Love is the only way

in my first few months of being born again I was very Judgmental. I love w two gay men.

In the beginning I scolded my roommate and told him what he was doing was wrong.

I thought God had chosen me because of something good in me.

Then two years into it I was hit w trial after trial. Under the pressure I started to erode.


I don’t blame God, I blame myself, I tell God how sorry I am, I can’t expl the love I have now. When I preach I make sure a question is asked and from there show anyone scripture and let the Holy Ghost do His Job.


There is a drug forum I’m on a lot to give a advice and talk about the dangers of drugs.


I wrote a post about Billy Graham and there was a lot of heat in that post. After that I really just chose love as the only way, from there on I was told how God, the God I serve could really use me.

I’m not boasting at all, just giving examples.

I was starting to preach in every post I made or responded. I was told to stop or I would eventually get banned.


So when I see someone hurting I PM them.

I was on Facebook band someone posted a picture of a transgender man/woman and on the post it said how the flames of hell are hot for this one.

Folks that’s the wrong way to approach someone who is trying to fill the void in there heart.


Here I am today told by Christians that say you would rather be in this house with homosexuals then to go to church.


And that kind of talk just makes me feel condemned so I don’t go.


Folks in the movie Paul Apostle of Christ he said love is the only way, it’s not a license to sin cuz Jesus said go out into the whole world and preach the Gospels to all loving creatures.

I live with two gay men

I live by example now.

I’m not downplaying sin. Sin is sin. And the Bible from 1 Corinthians to Galatians and Revelations calls Homosexuality a sin. In the OT it’s a abomination and God is the same today, yesterday and forever.

I’m moving out of this house because I just feel I’ve done all I can to show them.

I don’t have a drug problem, I stopped drugs.

I met these two ppl in 03. In 06 I got saved, I tried and tried but I feel it’s fruitless.

Jesus said do not throw your pearls to swine for they wil stomps on them then tear you to pieces.


I’m waiting for next month to come around. Christina lives in Virginia. When I moved to TN in 2017 everything went wrong that could.

I know God is opening up a door I’m just fearful it will fall apart.

Yes I have an unrelenting conviction to go. I’m on SSDI because I have psychosis and other MI.

So I kinda stuck when it comes to working. But I do however need to get out of here.

In October it was the last straw. Being me having OCD and docs not willing to prescribe benzos I bought one over the internet, I regret doing it as I was blacking out and doing large doses of Norco.


When I flushed everything down the toilet I had this gripping fear I could of died. From there I started to really repent.


I have no open doors here in Oklahoma unfortunately.


So I plan to force myself to Virginia and hope for the best.