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Just wanna share some of my life story so far with everyone

I'm 24 years old. I started smoking pot and taking pills at a young age I was in 7th grade. In 9th grade I got directly
hit by a EF-5 tornado[April 27], and everything around me was destroyed but the meat cooler I was in. The beams of the
building was twisted, my dads car had a gas pump in it, and if he would have been 5 minutes later then what he did he would
have been sitting there and got killed. He left and came to my work, which was down the road from where he was at the time.
He didn't want to leave me. He told me he prayed God take me and leave my son. He spared us all, by the grace of GOD I and
others was saved. A little bit older I overdosed on pills, and was in the hospital fighting for my life. I didn't even
know where I was at and what I was doing. I was smoking a crayon thinking it was a cigarette, that's how messed up I was
at the time. I was around 16 or 17 when this happend. And over the course of my teenage years, I was addicted to drugs. I
took all kinds of different drugs, I really don't want to list them all. When I was around 19 years old I started having
spiritual attacks and my mind was all out of whack.
I would play games and have thoughts like " If I make this shot i'ma sell my soul... then i would think something like no no I don't mean that and I would do it over and over."
And just would have crazy thoughts like this. ( As a younger kid I would have a headache and keep shaking my head even though I had a headache just to see if it was still there)
I would flip the light switch off and close the door,lock it and put the chain on the door..Then open it back up look outside and flip the light on and then back off too make sure it was really off etc.
I fought with the evil thoughts about selling my soul or what not, and one night it was like I had enough and I thought the thought, or maybe I said it I can't remember. And I had the worst fear come up on my whole body and knew I had to get it Church.
I fought with the worst mental attacks of my life CONSTANTLY throughout the whole day. I couldn't go to sleep, I even was sleep paralyzed and heard a voice say " HEYYYYY THEREEEE" and I got so scared I left my room and didn't go back in it for years.
I was reading the bible strugling that I done sold my soul and there was no hope and I came across a verse in the bible

Ezekiel 18:4
4 Behold, all souls are mine; as the soul of the father, so also the soul of the son is mine: the soul that sinneth, it shall die.

A weight lifted off me and I just had my proof that I didn't even own my soul.
My mother told me there's nothing you can't be forgiven for expect blaspheming the Holy Ghost. When she told me that I tried my best to not to think anything bad then boom...... I had a curse word go through my mind about the Holy Ghost I really don't even wanna write. And ptetty much this happend plus alot of other things like.... "Sa... is my god now." I would pray and think and I would put the enemys name in place of where Jesus was supposed to go. This happened for so long, it seemed like forever.
I went to mental health talked with some doctors she told me it sounds like OCD. So she gave me paxil and I took it and started at 10mg and eventually ended up on 40mg of paxil.

Just hoping one day that Jesus would forgive me and take this away, I had this hope.
I went to Churh one night and I go to a Church where they speak in tongues.And this is true I was thinking in my mind thinking " Jesus your my Shepard , Jesus I am your sheep " over and over and over. Tongues broke out in Church and my Pastor has the gift of interpretation and he replied " Yea, you are my sheep yea, I am your Shepard " I praised the LORD it was the happiest thing I have felt in months!!! After service I told him that I felt like it was for me, I still had the thoughts but I had this hope now. This truth you know?
I stayed on my medication and trusted in God , read Gods Word wrote down verses memorized watched sermons everything I could do. Eventually the thoughts were no longer as bad or bothering me almost completely gone! I felt new brand new!!!!!!!!!
I met this girl we started dating, ( yeah I was about 21-22 and never really really dated before or even had sex) We got married January 2016 and for the next 3 years I had a new life. Looking back I did mess up and should've did some things different but no evil thoughts...

I had to get surgery to get my wisdom teeth removed and was prescribed like 30 pain pills.
I took them and then kept taking them and was addicted to them.I started to go back to my old ways, abusing them snorting them too just get high. Then I stoled a pain pill from my dad to get high. Then I had a thought " I wonder if it was the weed that really did me this way or not" Then I got back on weed smoking it. I smoked a gram a day for 6 months never missed a day, and I started doing ' dabs ' which was very potent. Started listening to this evil rap music with some pretty vile lyrics.....

I always also had a fear of my wife cheating on me also.
When I first started back smoking weed again, my wife had this co worker friend who smoked weed.She asked him to bring her some back for me. He went to Colorado and brought back some weed and she went over to his house picked it up and brought it home and gave it to me. Months rolled by and one day i found out on google maps she visited his house again besides that one time. I asked her and she lied pretty much and I thought the worst like hey my wife has been cheating on me, and I TRIED SO HARD for 4 MONTHS everyday to get this out my mind. I would have thoughts over and over about them having sex and It haunted me for 4 months straight. I thought nothing would ever be the same.
After this i was really paranoid and couldn't trust anyone my cousins, my dad etc... I would call her everyday and cry and cuss her and demand her home and I just couldn't drop it.
I regret all this now because I know nothing went on but I was so heart broken. I couldn't see why God allowed this gave her to me and this happened.

One night I was smoking weed with my 2 cousins and I was sitting there and I had a random thought like a whisper pop in my mind that said " I love sa... "
Right after I thought " OH NO here we go again "
balling asking for prayer I knew this is a spiritual attack.
And since September of 2018 I have been plagued again with blasphemous thoughts.
It's been almost 6-7 months of me going through this everyday.
And since I have heard more messages in tongues being spoken.
I just feel like God can't forgive me a second time.
I went back to the Doctor just recently it's been 1 week today and I am now on Zoloft 25mg and in 1 week I go to 50mg

Please pray for me I prayed to never go back through this mental torment again and sometimes I feel like I can't go on no more. The fear that grips me and the millions of questions that go through my mind. I have since stopped smoking weed, listening to rap music heck i just plugged my computer back in after months of it being in the closet.
 

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Just wanna share some of my life story so far with everyone

I'm 24 years old. I started smoking pot and taking pills at a young age I was in 7th grade. In 9th grade I got directly
hit by a EF-5 tornado[April 27], and everything around me was destroyed but the meat cooler I was in. The beams of the
building was twisted, my dads car had a gas pump in it, and if he would have been 5 minutes later then what he did he would
have been sitting there and got killed. He left and came to my work, which was down the road from where he was at the time.
He didn't want to leave me. He told me he prayed God take me and leave my son. He spared us all, by the grace of GOD I and
others was saved. A little bit older I overdosed on pills, and was in the hospital fighting for my life. I didn't even
know where I was at and what I was doing. I was smoking a crayon thinking it was a cigarette, that's how messed up I was
at the time. I was around 16 or 17 when this happend. And over the course of my teenage years, I was addicted to drugs. I
took all kinds of different drugs, I really don't want to list them all. When I was around 19 years old I started having
spiritual attacks and my mind was all out of whack.
I would play games and have thoughts like " If I make this shot i'ma sell my soul... then i would think something like no no I don't mean that and I would do it over and over."
And just would have crazy thoughts like this. ( As a younger kid I would have a headache and keep shaking my head even though I had a headache just to see if it was still there)
I would flip the light switch off and close the door,lock it and put the chain on the door..Then open it back up look outside and flip the light on and then back off too make sure it was really off etc.
I fought with the evil thoughts about selling my soul or what not, and one night it was like I had enough and I thought the thought, or maybe I said it I can't remember. And I had the worst fear come up on my whole body and knew I had to get it Church.
I fought with the worst mental attacks of my life CONSTANTLY throughout the whole day. I couldn't go to sleep, I even was sleep paralyzed and heard a voice say " HEYYYYY THEREEEE" and I got so scared I left my room and didn't go back in it for years.
I was reading the bible strugling that I done sold my soul and there was no hope and I came across a verse in the bible

Ezekiel 18:4
4 Behold, all souls are mine; as the soul of the father, so also the soul of the son is mine: the soul that sinneth, it shall die.

A weight lifted off me and I just had my proof that I didn't even own my soul.
My mother told me there's nothing you can't be forgiven for expect blaspheming the Holy Ghost. When she told me that I tried my best to not to think anything bad then boom...... I had a curse word go through my mind about the Holy Ghost I really don't even wanna write. And ptetty much this happend plus alot of other things like.... "Sa... is my god now." I would pray and think and I would put the enemys name in place of where Jesus was supposed to go. This happened for so long, it seemed like forever.
I went to mental health talked with some doctors she told me it sounds like OCD. So she gave me paxil and I took it and started at 10mg and eventually ended up on 40mg of paxil.

Just hoping one day that Jesus would forgive me and take this away, I had this hope.
I went to Churh one night and I go to a Church where they speak in tongues.And this is true I was thinking in my mind thinking " Jesus your my Shepard , Jesus I am your sheep " over and over and over. Tongues broke out in Church and my Pastor has the gift of interpretation and he replied " Yea, you are my sheep yea, I am your Shepard " I praised the LORD it was the happiest thing I have felt in months!!! After service I told him that I felt like it was for me, I still had the thoughts but I had this hope now. This truth you know?
I stayed on my medication and trusted in God , read Gods Word wrote down verses memorized watched sermons everything I could do. Eventually the thoughts were no longer as bad or bothering me almost completely gone! I felt new brand new!!!!!!!!!
I met this girl we started dating, ( yeah I was about 21-22 and never really really dated before or even had sex) We got married January 2016 and for the next 3 years I had a new life. Looking back I did mess up and should've did some things different but no evil thoughts...

I had to get surgery to get my wisdom teeth removed and was prescribed like 30 pain pills.
I took them and then kept taking them and was addicted to them.I started to go back to my old ways, abusing them snorting them too just get high. Then I stoled a pain pill from my dad to get high. Then I had a thought " I wonder if it was the weed that really did me this way or not" Then I got back on weed smoking it. I smoked a gram a day for 6 months never missed a day, and I started doing ' dabs ' which was very potent. Started listening to this evil rap music with some pretty vile lyrics.....

I always also had a fear of my wife cheating on me also.
When I first started back smoking weed again, my wife had this co worker friend who smoked weed.She asked him to bring her some back for me. He went to Colorado and brought back some weed and she went over to his house picked it up and brought it home and gave it to me. Months rolled by and one day i found out on google maps she visited his house again besides that one time. I asked her and she lied pretty much and I thought the worst like hey my wife has been cheating on me, and I TRIED SO HARD for 4 MONTHS everyday to get this out my mind. I would have thoughts over and over about them having sex and It haunted me for 4 months straight. I thought nothing would ever be the same.
After this i was really paranoid and couldn't trust anyone my cousins, my dad etc... I would call her everyday and cry and cuss her and demand her home and I just couldn't drop it.
I regret all this now because I know nothing went on but I was so heart broken. I couldn't see why God allowed this gave her to me and this happened.

One night I was smoking weed with my 2 cousins and I was sitting there and I had a random thought like a whisper pop in my mind that said " I love sa... "
Right after I thought " OH NO here we go again "
balling asking for prayer I knew this is a spiritual attack.
And since September of 2018 I have been plagued again with blasphemous thoughts.
It's been almost 6-7 months of me going through this everyday.
And since I have heard more messages in tongues being spoken.
I just feel like God can't forgive me a second time.
I went back to the Doctor just recently it's been 1 week today and I am now on Zoloft 25mg and in 1 week I go to 50mg

Please pray for me I prayed to never go back through this mental torment again and sometimes I feel like I can't go on no more. The fear that grips me and the millions of questions that go through my mind. I have since stopped smoking weed, listening to rap music heck i just plugged my computer back in after months of it being in the closet.
I just want to let you know that you are not alone and that I struggle with these thoughts everyday and I know that God loves you and me and Jesus is our Lord and Saviour and it's all about Him. God bless you and Jesus is Lord, you can message me anytime.
 
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Just wanna share some of my life story so far with everyone

I'm 24 years old. I started smoking pot and taking pills at a young age I was in 7th grade. In 9th grade I got directly
hit by a EF-5 tornado[April 27], and everything around me was destroyed but the meat cooler I was in. The beams of the
building was twisted, my dads car had a gas pump in it, and if he would have been 5 minutes later then what he did he would
have been sitting there and got killed. He left and came to my work, which was down the road from where he was at the time.
He didn't want to leave me. He told me he prayed God take me and leave my son. He spared us all, by the grace of GOD I and
others was saved. A little bit older I overdosed on pills, and was in the hospital fighting for my life. I didn't even
know where I was at and what I was doing. I was smoking a crayon thinking it was a cigarette, that's how messed up I was
at the time. I was around 16 or 17 when this happend. And over the course of my teenage years, I was addicted to drugs. I
took all kinds of different drugs, I really don't want to list them all. When I was around 19 years old I started having
spiritual attacks and my mind was all out of whack.
I would play games and have thoughts like " If I make this shot i'ma sell my soul... then i would think something like no no I don't mean that and I would do it over and over."
And just would have crazy thoughts like this. ( As a younger kid I would have a headache and keep shaking my head even though I had a headache just to see if it was still there)
I would flip the light switch off and close the door,lock it and put the chain on the door..Then open it back up look outside and flip the light on and then back off too make sure it was really off etc.
I fought with the evil thoughts about selling my soul or what not, and one night it was like I had enough and I thought the thought, or maybe I said it I can't remember. And I had the worst fear come up on my whole body and knew I had to get it Church.
I fought with the worst mental attacks of my life CONSTANTLY throughout the whole day. I couldn't go to sleep, I even was sleep paralyzed and heard a voice say " HEYYYYY THEREEEE" and I got so scared I left my room and didn't go back in it for years.
I was reading the bible strugling that I done sold my soul and there was no hope and I came across a verse in the bible

Ezekiel 18:4
4 Behold, all souls are mine; as the soul of the father, so also the soul of the son is mine: the soul that sinneth, it shall die.

A weight lifted off me and I just had my proof that I didn't even own my soul.
My mother told me there's nothing you can't be forgiven for expect blaspheming the Holy Ghost. When she told me that I tried my best to not to think anything bad then boom...... I had a curse word go through my mind about the Holy Ghost I really don't even wanna write. And ptetty much this happend plus alot of other things like.... "Sa... is my god now." I would pray and think and I would put the enemys name in place of where Jesus was supposed to go. This happened for so long, it seemed like forever.
I went to mental health talked with some doctors she told me it sounds like OCD. So she gave me paxil and I took it and started at 10mg and eventually ended up on 40mg of paxil.

Just hoping one day that Jesus would forgive me and take this away, I had this hope.
I went to Churh one night and I go to a Church where they speak in tongues.And this is true I was thinking in my mind thinking " Jesus your my Shepard , Jesus I am your sheep " over and over and over. Tongues broke out in Church and my Pastor has the gift of interpretation and he replied " Yea, you are my sheep yea, I am your Shepard " I praised the LORD it was the happiest thing I have felt in months!!! After service I told him that I felt like it was for me, I still had the thoughts but I had this hope now. This truth you know?
I stayed on my medication and trusted in God , read Gods Word wrote down verses memorized watched sermons everything I could do. Eventually the thoughts were no longer as bad or bothering me almost completely gone! I felt new brand new!!!!!!!!!
I met this girl we started dating, ( yeah I was about 21-22 and never really really dated before or even had sex) We got married January 2016 and for the next 3 years I had a new life. Looking back I did mess up and should've did some things different but no evil thoughts...

I had to get surgery to get my wisdom teeth removed and was prescribed like 30 pain pills.
I took them and then kept taking them and was addicted to them.I started to go back to my old ways, abusing them snorting them too just get high. Then I stoled a pain pill from my dad to get high. Then I had a thought " I wonder if it was the weed that really did me this way or not" Then I got back on weed smoking it. I smoked a gram a day for 6 months never missed a day, and I started doing ' dabs ' which was very potent. Started listening to this evil rap music with some pretty vile lyrics.....

I always also had a fear of my wife cheating on me also.
When I first started back smoking weed again, my wife had this co worker friend who smoked weed.She asked him to bring her some back for me. He went to Colorado and brought back some weed and she went over to his house picked it up and brought it home and gave it to me. Months rolled by and one day i found out on google maps she visited his house again besides that one time. I asked her and she lied pretty much and I thought the worst like hey my wife has been cheating on me, and I TRIED SO HARD for 4 MONTHS everyday to get this out my mind. I would have thoughts over and over about them having sex and It haunted me for 4 months straight. I thought nothing would ever be the same.
After this i was really paranoid and couldn't trust anyone my cousins, my dad etc... I would call her everyday and cry and cuss her and demand her home and I just couldn't drop it.
I regret all this now because I know nothing went on but I was so heart broken. I couldn't see why God allowed this gave her to me and this happened.

One night I was smoking weed with my 2 cousins and I was sitting there and I had a random thought like a whisper pop in my mind that said " I love sa... "
Right after I thought " OH NO here we go again "
balling asking for prayer I knew this is a spiritual attack.
And since September of 2018 I have been plagued again with blasphemous thoughts.
It's been almost 6-7 months of me going through this everyday.
And since I have heard more messages in tongues being spoken.
I just feel like God can't forgive me a second time.
I went back to the Doctor just recently it's been 1 week today and I am now on Zoloft 25mg and in 1 week I go to 50mg

Please pray for me I prayed to never go back through this mental torment again and sometimes I feel like I can't go on no more. The fear that grips me and the millions of questions that go through my mind. I have since stopped smoking weed, listening to rap music heck i just plugged my computer back in after months of it being in the closet.
Some of your behavior/ways of thinking definitely sound like OCD. For example, people with OCD are often paranoid about committing the unpardonable sin, praying to the devil, checking things (light switches and locks), etc. People with relationship OCD also often have obsessive fears about their relationships. I can't speak to how your use of drugs may have contributed (or not) to your OCD. I just know that there are many people whose minds are perfectly healthy and who don't do drugs who have similar obsessions. So part of getting better might mean learning more about OCD and how to handle it (including continuing to get professional help if you need it, especially in the form of therapy) as well as continuing to get the rest of your life on track. If you need any more advice about the OCD side of things, feel free to ask - I have 20+ years of experience with it. :)
 
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Some of your behavior/ways of thinking definitely sound like OCD. For example, people with OCD are often paranoid about committing the unpardonable sin, praying to the devil, checking things (light switches and locks), etc. People with relationship OCD also often have obsessive fears about their relationships. I can't speak to how your use of drugs may have contributed (or not) to your OCD. I just know that there are many people whose minds are perfectly healthy and who don't do drugs who have similar obsessions. So part of getting better might mean learning more about OCD and how to handle it (including continuing to get professional help if you need it, especially in the form of therapy) as well as continuing to get the rest of your life on track. If you need any more advice about the OCD side of things, feel free to ask - I have 20+ years of experience with it. :)

Yes Mari17 if you don't mind I would like some help with ocd thoughts. This has ruined my life and has me in mental torment. I try my best to ignore the thoughts, but I just feel like I can't let them run through my mind. I feel dirty and evil when I don't do anything about it. It's like a loop and I can't get out of it myself. I know Jesus can help me and I am longing for the day this thought process I have is completely gone. I can just be sitting here and boom thought.... and sometimes I get short peace but then I just think some of the phrases over and over again. And it shifts to another phrase and i'm in another loop. Usually repeat in my head Jesus forgive me I worship you Jesus I love you over and over again. Sometimes I try to replace the bad stuff in my mind into good stuff real fast.
 
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Yes Mari17 if you don't mind I would like some help with ocd thoughts. This has ruined my life and has me in mental torment. I try my best to ignore the thoughts, but I just feel like I can't let them run through my mind. I feel dirty and evil when I don't do anything about it. It's like a loop and I can't get out of it myself. I know Jesus can help me and I am longing for the day this thought process I have is completely gone. I can just be sitting here and boom thought.... and sometimes I get short peace but then I just think some of the phrases over and over again. And it shifts to another phrase and i'm in another loop. Usually repeat in my head Jesus forgive me I worship you Jesus I love you over and over again. Sometimes I try to replace the bad stuff in my mind into good stuff real fast.
Just remember that Jesus loves you very much and God is always with you. God bless you and Jesus is Lord.
 
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Yes Mari17 if you don't mind I would like some help with ocd thoughts. This has ruined my life and has me in mental torment. I try my best to ignore the thoughts, but I just feel like I can't let them run through my mind. I feel dirty and evil when I don't do anything about it. It's like a loop and I can't get out of it myself. I know Jesus can help me and I am longing for the day this thought process I have is completely gone. I can just be sitting here and boom thought.... and sometimes I get short peace but then I just think some of the phrases over and over again. And it shifts to another phrase and i'm in another loop. Usually repeat in my head Jesus forgive me I worship you Jesus I love you over and over again. Sometimes I try to replace the bad stuff in my mind into good stuff real fast.
Sorry for my late reply. Yes, the things you describe which you do in response to the thoughts are called compulsions - we actually should avoid those. You're right, we can't do much to control the thoughts that come into our heads, and OCD often purposely sends thoughts that it knows will bother us. When we react fearfully to them and try to push them away, it makes our brains believe that those thoughts really are a threat. One of the keys to getting out of the cycle of OCD is to downplay the thoughts by simply ignoring them - not pushing them away, not "cancelling" them by prayer or rote phrases - merely recognizing that the thoughts are caused by our OCD, and refusing to get worked up about the thoughts or sucked into compulsions. Does that make sense?
 
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sweetie am sorry you have also have ocd i have it and i get what you get i know that its hard to stop the thoughts BUT GOD LOVES YOU I LOVE YOU MY BROTHER IN CHRIST you might need a medication change and maybe some therapy keep saying no to the thoughts come here and post anytime you need to brother you are loved by God and by people who care about you
please dont let the thoughts get you down listen to christian rock or other Christian music music helps me a lot when my ocd is bad
 
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sweetie am sorry you have also have ocd i have it and i get what you get i know that its hard to stop the thoughts BUT GOD LOVES YOU I LOVE YOU MY BROTHER IN CHRIST you might need a medication change and maybe some therapy keep saying no to the thoughts come here and post anytime you need to brother you are loved by God and by people who care about you
please dont let the thoughts get you down listen to christian rock or other Christian music music helps me a lot when my ocd is bad

Well I was on paxil and I was feeling so much better and I thought I didn't need the medication anymore. And I just stopped taking it and like 5 - 6 months later I started having the thoughts again.
But then again I got out of Church and started doing drugs again. I backslid in my old ways I was in and it sucks because with the help of Lord Jesus and Church support and my family I was finally seeing purpose in my life.

Then it went downhill really honestly when I got out of Church. I let work get in the way of my time and that was the biggest mistake. I just feel lost and hopeless now because I done beat this once with Jesus helping me, and it just feels like He won't get me out of this a second time. But I guess that's doubt, and I know God don't want that or me too worry. It's just I'm so worried and really want this to be gone from my life(evil thoughts).
 
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Well I was on paxil and I was feeling so much better and I thought I didn't need the medication anymore. And I just stopped taking it and like 5 - 6 months later I started having the thoughts again.
But then again I got out of Church and started doing drugs again. I backslid in my old ways I was in and it sucks because with the help of Lord Jesus and Church support and my family I was finally seeing purpose in my life.

Then it went downhill really honestly when I got out of Church. I let work get in the way of my time and that was the biggest mistake. I just feel lost and hopeless now because I done beat this once with Jesus helping me, and it just feels like He won't get me out of this a second time. But I guess that's doubt, and I know God don't want that or me too worry. It's just I'm so worried and really want this to be gone from my life(evil thoughts).
Trust in God to help you through again, and start taking positive steps in the right direction! And don't be afraid to get help for your OCD, too, if you need it. It's super important to learn how to handle the thoughts so they don't control your life. That can be through getting therapy, or through researching and applying the strategies on your own. I can give you more info/advice about that part if you need it.
 
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Trust in God to help you through again, and start taking positive steps in the right direction! And don't be afraid to get help for your OCD, too, if you need it. It's super important to learn how to handle the thoughts so they don't control your life. That can be through getting therapy, or through researching and applying the strategies on your own. I can give you more info/advice about that part if you need it.

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One of the most effective ways for getting out from under the control of OCD is to stop responding in the way that it wants you to. Its goal is to freak you out. Your task is to not be freaked out. So, when you get a bad thought, OCD wants you to be afraid that the thought is actually yours, that you actually mean it, and to respond accordingly by performing a compulsion to relieve the anxiety you feel. Such a compulsion might include trying to "cancel" the thought by repeating something good instead, asking forgiveness for the thought, asking for reassurance (e.g. "Do you think I blasphemed?"), etc. However, the problem with doing compulsions is that OCD always finds a way to make you feel bad again. You might experience temporary relief after doing a compulsion, but then OCD will find another angle from which to bother you - perhaps trying to convince you that you didn't do your compulsion well enough and need to repeat it multiple times, or by sending another thought, etc. Thus you get stuck in a vicious cycle, and the show is run by OCD. Your job is to turn that on its head; to pull out of the cycle so that YOU are running the show. Your job is to treat the thoughts as meaningless, not real, because they are meaningless. So, when you get a bad thought, you basically do nothing. As I'm sure you realize, doing nothing is actually super hard, because you're so afraid that it's a thought you really mean and that you have to get rid of it somehow. But, just because your OCD is making you feel like you mean it doesn't mean that you actually do. So, despite your strong feelings otherwise, you choose to treat the thought as meaningless and to just let yourself feel anxious, instead of trying to get rid of the anxiety. Of course, this is something that needs to be repeated over and over and over, until your brain slowly but surely starts to realize that the anxiety signals that OCD is sending you are not accurate. As you do this, you will begin to see things more clearly instead of obsessively. It does take a long time, but with perseverance you slowly get better.

Can't remember if I've shared these with you yet, but here are some of my favorite OCD resources:
http://ocdandchristianity.com/
Welcome
https://www.ocdonline.com/
https://noiseinyourhead.com/free-video-series/
 
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I just want to let you know that you are not alone and that I struggle with these thoughts everyday and I know that God loves you and me and Jesus is our Lord and Saviour and it's all about Him. God bless you and Jesus is Lord, you can message me anytime.
 
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I struggle with this to but my situation is that I was viewing a post on Instagram and post Malone was acting weird and some said he sold his soul and I got curious and searched it up cause I didn’t know and got got scared and I put my self in and situation were satan can create anxiety and stress and fear but I got over it and but a month later I came back and now it’s in my head and it won’t get out and now I keep thinking that I sold my soul and I really need help because I’m only 12 and I’m very scared now and ever day I would cry In my bathroom because they thought won’t get out and it really affects me is there any tips that I can use to take this thought captive.
 
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I struggle with this to but my situation is that I was viewing a post on Instagram and post Malone was acting weird and some said he sold his soul and I got curious and searched it up cause I didn’t know and got got scared and I put my self in and situation were satan can create anxiety and stress and fear but I got over it and but a month later I came back and now it’s in my head and it won’t get out and now I keep thinking that I sold my soul and I really need help because I’m only 12 and I’m very scared now and ever day I would cry In my bathroom because they thought won’t get out and it really affects me is there any tips that I can use to take this thought captive.
I'm so sorry you're struggling with this! This sounds like the kind of thought people with OCD get. The best way to deal with obsessive thoughts is to ignore them, even though that's really hard to do. It feels scary to ignore them because they feel real. But that's just the OCD making them feel real. Do your parents know about your struggle? Do you think you could get help from an OCD therapist, if your parents agree?
 
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No parents don’t know about the struggle because I’m afraid to tell them and I don’t think I could get help from a ocd therapist because the Coronavirus
I'm so sorry you're struggling with this! This sounds like the kind of thought people with OCD get. The best way to deal with obsessive thoughts is to ignore them, even though that's really hard to do. It feels scary to ignore them because they feel real. But that's just the OCD making them feel real. Do your parents know about your struggle? Do you think you could get help from an OCD therapist, if your parents agree?
 
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I'm so sorry you're struggling with this! This sounds like the kind of thought people with OCD get. The best way to deal with obsessive thoughts is to ignore them, even though that's really hard to do. It feels scary to ignore them because they feel real. But that's just the OCD making them feel real. Do your parents know about your struggle? Do you think you could get help from an OCD therapist, if your parents agree?
No my parents don’t know about this because I’m scared to tell them and I don’t think I can get help from a ocd therapist because of the Coronavirus could you please prayer for me please I would appreciate it a lot
 
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No my parents don’t know about this because I’m scared to tell them and I don’t think I can get help from a ocd therapist because of the Coronavirus could you please prayer for me please I would appreciate it a lot
Yes, I suppose it's not a good idea to go out for therapy right now. Some therapists do offer Skype or telephone therapy, if you're able to do that. It's hard to tell your parents about these obsessions, I know...do you think they'd understand? Are they kind and loving parents? Yes, I will pray, and I'd be happy to answer any questions you have about OCD or give advice for how to deal with it!! :) (Feel free to private message me as well if you'd like.)
 
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Yes, I suppose it's not a good idea to go out for therapy right now. Some therapists do offer Skype or telephone therapy, if you're able to do that. It's hard to tell your parents about these obsessions, I know...do you think they'd understand? Are they kind and loving parents? Yes, I will pray, and I'd be happy to answer any questions you have about OCD or give advice for how to deal with it!! :) (Feel free to private message me as well if you'd like.)
they dont understand what this is because they speak a different language and they are loving and kind parents. is it possible to sell your soul as a christian because my i am in a tweens group leader in my church said it was impossible
 
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they dont understand what this is because they speak a different language and they are loving and kind parents. is it possible to sell your soul as a christian because my i am in a tweens group leader in my church said it was impossible


No you can't sell your soul

you can live in sin though your whole life and lose your soul.
 
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