should I or shouldn't I continue to hope/wait in/on the Lord?

derpytia said:

When talking to various Christians both online and offline, in person or over text, about my situation regarding my severe hearing loss and ultra-severed tinnitus and how it affects me both physically and emotionally to the point of being disabled, I get mixed answers on how I should approach the situation.

Some say I should just accept that this is my lot for the rest of my foreseeable life and to not ask God for anything more. And yet others say that I should always ask God to heal my ears and hope that one day he'll bring the cure that I wish for to the healthcare market.

Both seem like such foolish choices. But with God it's hard to know if there is any other choice. Either way, the my life looks more dismal as time crawls on. Some days I just pray that God makes my time on this earth shorter and my death quick. The human part of me wants very much to hope but the spiritual side of me is suffering just as badly and wants to just give up on the idea that God will ever do something that amazing. I mean, we haven't even found the cure to cancer yet, assuming that there is one.

So, what should I do? Is hoping a fools errand?

(Also, I want to apologize for how many posts I make on CF. Sometimes, I'm so isolated because of my ear issues that you are the only ones I can talk to regarding faith. I don't get to go to church. The pastor there already has so much hardship on his plate to deal with already. The associate pastor is the same age as me and I don't think he'd understand my suffering very well because he's had so few hardships in his life. And everyone that I know personally is already so busy and overwhelmed that I can't dump my problems on them or even discuss them.)

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NOW faith is...

I'm younger than you (18) and still a secondary school student, and I'm not sure what you should do, but I believe that God is always with us as long as we believe in His only begotten Son Jesus Christ and that we should seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness (Matthew 6:33), trust in the Lord with all our heart and not lean on our own understanding (Proverbs 3:5-6), and that nothing is too hard for God (Genesis 18:4, Jeremiah 32:27, Matthew 19:26). I believe that waiting on the Lord is a good thing (Psalm 27:14). Also, I believe that our Lord Jesus Christ understands all of our pain as He Himself was afflicted and oppressed (Isaiah 53).

Why don't you get to go to church? Do you fellowship at all with other Christians? Personally if I were you, if it were possible at all, I would go to church whenever possible (as long as the church has sound doctrine) or at least try to fellowship with other Christians. I feel that all Christians need to fellowship with other Christians and can contribute in some way to the body of Christ (Hebrews 10:25, Galatians 6:2, 1 Corinthians 12:2). Even if you cannot or can hardly hear the sermon, you can still worship with other Christians and if there are Bible verses on the screen you could refer to them.

I don't mean to sound insensitive regarding issues that may cause you to not want or not be able to go to church, but if you are able and there are serving opportunities at church, maybe you could offer to help serve at the church (I believe it is possible to serve in the church doing tasks that don't require good hearing ability like maybe packing up equipment or stacking chairs)?

derpytia said:

When talking to various Christians both online and offline, in person or over text, about my situation regarding my severe hearing loss and ultra-severed tinnitus and how it affects me both physically and emotionally to the point of being disabled, I get mixed answers on how I should approach the situation.

Some say I should just accept that this is my lot for the rest of my foreseeable life and to not ask God for anything more. And yet others say that I should always ask God to heal my ears and hope that one day he'll bring the cure that I wish for to the healthcare market.

Both seem like such foolish choices. But with God it's hard to know if there is any other choice. Either way, the my life looks more dismal as time crawls on. Some days I just pray that God makes my time on this earth shorter and my death quick. The human part of me wants very much to hope but the spiritual side of me is suffering just as badly and wants to just give up on the idea that God will ever do something that amazing. I mean, we haven't even found the cure to cancer yet, assuming that there is one.

So, what should I do? Is hoping a fools errand?

(Also, I want to apologize for how many posts I make on CF. Sometimes, I'm so isolated because of my ear issues that you are the only ones I can talk to regarding faith. I don't get to go to church. The pastor there already has so much hardship on his plate to deal with already. The associate pastor is the same age as me and I don't think he'd understand my suffering very well because he's had so few hardships in his life. And everyone that I know personally is already so busy and overwhelmed that I can't dump my problems on them or even discuss them.)

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Hey good morning!

We should always pray. We put all our hope in God.

Does He always heal? No..

Do we always feel that we have the strength to deal with the disease? No.

I have the most painful chronic pain disease there is. It's on the rare disease list so there isn't much research on it because not many people actually have it, but there is nothing chronic that is more painful.

On the effected areas (my legs) I feel like I'm on fire 24/7, literally burning alive, at the same time, I am hypersensitive to the point that even the slightest touch feels like being stabbed with an ice pick, making dressing one of the most painful experiences ever. There are constant muscle spasms, called rolling spasms, and I also have spasms in my blood vessels making circulation a problem. My bones feel like they are constantly being crushed in a vice, and this just touches all I go through as without medicine I can't sleep, and REM sleep isn't always to be had which is a healing sleep, so the pain becomes cyclic as well..

I can explain hell quite adequately. No cure, and no hope of death. I've been like this since I was 32.

God is my all.

So we pray, we pray for healing and then we pray for God's will to be done in our lives. As Jesus said, "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me, yet not my will, but yours be done."

Pray for the strength to deal with what God gives us to deal with, and pray God never leaves your side. .

There are times God will be carrying you but you can't sense it, but He is always there.. with you, helping you.

Find out of there is something you need to learn from this. I have learned and grown so much since I've been hurt. I developed an unbelievable relationship with God, and become such a better person.

While these have been some of the hardest days of my life, they have also been the best.

So never stop praying. Never give up.. You never know what God has in store for you.

derpytia said:

Some say I should just accept that this is my lot for the rest of my foreseeable life and to not ask God for anything more.

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Biblicallly HEALING is defined as MERCY. Two blind men came to Jesus one day with a request Matt 9:27 'Lord Son of David have mercy on us!' Jesus asked them what kind of mercy they wanted. They replied the MERCY of healing! Jesus gave it to them. It's said about Jesus in another place when multitudes were HEALED that Jesus was moved with compassion and healed their sick. Matt 14:14

Is not Jesus the same, yesterday, today and forever? Heb 13:8 Most certainly. Is Jesus at least as merciful as one of your loved ones would be? Would one of your family hold back from you the mercy of healing? Probably not. Why would you think God would do anything different?

“Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, HOW MUCH MORE...." Luke 11: 13

There's much more I could say but I'd encourage you to pick up a copy of F. F. Bosworth's book,
"Christ The Healer". It covers every aspect of the subject one could possibly ask and has been used in many Bible colleges. You can hear the whole thing on youtube for free as well .

list=PL4ATecYQBfHwoBDWC8m8p_3UdMsDtkByu

It's not only encouraging it actually puts within one great faith and confidence to believe God for healing regardless of your past.

God has a way of turning messes into messages.
Seek ye first the Kingdom of God is easy enough however waiting in God is the hard part as His timing is much different than ours.
I am praying for you friend.
Jeremiah 29:11

I would stop the hoping and waiting and start the knowing that God knows your prayers and heard your cry...and He has already answered you before you first called......start believing that you have already received what you asked for.........plucking out or dismissing any members of your body that offend you by telling you otherwise....

derpytia said:

When talking to various Christians both online and offline, in person or over text, about my situation regarding my severe hearing loss and ultra-severed tinnitus and how it affects me both physically and emotionally to the point of being disabled, I get mixed answers on how I should approach the situation.

Some say I should just accept that this is my lot for the rest of my foreseeable life and to not ask God for anything more. And yet others say that I should always ask God to heal my ears and hope that one day he'll bring the cure that I wish for to the healthcare market.

Both seem like such foolish choices. But with God it's hard to know if there is any other choice. Either way, the my life looks more dismal as time crawls on. Some days I just pray that God makes my time on this earth shorter and my death quick. The human part of me wants very much to hope but the spiritual side of me is suffering just as badly and wants to just give up on the idea that God will ever do something that amazing. I mean, we haven't even found the cure to cancer yet, assuming that there is one.

So, what should I do? Is hoping a fools errand?

(Also, I want to apologize for how many posts I make on CF. Sometimes, I'm so isolated because of my ear issues that you are the only ones I can talk to regarding faith. I don't get to go to church. The pastor there already has so much hardship on his plate to deal with already. The associate pastor is the same age as me and I don't think he'd understand my suffering very well because he's had so few hardships in his life. And everyone that I know personally is already so busy and overwhelmed that I can't dump my problems on them or even discuss them.)

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I would go for a third option ignoring the other two. Jesus is the same yesterday today and forever. He is still a healing God. Begin to ask Him to heal you, divinely, he does not have to use medicine to heal. He still heals in the same way he has in the past, by His spoken word.

I have through prayer seen healing, one lady was healed of Ulcerative Colitis, a condition that doctors told he she would be stuck with for the rest of her life. It was extremely painful for her, and she had a lot of bleeding. After prayer was offered, it cleared up, and they could reduce her medication. Another healed of back problems. Another recived strength to a weakened body. A guy in the church had heart trouble, he prayed for his heart for a while, and it 100% healed, doctors told him they could not explain how it had happened.

Just keep praying, don't give in. As Jesus says in His word, "keep knocking, and the door will be open".

I saw your post, just wanna share this verse in Psalm with you
Psalm 46:1-3 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
Hope you find peace and love during the time healing yourself