I feel like I'm drowning in apathy.
I don't want to go to church.
Don't want to read, it bores me
The only thing I can half way do is pray-
I feel lost. I don't know if God hears me anymore
Thankfully our spiritual life is not based on how we feel. Think about that. You know at times, many times, Tuesday rolls around, we have prayer meeting on Tuesday, and I am working a little late, my brain is numb, my body is tired and I say I just don't feel like going out to church tonight. But then I remember it is not about how I feel but about Gods love. So I go, I am blessed, I am built up by the Holy Spirit and I bask in the praise and worship of God. So it is not about me, it is not about what I feel or I want or my desires. If it is then I don't know God and more sadly He does not know me. A hard but simple truth. A life given to Christ is not about self or motivation or feelings or what we want or desire, it is about Him. Die daily to self and follow Christ. Your apathy will cause you to be weak, defenseless and hopelessly in a downward spiral, don't stay there.
