I am tired

blackribbon · Apr 22, 2019

I am tired of being both the breadwinner and head of the family as well as the emotional support and caregiver of my family. My faith hasn't changed but I feel a lot more weighed down in my spirit. It feels like life is a constant battle...at work, there is no one who supports us as nurses and our job just keeps getting harder and harder. As we start to build the support we need to unionize, the extent of the hopelessness of our situation is starting to weigh deeply...we are all abused and working in unsafe conditions. We just work harder because we do care about our patients and their health...but I come home exhausted and then have to face caring for my family. My hip needs to be replaced and I am working on getting that scheduled knowing that God is going to have to provide a miracle to make sure that bills get paid while I am off on medical leave. So much needs to get done in my house before I have the surgery, but my energy is limited as well as my ability to lift and move. My kids both graduate in a month, but that means the house has to be clean enough for relatives and money spent to celebrate and host family. I also need to get dental work done before the surgery which requires time and more money (necessary before orthopedic surgery because potentially deadly to treat within 3 months after bone has been opened surgically). I have no friends because I have no time or energy to foster friendships. Life is just awfully heavy and worse by having to bear it alone.

God is there. I know it. He provides as I need. However, I am having a hard time trying to keep my mind and spirit it where it should be. <sigh>

ChristianGirl_96 · Apr 22, 2019

Hugs.

How many hours do you work? Can you afford to cut down hours or not? Ask your children to help you clean the house. Be prepared to gently force them if needed. After all you are going to their graduation ceremony. Can your husband help out? It might also be a good idea to make a list of tasks for each family member to do. That way you will be less stressed out post surgery when you should be resting. How old are the kids now?

GreekOrthodox · Apr 22, 2019

I have worked in hospital clinical communications and workflows for hospitals for 9 years and I know the stresses that nurses go through. In regards to the hip surgery, are you able to look at transitioning into a non-caregiver position such as health informatics or nursing administration, basically something where you wouldn't be on your feet all the time?

Loyce KG · Apr 22, 2019

blackribbon said:
I am tired of being both the breadwinner and head of the family as well as the emotional support and caregiver of my family. My faith hasn't changed but I feel a lot more weighed down in my spirit. It feels like life is a constant battle...at work, there is no one who supports us as nurses and our job just keeps getting harder and harder. As we start to build the support we need to unionize, the extent of the hopelessness of our situation is starting to weigh deeply...we are all abused and working in unsafe conditions. We just work harder because we do care about our patients and their health...but I come home exhausted and then have to face caring for my family. My hip needs to be replaced and I am working on getting that scheduled knowing that God is going to have to provide a miracle to make sure that bills get paid while I am off on medical leave. So much needs to get done in my house before I have the surgery, but my energy is limited as well as my ability to lift and move. My kids both graduate in a month, but that means the house has to be clean enough for relatives and money spent to celebrate and host family. I also need to get dental work done before the surgery which requires time and more money (necessary before orthopedic surgery because potentially deadly to treat within 3 months after bone has been opened surgically). I have no friends because I have no time or energy to foster friendships. Life is just awfully heavy and worse by having to bear it alone.

God is there. I know it. He provides as I need. However, I am having a hard time trying to keep my mind and spirit it where it should be. <sigh>

Am so sorry dear that you're in such a hard place. Let go of every weight that so easily entangles (may be anxiety, or worry or boredom). Hebrews 12-1-3

Am going to pray for you that God will give you rest and guidance plus abundant provision.

“You are a hiding-place for me, you will keep me from distress; you will surround me with songs of deliverance. (Selah) “I will instruct and teach you in this way that you are to go; I will give you counsel; my eyes will be watching you.”
‭‭Tehillim (Psa)‬ ‭32:7-8‬ ‭CJB‬‬

Deborah D · Apr 22, 2019

My heart goes out to you! I can relate. I will keep you in my prayers.

Heavenhome · Apr 22, 2019

I pray that you will find some rest, it is a hard life there's no denying and doing it all on your own particularly so.
Sometimes when everything is getting all just too much I have to remind myself of what eternity will be like and clinging to that gets me through.
Please don't try to do everything yourself, get your children to help you out as far as cleaning etc.
This might sound crazy but is it possible for you to have just a day to yourself, even in bed to rest and let God minister to you?
Thing is sometimes you just have to get off the merry go round, even if only for a day.

Even though never a Mum, I still know lots of times they think of themselves last whilst doing things for their children, do look after yourself, you are precious too, particularly to God. :groupray:

blackribbon · Apr 22, 2019

Heavenhome said:
I pray that you will find some rest, it is a hard life there's no denying and doing it all on your own particularly so.
Sometimes when everything is getting all just too much I have to remind myself of what eternity will be like and clinging to that gets me through.
Please don't try to do everything yourself, get your children to help you out as far as cleaning etc.
This might sound crazy but is it possible for you to have just a day to yourself, even in bed to rest and let God minister to you?
Thing is sometimes you just have to get off the merry go round, even if only for a day.

Even though never a Mum, I still know lots of times they think of themselves last whilst doing things for their children, do look after yourself, you are precious too, particularly to God.

My kids do a lot at home. However, they both go to school full time and work...and my daughter plays college softball. I am gratefully that they both chose to live at home while going to school providing me support and reducing the expenses of college. I also do sleep more than I believe I should but chronic pain means I have to sleep more to recover..and I think I have discovered a issue that means I don't rest well even when sleeping.

God has always provided but the lack of interaction with people outside of work is very emotionally exhausting. I miss my husband. I miss someone to be there to both celebrate and walk with me when I carry the heavy load. Thank you for caring and praying though.

Willing-heart · Apr 22, 2019

I think what you need is a good break and rest.

We can easily become mired in hurt, rejection, pain and anger. Or we succumb to the pressure of juggling the responsibilities of a family, a home, a job and our church involvement. Day-to-day irritations drain us mentally and sap our spiritual strength. There is a saying that the bow that is always bent would certainly break.

Even Elijah the great man of God at one point of his ministry became so restless spiritually and physically. And more than anything else, God knew that Elijah needed rest during his time of restlessness, so God provided food and rest to Elijah before setting him back on the journey of ministry. It was only after rest that Elijah was ready to resume ministry and God was ready to talk to him.

God cares more about the servant and his or her life than the service. God can do anything He wants to do, He can use anyone, but He cares deeply for you, and your walk with him. God intended rest to be a part of the natural rhythm of physical life. The Bible says (Genesis 2:2) that on the seventh day of Creation, the Sabbath day, the Lord rested from all His labour. In the embrace of God, we find peace and rest for our souls.

“Come to Me, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30

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Handmaid for Jesus · Apr 22, 2019

blackribbon said:
God is there. I know it. He provides as I need. However, I am having a hard time trying to keep my mind and spirit it where it should be. <sigh>

You bet He is there, and He cares for you. Yes you know He is there, but it still feels like you are alone.I am a nurse so I feel your distress You know, faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God. Try listening to some of the motivational speakers. They help me, maybe they will help you. Here is one that I listen to sometimes.

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mnphysicist · Apr 23, 2019

I've lost a ton of what I refer to as reserve capacity, both physically and mentally since my wife passed. In talking to other widowed fellows, such seems to be a fairly common occurrence. Since no one has brought it up in this thread, perhaps such could be a aggravating factor? Granted, such doesn't solve the problem...

What about rekindling old friendships? My late wife suffered from paralysis for many years, which pretty much meant most of our friends went by the wayside. When she passed, I spent a lot of time on the phone with folks I hadn't talked with in decades. Granted, its not the same as physical presence by a long shot, but it was and remains a lifeline for times of great challenge.

Prayers for you in this

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