I feel like I'm drowning in apathy.
I don't want to go to church.
Don't want to read, it bores me
The only thing I can half way do is pray-
I feel lost. I don't know if God hears me anymore
Have zero energy for anything. I just feel like I'm dragging myself around.
So based on the very strange responses that I got to my post, I can only assume that my meaning and purpose were not clear.
I hope you will allow me to clarify my post here.
First, the comparison of the Christian life, to the Olympic Athletes, is not something I came up with randomly.
It is the Bible.
Hebrews 12
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us
1 Corinthians 9:24
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it.
So clearly, contrary to some, we are instructed to strive to win the gold medal.
More oddly, some asked how many medals have I won.
This is a very odd question, since I am still running the race. If I'm alive, then my race isn't over. We won't know how many medals we've won, until we finish our race here on Earth.
But the primary point of my post, was simply that in order to strive for the goal.... in order to run the race set before us... we have to ignore how we feel. We have to do what is right, and what we should, even when we don't feel like it.
So how many gold medals do I have? I have no idea.
What I do know, is that if I only do what I should, when I feel like it, I won't have very many.
If you only love your spouse when you feel like it... you won't be married very long.
If you only go to church when you feel like it... you won't be going very much.
If you only do what G-d says when you feel like doing what he says... You won't be following G-d that much.
Revelations 22:12 says
And behold, I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me, to give to everyone ACCORDING TO HIS WORK
If you only work for G-d, when you feel like it, and do not strive for the gold medals.... you may find that you made it into heaven, but have little reward to show for your work.
I hope that clears up the meaning behind my post. I was perplexed that some didn't seem to understand it.