Do you have one? Have you ever had one?
I have one and it makes me soooo ashamed. I'm in my 50s and this gal is 18. She helps out with the worship team playing her violin. She's pretty,feminine,a true Christian,attending a Christian college.
The first time I saw her I had this love-awe pit in my stomach. Don't think of me as stupid or silly--I'm wise enough to know that nothing real could become of this. And I can hear you ladies now-raining recriminations upon me. When she was off to school it was nice ie I could simmer down ie these feelings that are SO stupid and irrational.
But someone must suffer the same way. It's intense,like I want to grab her and take her away (not REALLY)!
So far I've come up with this:
1 I've been without a relationship for a long time now (about 5 years,post divorce).
2 She reminds me of me at that age--driven,college,whole life before her,happy in Christian service,chance to get a GOOD marriage and do it right,involved in a fulfilling career. I want to share with her,hold her close, more than the sexual ideas.
Tell me your ideas,BEYOND the lust angle--I got that one. I hate this feeling,such a distraction.