what are you feeling right now? (24)

My relatives are gone again, wife back to work and i back on my own. Not feeling too bad considering but missing my relatives still quiet badly and still a little down as well. We kind of just got used to each other and then they moved on already. They will be almost in New Zealand by now. i hope they still have two blessed weeks down there before they go back home again.

i had two downish days while they were here but i came along side seeing anyway. We still had lots of fun and it was good to see how beautiful the landscapes are where we live. Just very tired and drained all the time, which wasn't so nice.

hoping all are well

I feel not well and lack of blood in my brain, maybe because of hyperglycemia.

I fear the lawless people who persecute religion. I nearly dare not post here. Maybe later this web site will be blocked. Maybe my church will be dismissed.

Freedom away from fear. Thank you for let me live in a spiritual kingdom, and wish you a peaceful and joyful day.

not doing good at all my brother passed away yesterday morning I'm in a fog and going slow. winter has hit iowa it's snowing so anything that is to be decided will hold off till spring. I had to take a xanax last night it was to much to deal with life. blessings

Yusuphhai said:

I feel not well and lack of blood in my brain, maybe because of hyperglycemia.

I fear the lawless people who persecute religion. I nearly dare not post here. Maybe later this web site will be blocked. Maybe my church will be dismissed.

Freedom away from fear. Thank you for let me live in a spiritual kingdom, and wish you a peaceful and joyful day.

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i said a prayer for you dear brother. Please don't let fear determine your future but continue to find good life with Jesus. Focus on growing that. Praying you will find much life in His peace.

BlessedMommy05 said:

not doing good at all my brother passed away yesterday morning I'm in a fog and going slow. winter has hit iowa it's snowing so anything that is to be decided will hold off till spring. I had to take a xanax last night it was to much to deal with life. blessings

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My condolences with the passing away of your brother. i hope Jesus will comfort you with His love. Please take it slow and look after yourself.

Peace

I need sunlight. I need things to go well financially, but they're not. Dad's mad, and I've told the bank multiple times not to call him, but call me instead, but they're not listening. The office is in another state.

BlessedMommy05 said:

not doing good at all my brother passed away yesterday morning I'm in a fog and going slow. winter has hit iowa it's snowing so anything that is to be decided will hold off till spring. I had to take a xanax last night it was to much to deal with life. blessings

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My condolences as well. Dealing with death is one of the most difficult experiences we can have in this life. No one goes unscathed.

Sorry as well about the necessary delays; the need for closure has to be endured even longer.

I pray for peace, comfort, clear thinking and guidance for you and your family.

BlessedMommy05 said:

not doing good at all my brother passed away yesterday morning I'm in a fog and going slow. winter has hit iowa it's snowing so anything that is to be decided will hold off till spring. I had to take a xanax last night it was to much to deal with life. blessings

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So sorry for you loss.

i've been struggling with temptation today, close call but Jesus came and saved me out of my predicament, which was good to see.

i learned to understand that the best technique to temptation is ignoring the call to sin and looking at Jesus on the cross, instead of the beckoning voice/call/demands of the temptress. The weaker i become the more loving and gracious He is dealing with me, while the stronger i become the closer He is with me. A win win situation!

In the past i used to fight the voice/thoughts/feelings that tempted me, but no matter how hard i fought i would end up on the bottom of it instead of reaching safety. unfaithful loves are experts at changing our minds.

His grace covers me much better, also when i fall and don't pass the test, His grace keeps me safe while His truth goes to work on my inner lies ruling. In the end He saves me from my bad life - time and again.

Humbling me into His loving care in the process. What an awesome God i may serve.

Rejoice with me undeserved favour rules my life and i'm loving Him.

Feeling well today. A first in awhile. It is good to feel a bit better. The days don't drag on so much.

Trying to let Jesus rebuild my heart, focussing on that instead of my otherwise near meaningless existence. Trying to keep my eyes on Him, so much has changed already doing that. My life has meaning in His goodness growing within. Eternal treasures the Word calls them. i love Jesus for adding them to my life. Even in my depression i may serve God, letting Him produce good life out of the bad.

Hallelujah

Sorry for you loss, Blessedmommy. May God comfort you.

Downish again today but not too bad yet. i was very nauseated when i woke up this morning it has only just gone down a bit.

i have to keep searching for spiritual meaning to it all, especially when i'm down and out. Faith in God's love has surely paid off dividends.

Hard to keep perspective sometimes though, depression can sure make the colour go away out of life and turn everything black and white.


Going to wash our dog, she wont be happy.

BlessedMommy05 said:

not doing good at all my brother passed away yesterday morning I'm in a fog and going slow. winter has hit iowa it's snowing so anything that is to be decided will hold off till spring. I had to take a xanax last night it was to much to deal with life. blessings

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I'm so sorry for your loss

My body feels too stretched thin and uncomfortable. I am in the red in my bank account, not even spending money but my last paycheck was more than what I was over and for some reason, I went further into the red even though the only thing that was taken out was my car insurance bill.

I'm searching for a second job because I can't survive on 8.50/hour, 16 hours a week. It doesn't matter if I'm plowing through school with 18 credits per semester, I need to eat and my parents don't seem to understand that. They don't believe me when I tell them I have classmates who are working three jobs and attending school full time, some of them also with kids. Just to afford school and living expenses :/

Also I'm severely sleep deprived from studying because it's crunch time, and next week is finals. And because some of the girls in my hall keeps bringing their boyfriends over and it's giving me severe anxiety to hear some random guys voice. Ah trauma.

chaoticfirefly said:

My body feels too stretched thin and uncomfortable. I am in the red in my bank account, not even spending money but my last paycheck was more than what I was over and for some reason, I went further into the red even though the only thing that was taken out was my car insurance bill.

I'm searching for a second job because I can't survive on 8.50/hour, 16 hours a week. It doesn't matter if I'm plowing through school with 18 credits per semester, I need to eat and my parents don't seem to understand that. They don't believe me when I tell them I have classmates who are working three jobs and attending school full time, some of them also with kids. Just to afford school and living expenses :/

Also I'm severely sleep deprived from studying because it's crunch time, and next week is finals. And because some of the girls in my hall keeps bringing their boyfriends over and it's giving me severe anxiety to hear some random guys voice. Ah trauma.

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i hope you catch some sleep soon, no good trying to do final exams when you are exhausted. Trauma memories can be haunting and can scare us out of our wits. Please try and take good care of yourself. Music might help drown out the outside noises.

i hope you find a good job that will help pay your living expenses. When i studied i worked 24 hours a week that was just enough to keep us afloat but i reckon most students are very poor.

Hoping things settle down for you.

Feeling a bit more stable this morning after a slow start, lets hope it lasts. The last day that the kids are here. Three of them are quietly playing around me, two are in Church with Yvonne. They keep you on your toes these little ones.

have a blessed day

Been feeling okay

I'm feeling comforted. Praise God.

Hey gerbilwoman, I just had an almost-gerbil here myself! A mouse. Here in the 3rd floor. It was in my trashcan, looking for food. Cute little thing. But I think it went away. Better this way, wouldn't want to have to kill it since they breed so fast. It just dropped by to say hi.

This has been the worst week ever! NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME, even God has ditched me.

LoyalToGod said:

This has been the worst week ever! NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME, even God has ditched me.

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sorry to hear that things are going so badly for you, such can be hard to come to grips with. The good thing is God hasn't ditched you but loves you to come back into loving communion with Him. He is always the same Loyal full of love and mercy for those who belong to Him.

You be wise to call upon Him even today!

Peace