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New here and wasn’t sure I’d post. Mid 40’s. Struggled with my relationship with the Lord since I first received him as savior in my 20’s. My husband wants nothing to do with God, going to church. My kids don’t. Family doesn’t. I walk into a church and feel like a failure when I see couples and families together. I cry for days after going feeling like my family will be in hell because they have never come to accept God(many say he Isnt real) by knowing him through me. We are suppose to be a witness. I’ve back slides many times. I’m bipolar and have a personality disorder. I’ve struggled but it’s amazing where I am today compared to years ago. At times I’ve given up as it all seems to hard to keep a happy family when they don’t love but you do. I feel like pieces of my soul are gone from things in my past. I get mad fun of by my husband and older children when I am attending church, so I’ve stopped. I’m alone. Lonely. Desperate for the Lord. I’ve cried out to my Heavenly Father so much today. I need him. I miss him. I’m so unhappy without him. Please pray for me. Please. Going to church makes me feel worse. I don’t have my family with me. I don’t have pretty clothes. I don’t have money. I feel like an outcast. Please pray.
 

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New here and wasn’t sure I’d post. Mid 40’s. Struggled with my relationship with the Lord since I first received him as savior in my 20’s. My husband wants nothing to do with God, going to church. My kids don’t. Family doesn’t. I walk into a church and feel like a failure when I see couples and families together. I cry for days after going feeling like my family will be in hell because they have never come to accept God(many say he Isnt real) by knowing him through me. We are suppose to be a witness. I’ve back slides many times. I’m bipolar and have a personality disorder. I’ve struggled but it’s amazing where I am today compared to years ago. At times I’ve given up as it all seems to hard to keep a happy family when they don’t love but you do. I feel like pieces of my soul are gone from things in my past. I get mad fun of by my husband and older children when I am attending church, so I’ve stopped. I’m alone. Lonely. Desperate for the Lord. I’ve cried out to my Heavenly Father so much today. I need him. I miss him. I’m so unhappy without him. Please pray for me. Please. Going to church makes me feel worse. I don’t have my family with me. I don’t have pretty clothes. I don’t have money. I feel like an outcast. Please pray.
Hi am really for what you are passing through..But remember we belong to one Father..You are not alone,God is always with us and his unfailing love and care.i will pray for You for restoration.Thanks
 
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Hey Lynn... I remember I was like 10-14.. longer what ever.. my room was down stairs and ...oh man I HATED.. HATED Sunday mornings. My mom would pound on the floor to wake me up for Church. She made me go. My dad.. step dad since I was 3. At some point would not let her take me. So.. my mom and her friends were praying.. one day he just said yes.

Lynn.. you cant look at the world nor the people in it and then try to figure out how God works. What I mean is.. we need to KNOW that we know that we know JESUS IS REAL! That He is for you.. not against you. That God your FATHER HELLO! There is NOTHING He cant do. Did not HE say what ever WHAT EVER you desire when you pray believe you receive it and you shall have it? Did not He say.. what ever you ask the Father in my name He will do it? Did not He say...JESUS..ask me anything I will do it.. He said.. if you know the Father hears you then you know you have the petitions you asked for. .GODS WILL is HIS WORD!

So be it friends or family..even though we have free will.. your Father knows how to whisper. Well when my boy was about 4? In preschool there was this girl Adana lol... man he like her so much but she would not have ANYTHING what so ever to do with him. So I told him.. were going to pray I said..children are easy.. the listen and God knows how to whisper (adults.. pfft you know). Well not long after that as he got up to go.. Adana gets up..comes over HUGS HIM! WOW made his world...

My wife needed wanted I should say.. friends at work.. she had none.. friend after friend now. KNOW your Father hears you. How? He said.. He hears the prayers of the righteous..hello YOU! He answers before you finish.. And remember...if you DONT see it right away.. YOU STAND IN FAITH! Dont doubt.. When Daniel prayed.. Gab (angel) told him.. the moment you prayed.. God answered. but the enemy with stood Gabriel for 21 days.. so Gab had to call on Mikael to come help. Remember where the fight is "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."

To many times we think that desire came from us.. ALL good things ALL come from GOD! So.. dont be moved (after you prayed) by what you see hear FEEL. Walk by faith. Find in that bible.. something that fits what you desire. Easy.. JOY? when sad.. NO.. the JOY of the lord is my strength! See?

Something WONDERFUL is about to happen to you.. thank and praise ONLY HIM!
 
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Hi am really for what you are passing through..But remember we belong to one Father..You are not alone,God is always with us and his unfailing love and care.i will pray for You for restoration.Thanks
Thank you. Yes he is always with me. I know he has never left me, the distance is my fault. Your prayers are appreciated.
 
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Hey Lynn... I remember I was like 10-14.. longer what ever.. my room was down stairs and ...oh man I HATED.. HATED Sunday mornings. My mom would pound on the floor to wake me up for Church. She made me go. My dad.. step dad since I was 3. At some point would not let her take me. So.. my mom and her friends were praying.. one day he just said yes.

Lynn.. you cant look at the world nor the people in it and then try to figure out how God works. What I mean is.. we need to KNOW that we know that we know JESUS IS REAL! That He is for you.. not against you. That God your FATHER HELLO! There is NOTHING He cant do. Did not HE say what ever WHAT EVER you desire when you pray believe you receive it and you shall have it? Did not He say.. what ever you ask the Father in my name He will do it? Did not He say...JESUS..ask me anything I will do it.. He said.. if you know the Father hears you then you know you have the petitions you asked for. .GODS WILL is HIS WORD!

So be it friends or family..even though we have free will.. your Father knows how to whisper. Well when my boy was about 4? In preschool there was this girl Adana lol... man he like her so much but she would not have ANYTHING what so ever to do with him. So I told him.. were going to pray I said..children are easy.. the listen and God knows how to whisper (adults.. pfft you know). Well not long after that as he got up to go.. Adana gets up..comes over HUGS HIM! WOW made his world...

My wife needed wanted I should say.. friends at work.. she had none.. friend after friend now. KNOW your Father hears you. How? He said.. He hears the prayers of the righteous..hello YOU! He answers before you finish.. And remember...if you DONT see it right away.. YOU STAND IN FAITH! Dont doubt.. When Daniel prayed.. Gab (angel) told him.. the moment you prayed.. God answered. but the enemy with stood Gabriel for 21 days.. so Gab had to call on Mikael to come help. Remember where the fight is "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."

To many times we think that desire came from us.. ALL good things ALL come from GOD! So.. dont be moved (after you prayed) by what you see hear FEEL. Walk by faith. Find in that bible.. something that fits what you desire. Easy.. JOY? when sad.. NO.. the JOY of the lord is my strength! See?

Something WONDERFUL is about to happen to you.. thank and praise ONLY HIM!

He does in his word give us what we need. He does give us what we desire. I've spent more time today crying out to him, praying, asking forgiveness, asking for guidance and so much more.

My relationship with my Father was very strong less than a year ago. I came into a new state and churches are all so different than anything I'm use to. I feel out of place and just let that effect me way too much. I know he doesn't want me alone and struggling.

I will keep praying and seeking him in word, in music, in tears, in any way I can so I grow strong again.
 
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Welcome to CF friend,
I am so sorry that you are hurting and I am praying for you in Jesus all powerful and holy name.
I pray that God's peace and joy will enter your home and you will be filled with strength.
Read, study and live the word of God my friend and your family will be won by your actions
 
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Welcome to CF friend,
I am so sorry that you are hurting and I am praying for you in Jesus all powerful and holy name.
I pray that God's peace and joy will enter your home and you will be filled with strength.
Read, study and live the word of God my friend and your family will be won by your actions
Thank you. :)
 
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