- Jan 18, 2018
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okay, so, I’m honestly very tired here. I have recently come to a new love for God but my Overprotective parents are really frustrating me.
Normally, when people talk about this, they may be talking about not being able to eat candy or watch certain movies or maybe go out at night. That’s not it at all. My parents literally want me to do nothing. I am 21 and have very high functioning Autism. But they make me feel like I’m absolutely mentally challenged. They don’t want me using power tools or get upset when I use knives, they don’t want me to go anywhere on my own, they don’t want me to take my own medicine, they don’t want me to go to church things and get upset with me, and they even Get upset for me trying to talk about Jesus. Even though I have done every single one of these thing perfectly, on my own against their wishes.
The Bible tells us to honor our father and mother but they have said that they don’t want me to grow up. Like, actually said that I’ll never grow up. Jokingly but it doesn’t exactly feel like a joke. I am Asexual and they know I’m not sexual but they don’t want me alone with a girl. It drives me crazy and then I feel guilty when I do anything because caffeine is going to kill me. Ibuprofen is going to kill me. Twking medicine like the doctor said is going to kill me. I’m so tired and then when I can’t take it anymore, I rebel and feel guilty for anything that I do. The only place I have any freedom is with my uncle but then I feel like I’m sinning because he tells me to do the things that he knows I can do that my parents think I can’t. They don’t want me going anywhere alone. I feel trapped and it makes me feel hopeless.
Jonestly, it has been affecting my relationship with God because if we are really supposed to Honor our father and mother, then I have no freedom in Christ. There are more rules in my life that before to the point where I don’t feel like trying to keep doing this if I have to live my life in a bubble. Every little thing is “dangerous” and my uncle has seen that I am more than capable of all of this and I know what I’m doing but my mother and my Grandmother pretty much forbid everything and look at me like I’m incompetent and every time I mess up, they use it against me. I drive a truck with a very powerful engine and never had a problem byput the one time that my uncle let me drive the old Durango with barely any brakes and steering with about a 10 second delay after you steer the wheel, and neither the brakes nor the steering worked for anything when I took a curve, all of a sudden I’m completely unable to drive and they “knew it all along”. They even managed to convince my uncle. Who am I supposed to listen to, and how am I supposed to live? Does my uncles truths about me count for anything or am I condemned to a life of slavery?
I just want to Listen to God but this is actually hurting my relationship with God, because I feel like I’m still stuck. My family has even said that my life can consist of sitting and watching TV and eating and playing games and that’s all they would be comfortable with when they want me to move to Arizona with them. Honestly, I would rather die than that happen, I can’t live that way. What should I do?
Normally, when people talk about this, they may be talking about not being able to eat candy or watch certain movies or maybe go out at night. That’s not it at all. My parents literally want me to do nothing. I am 21 and have very high functioning Autism. But they make me feel like I’m absolutely mentally challenged. They don’t want me using power tools or get upset when I use knives, they don’t want me to go anywhere on my own, they don’t want me to take my own medicine, they don’t want me to go to church things and get upset with me, and they even Get upset for me trying to talk about Jesus. Even though I have done every single one of these thing perfectly, on my own against their wishes.
The Bible tells us to honor our father and mother but they have said that they don’t want me to grow up. Like, actually said that I’ll never grow up. Jokingly but it doesn’t exactly feel like a joke. I am Asexual and they know I’m not sexual but they don’t want me alone with a girl. It drives me crazy and then I feel guilty when I do anything because caffeine is going to kill me. Ibuprofen is going to kill me. Twking medicine like the doctor said is going to kill me. I’m so tired and then when I can’t take it anymore, I rebel and feel guilty for anything that I do. The only place I have any freedom is with my uncle but then I feel like I’m sinning because he tells me to do the things that he knows I can do that my parents think I can’t. They don’t want me going anywhere alone. I feel trapped and it makes me feel hopeless.
Jonestly, it has been affecting my relationship with God because if we are really supposed to Honor our father and mother, then I have no freedom in Christ. There are more rules in my life that before to the point where I don’t feel like trying to keep doing this if I have to live my life in a bubble. Every little thing is “dangerous” and my uncle has seen that I am more than capable of all of this and I know what I’m doing but my mother and my Grandmother pretty much forbid everything and look at me like I’m incompetent and every time I mess up, they use it against me. I drive a truck with a very powerful engine and never had a problem byput the one time that my uncle let me drive the old Durango with barely any brakes and steering with about a 10 second delay after you steer the wheel, and neither the brakes nor the steering worked for anything when I took a curve, all of a sudden I’m completely unable to drive and they “knew it all along”. They even managed to convince my uncle. Who am I supposed to listen to, and how am I supposed to live? Does my uncles truths about me count for anything or am I condemned to a life of slavery?
I just want to Listen to God but this is actually hurting my relationship with God, because I feel like I’m still stuck. My family has even said that my life can consist of sitting and watching TV and eating and playing games and that’s all they would be comfortable with when they want me to move to Arizona with them. Honestly, I would rather die than that happen, I can’t live that way. What should I do?
