, and that's about where I am. I am writing this as evidence, that at one point I believed as much as you could possibly believe about scripture and now it has all be drugged away - but I remember that my works will follow after me, if I die in the Lord from now on.
It is hard, I used to feel really special, like my interpretation of the Bible was going to be believed by everyone, that I would just walk up to the pulpit and start preaching wonderful things - now I just wait.
Don't be scared of medication, that's not my intent - I'm just saying sometimes the will of God is simpler, because that's all there is...
(maybe something you can take from this, is that the more controversial you try to make your theology, the more likely to be exhausted you will be (when trials come!)?)