On the more solemn side, I noticed that it has finally happened, earlier tonight while at work. The Spirit told me that it wouldn't always be like this when I asked Him once about five years ago, but, the gift has been revoked. The strange gift He appeared to have given me starting one night in August of 2013 - less than a year after I had begun to heal from my bout of Scrupulosity - has now been revoked. I no longer feel the direct comforting chill that momentarily comes over me when I ask the Spirit for guidance in whether I should or should not do something, or if the way I feel or think about a certain situation that has occurred is right according to Him or morally wrong.
It is okay. I felt one last comforting touch upon my heart when I asked the Spirit to tell me just once more that at the very least, I belong to Jesus. And that is a yes.
It is just that, I will no longer have the great benefit of this very personal, physical guidance from Him. I imagine this is similar to some people in the Old and New Testament who were children of God through Christ, but, the Spirit still left them at some point in such a way that they no longer have certain benefits of His power. I guess maybe it is simply time that the Lord decided I can go on from here on my own without needing my hand physically held. Just my thought. It is a great loss I have felt tonight, but, as I said before, when this strange gift first came upon me (and I assure you that I always tested the spirit I felt upon me by the standards of 1 John 4:1-3), I remember asking Him if His Spirit would eventually revoke this benefit whenever He felt it was right to do so, and it was affirmed that indeed, it would not always be like this. This ...
good. But, so as I fear not death or destruction in hell because of His great love (one of my favorite verses in Lamentations 3:22-23, after all
), I suppose I will have to learn to make it somehow in life from here without that particular, physical guidance in which I perhaps lived more by sight than faith, and it is time to go back to doing to doing the opposite. It may be tough for a while to get used again to the way things were before that fateful night six Augusts ago when I first felt that rush of the Spirit's power in my fervent prayer to be shown was right or wrong in a particular struggle with questions that I was experiencing at the moment, but so long as the blood of Jesus Himself still covers me, I can make it. It has been a good past five-and-a-half years with this gift. That's truly what we need to ultimately succeed in life and have the hope of immortality beyond, fellow believers and unbelievers who just may not realize they need Him yet. The blood that forgives all and welcomes back to Himself forever. I will never again doubt and begin to believe such a heinous thing as His blood not being good enugh on its own to make all things right.
Well, you're an awesome guy! 
