Hello everyone! 
I am a 21 year old woman who lives at home with my mom and dad and my brother. My parents are devoted Catholics, and I have personally always been somewhat religious, agnostic to a point, but a believer in God and Jesus Christ nonetheless, but not practicing- disregarding the sporadic prayer here and there. Basically very teenage-y in my relationship with God, haha. I am now beginning my journey towards getting closer to God and Jesus Christ, since it is what my heart and soul is telling me, it is like He is calling me and has been slowly calling me for several years, quiet little whispers that have grown louder and now here I am! I am really excited to learn more about our faith, our Lord and His purpose for us all on this earth I am currently struggling severely with a mother, (who is my best friend and I would do everything and anything for her) who is sick with cancer for the third time. We get the results back on Friday if the cancer has spread, and I am worried sick. All I do is cry and pray and cry and pray, for her health and for her wellbeing and happiness. It's tough because I can't explain the relationship I have with my mother, it is so deep and she really is my world and my everything and I don't know if I could handle losing her and I contemplate what I would do if I did in fact lose her, and my thoughts immediately go to suicide because I literally can't imagine life without her. I am writing this while crying because that's all I can do, and then feel guilty for not being able to be stronger and more stoic for my mother, because I know she is the one in true pain. Any prayers would be greatly, greatly appreciated. Anyway, that didn't mean to drag on for so long, I meant to keep it short, haha! I am looking forward to exploring this forum more and getting to know all of you more God bless you all <3
I am a 21 year old woman who lives at home with my mom and dad and my brother. My parents are devoted Catholics, and I have personally always been somewhat religious, agnostic to a point, but a believer in God and Jesus Christ nonetheless, but not practicing- disregarding the sporadic prayer here and there. Basically very teenage-y in my relationship with God, haha. I am now beginning my journey towards getting closer to God and Jesus Christ, since it is what my heart and soul is telling me, it is like He is calling me and has been slowly calling me for several years, quiet little whispers that have grown louder and now here I am! I am really excited to learn more about our faith, our Lord and His purpose for us all on this earth I am currently struggling severely with a mother, (who is my best friend and I would do everything and anything for her) who is sick with cancer for the third time. We get the results back on Friday if the cancer has spread, and I am worried sick. All I do is cry and pray and cry and pray, for her health and for her wellbeing and happiness. It's tough because I can't explain the relationship I have with my mother, it is so deep and she really is my world and my everything and I don't know if I could handle losing her and I contemplate what I would do if I did in fact lose her, and my thoughts immediately go to suicide because I literally can't imagine life without her. I am writing this while crying because that's all I can do, and then feel guilty for not being able to be stronger and more stoic for my mother, because I know she is the one in true pain. Any prayers would be greatly, greatly appreciated. Anyway, that didn't mean to drag on for so long, I meant to keep it short, haha! I am looking forward to exploring this forum more and getting to know all of you more God bless you all <3
