- Nov 7, 2018
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Tomorrow is the big day. I've been waiting almost 2 weeks for these results. These test were to test for any blood cancers. My white blood count has been chornically high for the past 3 to 4 years that I never got checked until now due to symptoms presenting themselves (I was pretty foolish for that). I also developed two big lumps, one on my neck and one on my arm. They are pretty big. About 3 inches by 2 inches abouts. The one on my neck was tested by ultrasound and said to be fine, but then after the test, I found another big one on the crease of my arm. I've also had pain in my chest bone, upper back and a cough that all has been going on for two months (the cough six weeks). These test results are the third part of all of my testing. Those are the details in case anyone who missed a few my prevoious posts were curious.
I am scared, really scared. This has been an excrutating journey mentally. So I ask for prayers that my blood test results are negative for any cancers. I ask for prayers that if they are found to be positive, that the cancer is not too far enough along where it can't be cured. I ask for prayers that no matter which way the results turn out, that I am strong enough to handle it.
On a side note, I have been struggling with anger issues again. I find myself getting angry a lot again from the disrespect, rejection, hurt and pain that I feel. I am only a few weeks into my new journey with Christ and I know change doesn't happen over night but I get scared when I think I have conquered something and it comes slamming back. I am getting little better with all of it so thats a plus, I know I have made progress, but on the other hand, I feel it's going to be impossible to overcome this. It feels too big but I know God is eons bigger. I ask for prayers for this because I want to be rid of this anger, rejection, hurt and pain.
Whew, I know there are a lot of specifics in here for prayers, so if you can only pray for one specific request, I would be more than grateful.
I am scared, really scared. This has been an excrutating journey mentally. So I ask for prayers that my blood test results are negative for any cancers. I ask for prayers that if they are found to be positive, that the cancer is not too far enough along where it can't be cured. I ask for prayers that no matter which way the results turn out, that I am strong enough to handle it.
On a side note, I have been struggling with anger issues again. I find myself getting angry a lot again from the disrespect, rejection, hurt and pain that I feel. I am only a few weeks into my new journey with Christ and I know change doesn't happen over night but I get scared when I think I have conquered something and it comes slamming back. I am getting little better with all of it so thats a plus, I know I have made progress, but on the other hand, I feel it's going to be impossible to overcome this. It feels too big but I know God is eons bigger. I ask for prayers for this because I want to be rid of this anger, rejection, hurt and pain.
Whew, I know there are a lot of specifics in here for prayers, so if you can only pray for one specific request, I would be more than grateful.
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