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Try to take it easy, sister. Get some meds if you have to. Said a prayer for you.
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Kristen.NewCreation and FreeinChrist
my heart hurts
my heart hurts
It's been a while since I've been here. Just thought I'd drop by and say hi to everyone. My depression has been up and down all year. Currently in a downward period again. Everyone around me is happy and things are looking up for everyone, except me. I'm happy for them, but it feels like my world is dark. My depression type has been described as "Functional depression", or "Walking depression". I've been able to work with it, I just bottle it up on the inside and not let anyone see. Here lately, it's been getting harder to get out of bed. I may be slipping into major depression.
Hope everyone is doing well.
The dark season sure takes its toll this year...
Thankfully the days will start to lengthen again soon.
But the contrast between me and the people around me is big again.
I am definitely in a depression again...
It'll probably be better in a few weeks or so.Sorry to hear you are suffering from depression again. The Winter months can become very dark then. Don't forget to take vitamin D3 to compensate for the loss of Sun light.
Hoping you stay on top of it.
I'm so sorry for your loss [/QUOTE
thank you forgive me for my late reply. been battling depression and trying to keep every day task stuff straight is a a challenge. I do ask for prayer from fellow believers it's a long explication which I need be on my computer, please pray my body continues to process salt the blood thank you
I think I understood what he meant. He means that instead of just sinning and feeling like we're being punished for it, God can do something more than leave us in that miserable state. He knows when we repent, just like you repented about treating your neighbor badly, and God can turn it into something good for both you and your neighbor.
I'm using myself as an example: I treated a friend badly. I felt bad about it. Next time I saw that person, I didn't feel any hate towards him, and I apologized for my behavior. He forgave me. Our friendship became stronger that it was before, and I could think of God as a merciful God, who can turn bad things into good things instead of just punishing people and doing nothing else. So even my faith became stronger. Sometimes it takes patience, and sometimes people don't forgive you quickly or you don't forgive them quickly, but it'll come. I hope you don't feel like you're being punished. It's enough if we know what we've done wrong and repent in our hearts.
Hope you're feeling better, Sister. Oh and hey, I heard you liked luchador wrestling. Have you seen Nacho Libre? It's one of the best feel-good movies I've ever seen. There's a bit of wrestling in that one, they're wrestling to save orphans! If I ever feel bad or frustrated, that movie will snap me right back into a good mood.
I truly wish I could give you a big fatherly (or in my case grandfatherly...lol!) hug. But my arms aren’t that long.Dad's getting meaner and meaner.
I don't think I actually spoke to him since I got here, except when he lectured me on my inability to do math. And today, when he hinted that I was stupid because I can't do numbers.
And he ran over something and said, "Whoops. Hope that wasn't cat. That'd be upsetting for firefly, huh?" and tried to torment me and mom by driving a little recklessly. And as I was dozing off on the way home, he purposely drove on the bumps in the road that alerts drivers they're getting to the center and in the oncoming lane. When mom asked why he was doing that, he said he was making sure I was awake.
And today/yesterday, I got yelled at because wow, I have autonomy and didn't want to attend service of a man who talks and encourages the congregation to kill cats! I don't mind attending services out of respect, but I refuse to attend one taught by a...thing that actively encourages harm on a creature believed to be a creation of god! But I have to attend christmas service tonight (mom promised its just singing).
Two more weeks and I'll be back at school.
So I'm a mix of angry and depressed.
The band leader had his wife take this shot while I was playing away. He was standing slightly behind me on my blind side (I’m blind in my left eye) and I didn’t see it.