- Feb 22, 2016
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Thank you so much to everyone ^^ I told him to leave and that I will never convert. Then he said "I don't want to stay either, because I told you not to talk to anyone about this but you still chose to do that so I don't think you'll obey me in future either." Which made me happy that I'm leaving. His friends messaged me and apologized saying that he is very immature. But I'm not mad at him and I don't have any hard feelings. I just asked them to take care of him for me. This sweet fantasy was never going to happen and I accepted that.. hopefully he will accept it too. I know he'll be okay and I know I'll be okay too. I was very scared to stand up for myself - it was my first time - but after I did I felt so good. And after he left.. I just felt free? Like relief. I didn't even cry, which I thought was strange. I never felt such peace in my life. All this time thought it was something wrong with me, my heart would ache constantly- but it wasn't me, it was my holding on to the relationship. And I want to thank all of you for all your words and patience ^^ i know it took me a long time. Deep inside i always knew I had to leave. But he would tell me things constantly that made me doubt everything. He would say "you're too immature and dumb you can't make a decision for yourself, your brain hasn't yet developed" and stuff like that. But I'm glad that I fought through it. Thank you for all your prayers and support- God answered them and im happy to grow and take this pain so that it could make me stronger. And I'm honestly happy for this experience because even though it hurt, it taught me a lot and now I can help more people who might go through something similar ^^ again thank you everyone for being there and having so much patience and tolerance for my behavior.
So proud of you! That took guts and you were very brave (and extremely smart, no matter what your ex says) to face this problem head on as you did. I was praying for you
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