Will I ever Be saved?

Dawit Abrham · Apr 8, 2019

Hello, my name is Dawit. I have been a Christian my whole life and yet I never dived into the whole bible. I was supposedly saved 4 years ago in a church service, but I have led a sinful life afterwards. Recently, I start to understand I was never because I never relied on God whenever I sinned and I was convinced back then that my salvation was works based. I feel ashamed for feeling this because I know now It's through faith in Christ that saves a person. I am also convinced I have several problems with my heart such as feeling less affections and love toward others, and generally feeling empty in myself, despite whatever I will. At this point, I don't know if I will ever be saved or not because I do want to seek and have faith but I feel like I am not doing anything Wholeheardly. The only feeling I know is fear that will burn forever and that no matter how much I try to reach out to God, I will never be saved because God knows my heart and is probably disgusted, considering I blaspheme. Even though, it's my will to repent whatever bad or blasphemous thoughts that come to mind, my heart doesn't care as much and this convinces me how rotten I am that God will never hear me out again. Is there any hope for me?

Anthony2019 · Apr 8, 2019

I wrote this post elsewhere and thought I'd share because it might help you.

Jesus understands all of our weaknesses and while he was on earth he was tempted in every way that we were, although he never sinned. He is the Son of God, our great high priest. The scriptures say that whenever we are in need of grace, we should come "bravely before the throne of our merciful God" where "we will be treated with undeserved kindness" (CEV) and The Lord will give us his help.

As the scripture says, "Everyone who calls out to the Lord for help will be saved." (Romans 10:13).

rockytopva · Apr 8, 2019

Who is he that overcometh the world, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God? - 1 John 5:5

dzheremi · Apr 8, 2019

First, welcome to Christian Forums, Dawit. I hope you will find your time here edifying.

Second, yes, there is hope for you, as there is hope for everyone in Jesus Christ our Lord, God, and Savior. Remember from the Psalms that the Lord causes His sun to shine upon the righteous and the wicked alike, so it is not possible that He will not hear the sincere plea of a lost sheep, or not welcome a worker in His vineyard at the eleventh hour.

Sincere prayer from the heart, of course, is a challenge for all Christians, and we all go through periods where we feel far from God, even if in reality He is never far from us.

I know your faith says you are Protestant, but I am guessing from your name (Dawit is an Ethiopian/Eritrean given name, correct?) that you may have Orthodox relatives or at least some connection to Orthodox Christianity somewhere in your history.

So I hope you will not find it offensive on those grounds that I share a simple but profound prayer from the Coptic Orthodox Church of Egypt, which is the mother of the Ethiopian and Eritrean Orthodox Tewahedo churches of Eastern Africa (the kingdom of Axum having been sent its first bishops after the conversion of King 'Ezana by our father HH Pope Athanasius of Alexandria, back in the 300s AD). This is from our Midnight Praises or "Tasbeha" and I pray it whenever I feel far from God and in need of spiritual rescue and renewal. I think its words are appropriate for anyone and everyone to pray, regardless of their particular church, and I hope hearing it and meditating upon its words (which come from the Psalms) will help you and bring you peace. May the prayers of all the saints who have pleased the Lord be with you in your journey, my friend. Do not lose hope! God is with you, and there is more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over one hundred who do not need to repent.

soldier of christ... · Apr 8, 2019

hello dawit i am also new here, i wanted to say somethings to you
the bible says "but as many as received him ,to them gave he power to become the sons of God , even to them that believe on his name" john 1 :12
take the word of God which is the sword of the spirit and whenever you doubt your salvation remember it
and also remember that Jesus chose us first and we are saved by grace please read john 6:44
if you were sinning sin no more since true repentance include hating sin.i recommend you read the bible especially the gospel of john and also do not forget to pray(even if you don't want to pray, pray!). God never forsakes you. he does not despise you, he loves you you need to know this. you just pray and read his word regularly and you will start to love others and your faith grows. and most people have bad thoughts sometimes so you are not alone you just have to know that the initial thought is not yours and throw it away when i comes to your mind.

i love you and i will pray for you
God bless you

sunshine100 · Apr 8, 2019

Hello and welcome

Aquatic Waves · Apr 8, 2019

Dawit Abrham said:
Hello, my name is Dawit. I have been a Christian my whole life and yet I never dived into the whole bible. I was supposedly saved 4 years ago in a church service, but I have led a sinful life afterwards. Recently, I start to understand I was never because I never relied on God whenever I sinned and I was convinced back then that my salvation was works based. I feel ashamed for feeling this because I know now It's through faith in Christ that saves a person. I am also convinced I have several problems with my heart such as feeling less affections and love toward others, and generally feeling empty in myself, despite whatever I will. At this point, I don't know if I will ever be saved or not because I do want to seek and have faith but I feel like I am not doing anything Wholeheardly. The only feeling I know is fear that will burn forever and that no matter how much I try to reach out to God, I will never be saved because God knows my heart and is probably disgusted, considering I blaspheme. Even though, it's my will to repent whatever bad or blasphemous thoughts that come to mind, my heart doesn't care as much and this convinces me how rotten I am that God will never hear me out again. Is there any hope for me?

I know how you feel b/c I'm in the same situation. I've been hurt many times that I became unfriendly and a little mean. I'm working on it though but it is hard. I see that the world is getting worse everyday and it's heating me up. I asked God to forgive me of my ways. I'm just tired to see more evil than good going on. But as long as you ask God to forgive you and confess your sins, you will be ok. Now I need to start doing more confessing and repenting myself. I need to read where it says in the bible about repenting. Does anyone know?

LouiseChar · Apr 8, 2019

Hello. Please open your bible and begin to delve into it. God will begin to speak to you.God loves you and yes there is hope for you-there is hope for everyone. Find a routine where you give God the time he deserves daily.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

LouiseChar · Apr 8, 2019

Aquatic Waves said:
. Now I need to start doing more confessing and repenting myself. I need to read where it says in the bible about repenting. Does anyone know?

21 Bible Verses about Repentance

SinoBen · Apr 8, 2019

Dawit Abrham said:
Even though, it's my will to repent whatever bad or blasphemous thoughts that come to mind, my heart doesn't care as much and this convinces me how rotten I am that God will never hear me out again. Is there any hope for me?

Hey Dawit I recommend:
1. Re dedicate your life to Jesus again, have witnesses around
2. Drill Galatians 2:20 into your mind and into your heart, meditate on it.
3. When sin comes, hit it right away, immediately, do not delay. Confess it before the Holy Spirit and ask Him to help you overcome it. Did I say immediately? Good.

There is nothing new... some of us are in the same boat. Let's walk together with Jesus.

Dawit Abrham · Apr 8, 2019

LouiseChar said:
Hello. Please open your bible and begin to delve into it. God will begin to speak to you.God loves you and yes there is hope for you-there is hope for everyone. Find a routine where you give God the time he deserves daily.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

What I am afraid of is the thought that my fear of going to hell is greater than genuinely loving God. I know this is wrong because Loving God should always come first as a motivator to live in faith rather than fear. I can say I love God for who he is, but that becomes clouded with fear. Right now, I feel a lot of anxiety because in my mind, I am thinking disgusting thoughts like "why do I have to try so hard or why is it so hard to love God" and"Why can't I just put trust in God's word". Fear is overwhelming me and I feel like nothing I do will help. My mind is stuck with God as a judging God that finds me utterly despicable and has decided he will burn me in hell forever. I want to focus on God's love and grace but all I can think is because my heart has hardened, my prayers doesn't seem legitimate to God anymore so he has decided that I am impossible to redeem. I guess what I want to know is how can I soften my heart, so that I can feel sensitively from God's grace and love for me? And how do I learn to Love God more than just fear Him and eternal punishment?

Aquatic Waves · Apr 8, 2019

LouiseChar said:
21 Bible Verses about Repentance

Thank you very much. God bless

Mathetes66 · Apr 9, 2019

2 Cor 7:6-11 But God, who comforts the downcast, comforted us by the coming of Titus & not only by his coming but also by the comfort with which he was comforted by you, as he told us of your longing, your mourning, your zeal for me, so that I rejoiced still more. For even if I made you grieve with my letter, I do not regret it—though I did regret it, for I see that that letter grieved you, though only for a while.

As it is, I rejoice, not because you were grieved, but because you were grieved into repenting. For you felt a godly grief, so that you suffered no loss through us. For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death. For see what earnestness this godly grief has produced in you, but also what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what fear, what longing, what zeal, what punishment.

Luke 13:1-5 There were some present at that very time who told him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with their sacrifices. And he answered them, “Do you think that these Galileans were worse sinners than all the other Galileans, because they suffered in this way? No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all likewise perish. Or those eighteen on whom the tower in Siloam fell and killed them: do you think that they were worse offenders than all the others who lived in Jerusalem? No, I tell you; but unless you repent, you will all likewise perish.”

John 3:18-21 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God.

And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. For everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his works should be exposed. But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God.”

Acts 26:20 I preached first to those in Damascus, then in Jerusalem and throughout all Judea, and also to the Gentiles, that all must repent of their sins and turn to God--and prove they have changed by the good things they do.

LouiseChar · Apr 9, 2019

Dawit Abrham said:
What I am afraid of is the thought that my fear of going to hell is greater than genuinely loving God. I know this is wrong because Loving God should always come first as a motivator to live in faith rather than fear. I can say I love God for who he is, but that becomes clouded with fear. Right now, I feel a lot of anxiety because in my mind, I am thinking disgusting thoughts like "why do I have to try so hard or why is it so hard to love God" and"Why can't I just put trust in God's word". Fear is overwhelming me and I feel like nothing I do will help. My mind is stuck with God as a judging God that finds me utterly despicable and has decided he will burn me in hell forever. I want to focus on God's love and grace but all I can think is because my heart has hardened, my prayers doesn't seem legitimate to God anymore so he has decided that I am impossible to redeem. I guess what I want to know is how can I soften my heart, so that I can feel sensitively from God's grace and love for me? And how do I learn to Love God more than just fear Him and eternal punishment?

Reading the bible is the number one way of getting closer to God because that way you will learn about who he is and who you are. Gradually, he will begin to speak to you and a love you didn't know you had will engulf you. You're not giving God enough time right now so it might feel like he's not working on you but I know that he LOVES you because what you're saying is typical of someone that wants God and is close to getting there but the enemy knows this and so he's planting lies on your mind. The mind is the devils playing field, that's how he got Eve. Do not let him win. Read read READ. Place a routine in place. Before getting out of bed, before going to bed, in the middle of the day pray. Even if it's a whisper to yourself while you're studying, working whatever. I believe it's a form of pride to believe you're too utterly despicable for God to fix. No sin is uncommon to man. There's nothing that you could have possibly done, said or thought that God hasn't seen before. If he can accept murderers that return to him he can accept anybody.

Also "it is not good for man to be alone" is not just for marriage. The bible encourages us to fellowship with other christians. Jesus himself needed the support of the disciples in his darkest time, how much more we.

You're going to be ok. Dedicate your time to this like you would for a college assignment to get that certificate/degree.

Anthony2019 · Apr 9, 2019

Dawit Abrham said:
What I am afraid of is the thought that my fear of going to hell is greater than genuinely loving God. I know this is wrong because Loving God should always come first as a motivator to live in faith rather than fear. I can say I love God for who he is, but that becomes clouded with fear. Right now, I feel a lot of anxiety because in my mind, I am thinking disgusting thoughts like "why do I have to try so hard or why is it so hard to love God" and"Why can't I just put trust in God's word". Fear is overwhelming me and I feel like nothing I do will help. My mind is stuck with God as a judging God that finds me utterly despicable and has decided he will burn me in hell forever. I want to focus on God's love and grace but all I can think is because my heart has hardened, my prayers doesn't seem legitimate to God anymore so he has decided that I am impossible to redeem. I guess what I want to know is how can I soften my heart, so that I can feel sensitively from God's grace and love for me? And how do I learn to Love God more than just fear Him and eternal punishment?

The Bible teaches that God is love (1 John 4:8), full of compassion, grace, longsuffering and abundant in mercy and truth (Psalms 86:15). He is very patient, not wanting anyone to perish but to come to repentance (2 Peter 3:9). His steadfast love never ceases and his mercies will never come to an end (Lamentations 3:22-23).

God does not want to harm you, but to bless you. He does not want to reject you, but to draw you closer to himself. He does not want you to be afraid, but for you to be secure in Him. Whenever God draws people to repentance, He does so in love. As the parable states, he is the shepherd who left the ninety nine sheep to go after the one that was lost and came back rejoicing with it on its shoulders. It is His absolute pleasure to offer you the Kingdom, His abundant life, forgiveness and grace. But He is gentle with you and will never force Himself on you. Like the Father did with the prodigal son, He gave him the freedom to make his choice. When you choose to repent and turn to Christ, you will discover He was already looking out for you, longing to welcome you home.

DLovingBrother · Apr 11, 2019

Hi there Dawit,
Do not deceive yourself with these false assumptions. If you have accepted Him as your savior you will not burn in hell, that is guaranteed. Do not feel ashamed because you did not understand the gospel before, do not be ashamed if you faith was based on works. That is all in the past. Be concerned only with the present and the future. You do understand that its through faith in Christ that a person is saved. Then there is nothing to fear if you have sincerely asked Him to be your savior. Do not judge your heart by what you feel. What is important is what you know, then the love and feeling for Him will follow. You can focus on God’s love by learning the truth of who He really is, the loving, forgiving and merciful savior and friend.

Dawit Abrham · Apr 13, 2019

Thank you everybody for your answers and prayers. I am will start to do God's will and obey him from now on. May God bless you and move in your lives to do God's perfect and best work! I will be praying to everyone here.

Mathetes66 · Apr 13, 2019

Thank you brother. i am proud of you! Nice to be a fellow member in the wonderful body of Christ! May the Lord's love & grace continue to sustain you as you seek Him daily in His Word and in prayer.

Aquatic Waves · Apr 13, 2019

Dawit Abrham said:
Thank you everybody for your answers and prayers. I am will start to do God's will and obey him from now on. May God bless you and move in your lives to do God's perfect and best work! I will be praying to everyone here.

Thank you that means a lot to us

jcpartri · Oct 11, 2022

Dawit Abrham said:
Hello, my name is Dawit. I have been a Christian my whole life and yet I never dived into the whole bible. I was supposedly saved 4 years ago in a church service, but I have led a sinful life afterwards. Recently, I start to understand I was never because I never relied on God whenever I sinned and I was convinced back then that my salvation was works based. I feel ashamed for feeling this because I know now It's through faith in Christ that saves a person. I am also convinced I have several problems with my heart such as feeling less affections and love toward others, and generally feeling empty in myself, despite whatever I will. At this point, I don't know if I will ever be saved or not because I do want to seek and have faith but I feel like I am not doing anything Wholeheardly. The only feeling I know is fear that will burn forever and that no matter how much I try to reach out to God, I will never be saved because God knows my heart and is probably disgusted, considering I blaspheme. Even though, it's my will to repent whatever bad or blasphemous thoughts that come to mind, my heart doesn't care as much and this convinces me how rotten I am that God will never hear me out again. Is there any hope for me?

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