Whenever I did not have a car, I always had a bicycle.
It's just also that, sometimes I really don't get, or understand maybe, the point of even going sometimes... I mean I listen to and watch a lot of sermons on radio/online/TV ect on a daily basis, and to go to a specific place just to hear another one...? Sometimes I think I am either not understanding and/or missing the point or whatever sometimes...?
What is the point after all...?
I still have the want to go and feel the need to go regardless... But, it's not like I even want to do a whole lot of socializing or whatever either or anyway... And the kind and type of socializing they do or want to do and/or talk about or whatever, before and afterwards, isn't my kind of socializing...
As many of them like to talk about "worldly stuff" that I'm not even much a part of anymore, nor am interested in at all anymore much anymore either, and that's even assuming any of them even want to really socialize with a loner or lone wolf like me either...
I just feel like many of them are not really there to talk about Jesus and/or really truly fellowship with Jesus much of the time either...
And I don't like how they form their own little clicks and groups like we were or are all in high school or something... Then, there is the problem with my own keeping my mouth shut when I see and notice these things as well...
I want to go but I don't...
I've tried a few times recently, and in more than a few of them, no one even came up to me and/or even tried to approach me and/or speak to me, not that I really want them to sometimes anyway, but it just doesn't seem very "Christ-like" or "Christian of them"...
For not any of them to "even greet" a newcomer who is just standing in among them by themselves trying to look comfortable and OK, being all by themselves, not talking to and/or with anybody else, ect...?
It's was like I was invisible, and most of them just formed into they're little groups, ect, either didn't or acted like they didn't even see me, ect...
Please tell me the point of even going under these circumstances and in this position please...?
Any good reason will do...?
I suppose I could do it for God, but I get plenty of Him at home anyway, and as it is...?
God Bless!