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sk8brdkd · Apr 4, 2019

So, my Christian journey was made up of 18 years of always feeling something. Every second of everyday for 18 years. The past 2 weeks, God has taken me thru a series of tests which was taking these ‘feelings’ away from me. Today I woke up and they are totally gone. I feel absolutely nothing for the first time in 18 years. I feel lost, frustrated and confused. I have absolutely no idea what to do or how to do this.

When you go that long and felt something everyday, to wake up 1 day with nothing, how would u react?

I don’t know what to do. I’m reaching for everything I know right now to not let go. Even when I had those feelings, I often felt I couldn’t take anymore and wanted to let go. But I held on.

How can I do this now where there’s absolutely 0 feelings anymore? Nothing to hold me up. I have absolutely no clue.

If anyone has been thru what I’ve been thru, please let me know. Meaning having and being fed thru your feelings on a daily basis for multiple years.

crossnote · Apr 4, 2019

That's what happens when you start walking by fickle feelings rather than by faith in God's Word...

2 Corinthians 5:7 NKJV
[7] For we walk by faith, not by sight.

Deborah D · Apr 4, 2019

sk8brdkd said:
So, my Christian journey was made up of 18 years of always feeling something. Every second of everyday for 18 years. The past 2 weeks, God has taken me thru a series of tests which was taking these ‘feelings’ away from me. Today I woke up and they are totally gone. I feel absolutely nothing for the first time in 18 years. I feel lost, frustrated and confused. I have absolutely no idea what to do or how to do this.

When you go that long and felt something everyday, to wake up 1 day with nothing, how would u react?

I don’t know what to do. I’m reaching for everything I know right now to not let go. Even when I had those feelings, I often felt I couldn’t take anymore and wanted to let go. But I held on.

How can I do this now where there’s absolutely 0 feelings anymore? Nothing to hold me up. I have absolutely no clue.

If anyone has been thru what I’ve been thru, please let me know. Meaning having and being fed thru your feelings on a daily basis for multiple years.

Hi, sk8brdkd, are you talking about feelings of hope and peace that God is with you? If so, fight the good fight of faith, knowing that God is still with you because He said that He will never leave you nor forsake.

I've been a Christian for many years, and I've experienced dry times when I didn't "feel" His presence. This can be a time of testing, and I know how hard it can be. I would certainly never choose to go through this, but God knows what we need and sees us through whatever He allows in our lives and works it for our good.

I pray that you will get through this trial victoriously and that your faith will be stronger as a result of going through it! Hold onto Him. He is holding onto you!

My prayers are with you!

Blessings!
Deborah

sk8brdkd · Apr 4, 2019

Not exactly. God found me 18 years ago with what felt like a lightning strike. It first started with fear and trembling. 3 yrs later, I started feeling deep peace but mixed in with the trembling. The trembling stayed until about 2007. 5 years after I was saved. Then it started with a little boost of a feeling until 2015 when I went thru my first major test where God took all the feelings away. At the end of that week, God stopped the test and gave me this lifted feeling. I had the lifted feeling from 2015-Feb of 2019. Then I went thru another testing period where he took the lift away. He gave it back to me twice but then it was emptiness. But, at the end of that test, he gave me this boosted feeling which was slight, but, it helped. I had that feeling for a month before God took it away and put me thru another testing period. This one lasted 2 weeks where, I feel he’s ended it but with a negative and not a positive

Deborah D said:
Hi, sk8brdkd, are you talking about feelings of hope and peace that God is with you? If so, fight the good fight of faith, knowing that God is still with you because He said that He will never leave you nor forsake.

I've been a Christian for many years, and I've experienced dry times when I didn't "feel" His presence. This can be a time of testing, and I know how hard it can be. I would certainly never choose to go through this, but God knows what we need and sees us through whatever He allows in our lives and works it for our good.

I pray that you will get through this trial victoriously and that your faith will be stronger as a result of going through it! Hold onto Him. He is holding onto you!

My prayers are with you!

Blessings!
Deborah

sk8brdkd · Apr 4, 2019

Possibly, but, if you were in my shoes, you’d understand what I’m talking about. I just explained my entire story down below on Deborah’s post. Read it, then, respond.

My feelings were Never fickle. They came directly from God.

crossnote said:
That's what happens when you start walking by fickle feelings rather than by faith in God's Word...

2 Corinthians 5:7 NKJV
[7] For we walk by faith, not by sight.

Mathetes66 · Apr 4, 2019

Your repeated testimony never once mentions the Lord Jesus Christ nor the work of the Holy Spirit in your life. What is the gospel message as you understand it? How is a person saved & what specifically happened when you were saved, since you stated you were? Thanks.

sk8brdkd · Apr 4, 2019

Sorry, was just trying to explain what types of feelings I’ve been having throughout the years. Jesus saved me for accepting him into my heart.

Mathetes66 said:
Your repeated testimony never once mentions the Lord Jesus Christ nor the work of the Holy Spirit in your life. What is the gospel message as you understand it? How is a person saved & what specifically happened when you were saved, since you stated you were? Thanks.

Kenny'sID · Apr 4, 2019

Granted, it may not sound like much but "Give it time" is all I have at the moment.

Mathetes66 · Apr 4, 2019

Thanks for your answer! God has a reason for those times we don't 'feel' Him. You have gone through those times before as you said. Now it is a longer period than those before. God is definitely getting your attention. (Deuteronomy 8:1-8)

Seek Him even more & continue to read His Word, continue to cry out to Him & continue to walk by faith not by sight or feelings. Job went through a long time without hearing from God. Yet his faith didn't fail. And if he died before it happened again, He would STILL look forward to His Redeemer and the resurrection of His body & seeing God. (Job 19:23-27)

Abram heard from God when he was 75. Then he didn't hear from God on His promises until 99 years old. That is a long time. But he wavered not in his faith, knowing God is faithful & loved Him. Abraham was called the friend of God three times in Scripture! He is the father of all us who believe in Christ by faith!

You might read through the book of Job again. You can also cover all the Psalms in one month if you read 5 of them a day.

sk8brdkd · Apr 4, 2019

Yes I have gone thru those times. But these last 2 weeks have been a transition to this nothingness I feel today.

I had an experience yesterday where I heard the words just go live your life. Have fun. I almost fed into it, but, I knew if I let go, I would fall right down. So I had my mom pray for me and she said if this is from you God, let it be made clear to her. If this is not from you, please take the thought away. So, I received a quick answer and he took the thought away about living my life so from that experience, God was telling me to just hold but idk how long he wants me to hold for.

I literally can’t do anything. I can’t live freely right now bc I know I will fall straight down. I don’t know how to do this without feeling anything, so, I’m holding. I’m so restrictive in myself. I will not watch tv/play video games. I’ve gone out to the park twice but that’s it. I come home, sit on the couch, read the Bible or play a game on my phone. I’m holding on for dear life. I’m struggling so much with this. I don’t want to let go

Part of a verse in 1 Peter says, “
After you have suffered for a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen u, and he will place u on a firm foundation”. To me 2 weeks is a very long time to be going thru this. I don’t know how much more I can take. I’ve been praying for restoration of what I had bc inwardly, I know it’s exactly what I need right now in order to stay faithful but for now, I’m just holding.

Mathetes66 said:
Thanks for your answer! God has a reason for those times we don't 'feel' Him. You have gone through those times before as you said. Now it is a longer period than those before. God is definitely getting your attention. (Deuteronomy 8:1-8)

Seek Him even more & continue to read His Word, continue to cry out to Him & continue to walk by faith not by sight or feelings. Job went through a long time without hearing from God. Yet his faith didn't fail. And if he died before it happened again, He would STILL look forward to His Redeemer and the resurrection of His body & seeing God. (Job 19:23-27)

Abram heard from God when he was 75. Then he didn't hear from God on His promises until 99 years old. That is a long time. But he wavered not in his faith, knowing God is faithful & loved Him. Abraham was called the friend of God three times in Scripture! He is the father of all us who believe in Christ by faith!

You might read through the book of Job again. You can also cover all the Psalms in one month if you read 5 of them a day.

Invalidusername · Apr 4, 2019

Sounds like you haven't done anything wrong so it's just an emotional/hormones thing.

sk8brdkd · Apr 4, 2019

Invalidusername said:
Sounds like you haven't done anything wrong so it's just an emotional/hormones thing.

I know it’s not though.

Mathetes66 · Apr 4, 2019

"I literally can’t do anything. I can’t live freely right now bc I know I will fall straight down. I don’t know how to do this without feeling anything, so, I’m holding. I’m so restrictive in myself."

Do you see what you are doing? You are living your life on fear not faith.

2 Tim 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-control.

God's Spirit is not fear & timidity. You are believing the devil's lie. He want to paralyze you in fear. And as long as you believe that lie, you choose not to do anything. Yet you still have a will to choose some things: read the Bible, play games, eat, sleep, etc.

So you are free to choose to stand against the lies of the devil in the power of the Holy Spirit. He gives you power, love & self-control.

Don't be double-minded. Don't waffle back & forth.

Proverbs 24:15,16 Do not lie in wait, O wicked man, near the dwelling of the righteous; do not destroy his resting place. For though a righteous man falls seven times, HE WILL GET UP, but the wicked will stumble into ruin.

The evil one is stealing away your peace & freedom to choose in Christ because you are believing a lie. Stand against him in Jesus' Name & call out to Christ to empower you & continue to resist him, firm in your faith, not in fear.

Keep practicing this & ask the Lord to bring victory & joy in your life because He has empowered you to reject the lies of fear and timidity!

Choose to do some loving things for your mom! Take out the garbage, wash the dishes, give her a hug and tell her you love her. Do LOVING THINGS.

James 4:6-8 But He gives us more grace. This is why it says: “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” 7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.

Ephesians 6:11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can make your stand against the devil's schemes.

Ephesians 6:13 Therefore take up the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you will be able to stand your ground, and having done everything, to stand.

I Peter 5:5-9 Young men, in the same way, submit yourselves to your elders. And all of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. Be sober-minded and alert. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in your faith and in the knowledge that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kinds of suffering.

You need to recognize that every Christian goes through this struggle against the devil. He hates us & God & wants us to be miserable. However, we know that so we can humble ourselves before God, submit ourselves to Him & then in His power resist the enemy, firm in your faith. Believe that you are able to choose to do good, despite how you feel & be obedient to the Lord & believe him not the devil's lies.

I will be praying for you. The joy of the LORD is our strength! Doc

Sketcher · Apr 4, 2019

Your faith experience is different from mine. Sometimes I've had feelings, sometimes I haven't. And I learned that when the feelings are gone, that is where true faith is demonstrated. Many Christians "sink" at first, not beyond redemption, but they suffer new lows. But like the butterfly that strengthens itself by escaping from the cocoon, they slowly rise up. And the next trial happens, and they don't sink as low, and they rise up again. And it keeps happening, and you know your faith is growing by how you are reacting to the trials.

Invalidusername · Apr 4, 2019

sk8brdkd said:
I know it’s not though.

Well I feel nothing and I know it's because of my sinning/backsliding. I am starting to recover from it by repenting and working on my faith. So you haven't mentioned any backsliding so I don't think that's your issue.

sk8brdkd · Apr 5, 2019

I understand what you’re saying but, listen to me for a 2nd. Back in 2015, that was when I experienced my first week of hard tests. I had an Extremely hard time and almost gave up. At the end of that week, God came thru and he gave me this high lift (Holy Spirit), and I had that high lift from the Holy Spirit from 2015-2019. It was continuous.

Then... back on Feb 25 of 2019, I slowly lost the high lift from the Holy Spirit and went thru a week and a half of extremely hard tests and at the end of that, God gave me a boost which helped me to relax.

Now, 2 weeks ago, I slowly started to lose that boost and am going thru an even longer testing period. I am waiting for God to respond this time. I’m having an extremely difficult time.

I am resisting the devil by not giving and surviving each test that comes my way. God has come thru the other times and I know he will come through again.

How do you think you’d be/react if you went thru those 3 terribly hard testing times like I’ve been thru? You feel you can’t hold on anymore. Are you just going to give up and let go, or, are u going to hold on, keep praying and trusting that God will come through soon?

Right now, I’m being covered in prayer from a lot of different angles. Like I said, yesterday God gave me a clear answer to hold on and not to let go. It’s like Job, he was tested for awhile. Did he give up and let go? No. He stayed with it, held on and passed the test.

Mathetes66 said:
Do you see what you are doing? You are living your life on fear not faith.

2 Tim 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-control.

God's Spirit is not fear & timidity. You are believing the devil's lie. He want to paralyze you in fear. And as long as you believe that lie, you choose not to do anything. Yet you still have a will to choose some things: read the Bible, play games, eat, sleep, etc.

So you are free to choose to stand against the lies of the devil in the power of the Holy Spirit. He gives you power, love & self-control.

Don't be double-minded. Don't waffle back & forth.

Proverbs 24:15,16 Do not lie in wait, O wicked man, near the dwelling of the righteous; do not destroy his resting place. For though a righteous man falls seven times, HE WILL GET UP, but the wicked will stumble into ruin.

The evil one is stealing away your peace & freedom to choose in Christ because you are believing a lie. Stand against him in Jesus' Name & call out to Christ to empower you & continue to resist him, firm in your faith, not in fear.

Keep practicing this & ask the Lord to bring victory & joy in your life because He has empowered you to reject the lies of fear and timidity!

Choose to do some loving things for your mom! Take out the garbage, wash the dishes, give her a hug and tell her you love her. Do LOVING THINGS.

James 4:6-8 But He gives us more grace. This is why it says: “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” 7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.

Ephesians 6:11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can make your stand against the devil's schemes.

Ephesians 6:13 Therefore take up the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you will be able to stand your ground, and having done everything, to stand.

I Peter 5:5-9 Young men, in the same way, submit yourselves to your elders. And all of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. Be sober-minded and alert. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in your faith and in the knowledge that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kinds of suffering.

You need to recognize that every Christian goes through this struggle against the devil. He hates us & God & wants us to be miserable. However, we know that so we can humble ourselves before God, submit ourselves to Him & then in His power resist the enemy, firm in your faith. Believe that you are able to choose to do good, despite how you feel & be obedient to the Lord & believe him not the devil's lies.

I will be praying for you. The joy of the LORD is our strength! Doc

crossnote · Apr 5, 2019

sk8brdkd said:
Possibly, but, if you were in my shoes, you’d understand what I’m talking about. I just explained my entire story down below on Deborah’s post. Read it, then, respond.

My feelings were Never fickle. They came directly from God.

I did read it, we don't guide our lives by feelings but rather by faith in God's Word. My advice to you is immerse yourself in God's Word for the restoration of your mind.

Mathetes66 · Apr 5, 2019

amen, brother! Keep pressing in...seeking the shekinah glory! Give Him your life. May He use your humility & continued perseverence for His glory! May this song be an encouragement to you!

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