Thanks. Growing up especially my teenager with my cousins they use to make fun of Christians on TV and radio. To me it did not feel right but at the same time I was afraid to stand up to them back then. I wanted to accept God but no one else wanted so I just ignored him.
Now what gets me really gets me is that they practically rejected God yet they are happily married with kids have no disabilities and are happy.
Meanwhile I still struggle accepting him because I am single living at home phobia of meeting new people and my major problem. So who blessed them. Really. Explain that one.
In this temporary life many that do not live for God will still flourish...for a while, during this temporary life. As Christ said,
" He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous."
Here is a story about that --
19 “There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day.
20 At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores
21 and longing to eat what fell from the rich man’s table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores.
22 “The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham’s side. The rich man also died and was buried.
23 In Hades, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side.
24 So he called to him, ‘Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.’
25 “But Abraham replied, ‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony.
26 And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been set in place, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.’
27 “He answered, ‘Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my family,
28 for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.’
29 “Abraham replied, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.’
30 “ ‘No, father Abraham,’ he said, ‘but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’
31 “He said to him, ‘If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.’ ”
Luke 16 NIV
You can learn so much more about life from Christ, so much, in Matthew and the other gospels. When you get to Matthew chapter 5 be sure to slow down and really soak in the words, and take your time. They are teachings that will be forever.