- Mar 27, 2017
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I had pain in my heart today about how I was treated when I was tortured. I cried in my heart today because of the cruelty which I endured. I understand that they did not love me and did not care about me at all. I understand that they did not care about me being a beautiful soul, nor about my body, nor about who I am. I understand that they did not care about who I was at all and did not care about how I am precious to others and beautiful to my husband. I understand that they only cared about hurting good people because they only like evil. I understand that they did not care anything about me. I understand that they did not care about my body and how I look because they called me ugly all the time, I understand that they did not care about my health because they threatened to damage my body by burning me, I understand they did not care that I am loved by my family and friends and my husband Caleb. I understand that they did not care about my sexuality and that I have tried to be chaste throughout my life and have only had one sexual partner besides Caleb, a young man who was my boyfriend in college. They did not care that I valued my chastity very much. I understand that they did not find me special and did not find me beautiful and did not find me precious. I understand that they did not care about my physical body. I understand that they did not care about my sensitivity and that I am highly sensitive. I understand that they did not care about who I am and my personality. I understand that they harmed me because of my beautiful soul and that I am like Christ and they do not like goodness. I understand that my torturers pretended to act as though they cared about who I was, about my life and my femininity but that they did not at all. I understand that my torturers were very cruel and they did not care about the beauty of any person and that people were not important to them and not precious to them. I understood that even though I am a young woman, and was in my late 20s when I was harmed that they did not care that I was a young woman and that I was celibate. I understood that they did not care that I love to write and read and that I love dolls and that I love to read the Bible and that I love nature. I understand that they did not care about anything about me besides that I was a beautiful soul and kind and gentle and they wanted to hurt me because they are evil and like to harm beauty. The Lord told my soul that they tried to act as though they cared that I was a young woman and that I was sensitive and chaste to harm me and make it seem as though they found me to be a special victim and that they had interest in who I was. The Lord told me that they did this to make it seem they loved me. The Lord told me that He was protecting me and that it was He who cared about everything about me, and found me beautiful and cared about everything about my life and cared about who I was. The Lord told me that it was He that loved me and cared that I was chaste and that I was very sensitive physically and emotionally. The Lord told me that it was He who found me very beautiful and He who knows everything about me and He who finds my physical and spiritual beauty special. The Lord told me that it was He who knows my every thought and every feeling and knows my body perfectly and knows my soul perfectly. The Lord told me that it was He who found me precious. The Lord told me that He would comfort me each day and that soon will be with Caleb in Heaven and have eternal peace with Him.
