So, to start off with, I haven't been as active on the site for the past month or so because the Lord blessed me with a new job that has been great for my wife and I. However, the job is very busy with long hours (I work as an EMT in Fort Worth), which I have no complaints about in terms of working. My complaint and request for prayer specifically has to do with the fact that because this job requires so much of my time, and at odd hours, I hardly am able to attend church services anymore (maybe once or twice a month), I don't have nearly as much time to read the scriptures, nor fellowship like I normally do with spiritual brothers (either from church, or discuss topics on here), and I feel like my spiritual growth as a Christian has been utterly halted. I feel myself backsliding, and losing my grip. Not that I was this holy person before this job who always did what Christ would want me to do on a day-to-day basis, but now it's to the point where I'm quite discouraged and feel lacking in my faith.
My prayer life has been hindered as a result; my desire to speak with others about Christ has faded as well due to not walking as closely with him, and my ability to withstand temptation has been greatly weakened (in regards to keeping my temper in check and being patient, being able to control my mouth and not speak foolishly, and to be strengthened daily to resist the sins I struggle with, etc).
Now, much of this I can't control due to my work schedule. It is what it is. However, much of this is very much within my control, and I realize that. I make no excuses for the fact that I should be praying just as much and more, and I should read the Bible just as much, but the new job has thrown my whole routine off. While I am immensely grateful to God that he has blessed us with this which will help provide for everything we need with the baby my wife and I are expecting this coming January, I am also very discouraged because I feel my relationship with Christ is hindered and regressed.
I ask for prayers, that I be given strength to repent from what needs to be repented of and ask forgiveness, and that the Lord help me to continue in the faith.
Much appreciation and love to all of you.
My prayer life has been hindered as a result; my desire to speak with others about Christ has faded as well due to not walking as closely with him, and my ability to withstand temptation has been greatly weakened (in regards to keeping my temper in check and being patient, being able to control my mouth and not speak foolishly, and to be strengthened daily to resist the sins I struggle with, etc).
Now, much of this I can't control due to my work schedule. It is what it is. However, much of this is very much within my control, and I realize that. I make no excuses for the fact that I should be praying just as much and more, and I should read the Bible just as much, but the new job has thrown my whole routine off. While I am immensely grateful to God that he has blessed us with this which will help provide for everything we need with the baby my wife and I are expecting this coming January, I am also very discouraged because I feel my relationship with Christ is hindered and regressed.
I ask for prayers, that I be given strength to repent from what needs to be repented of and ask forgiveness, and that the Lord help me to continue in the faith.
Much appreciation and love to all of you.
