This may be kinda hypocritical to say and arrogant, but i may have lost my faith a bit in Christ. It's like i believe in God but I'm not sure what to think about when it comes to the whole son of God thing. Maybe it's because i'm in denial of the whole thing. But there's got to be a God of the universe which created everything , because how else would it have all gotten there.
It's just comes down to i just dont believe it to be real. I'm sure im not the only one who goes through this. I don't want to doubt God, but i have a hard time believing in the whole Christ thing and sin and faith and all that. It's like why does God only give us 2 options to go to when we die, lake of fire or city of gold? It just doesn't make sense. I know the bible is really metaphorical or is it the truth? I'm not sure. You know maybe if believed it was real my faith would be different in these matters.
It's like i believe in love i keep 1 Corithians 13 close to my heart everyday. But it's just i dont always know what to think when it comes to Christ and all that. So help me to see that this is real and i know it's one of those things where you have to believe in something you'll never see is real until you die. But there's got to be something real about even after all that happen.
I don't know i guess i'm kind of like that guy in the bible, after Jesus's death he didnt believe until Jesus came and had him touch the 2 holes on his wrists from the cross. I can relate to him.
I wish i believed it to be real. that's where the battle in my mind is. How do i know or believe it's real?
The bottom line is that you believe that the whole Bible is true or none of it is true. You can't take a part of the Bible and say you believe it, and say that another part isn't true.
If you read and study the Old Testament properly, you will see that the Bible is unmistakenly true in what the prophets predicted, because their prophecies came to pass just as they said. For instance, Isaiah said of the Messiah that they pierced His hands and his feet, which spoke of crucifixion hundreds of years before crucifixion was thought of. How did Isaiah know, hundreds of years before, that the Messiah, Jesus Christ was going to be crucified? In another place, Daniel I think, it said that the Messiah was pierced unto death. This was not crucifixion but spoke of the spear being pushed into Jesus' side. But the Romans never did that because crucifixion was designed to be a slow torturous death. But what happened with Jesus was that when the Roman soldier saw that Jesus was dead already, he was angry because Jesus died too soon, and so he thrust the spear into His side in anger. Also, a prophet in the Old Testament said that not a Messiah's bone would be broken. But it was the normal procedure for the Romans to eventually break the legs of crucified people to make them die. When they came to break the leg bones of the three who were crucified because they didn't want them hanging on the cross over the Sabbath, they found that Jesus had died already so they didn't break His legs as they did the others. So the prophecy was fulfilled.
So, how did the Old Testament prophets know of these things unless God told them?
Look at the statue in Daniel with its head of gold, breast of silver, loins of brass, legs of iron? These talked of the Babylonian, Persian, Greek, and Roman Empires. Notice that the Roman was made up of two legs. See how accurate the Bible is in its prophecies? The Roman Empire split into two when Constantine shifted his capital to Constantinople and ruled the eastern Empire, while he had a Regent rule the western Empire. That's the two legs of iron - the Roman Empire in its two separate parts.
How did Paul know all about the life of Jesus, and the last Supper when he never consulted the other Apostles in Jerusalem before he wrote 1 Corinthians. Who told him about it? He went into Arabia and stayed there 14 years and didn't confer with anyone in the church. So it must have been Jesus who told him all about it while he was in Arabia.
Matthew must have been written before AD70, because his book starts with the genealogical record of Jesus. But all those records were destroyed with the destruction of Jerusalem and the Temple.
Also, if you study the book of Daniel and its prophetic timing from the time Israel went into captivity, until the rebuilding of Jerusalem, to the birth of the Messiah, to His ministry, His entry into Jerusalem. When you line it up with the historical record, you will find that the timing was exact, almost to the very day! And the historical figures (Herod the Great, Augustus Caesar) accurately coincide with the birth of Jesus. The ministry of Jesus involved Herod (the son of Herod the Great) Pontius Pilate (whose inscription is there for all to see on a stone in Caesarea) and Tiberius (started his reign earlier than previously thought). So this puts Jesus at a very specific time in world history.
Also, if the first 11 chapters of Genesis are not true, then we have no other evidence for our existence, we have no basis to believe how sin entered into the world, and therefore no idea why Jesus actually came to die on the cross for our sins.
So, if the Bible is absolutely true in those areas, then it must be true in every other area, especially where it describes Jesus as the Son of God. Isaiah describes the Messiah (Jesus) as "Wonderful, Counsellor, The Mighty God". So if the prophet has described Jesus as God, then He must be. Isaiah was dead right in his other prophecies, so he has to be right in his description of the Messiah well.
So, what I am saying is, that if you don't believe that the whole Bible is absolutely true, then you have no foundation for Christian faith. You may be quite religious, but you cannot be a genuinely converted Christian believer.
So, I think you have some choices to make.
