Well, if that is how you see it what can anyone say?Warning believers not to neglect their salvation lest they lose it is not he same as telling unbelievers they need to be saved. There is no annointing on your words since you yourself say you are not a believer. I do not see what good you are doing. OK, well, then do so.
I see no scripture that says your heart has to first be in a certain place to repent. Do you not feel any regret for the damage you have done to others? I mean I think you do, right? That is a start for repentance.
So you do not sin anymore? I am confused. Do you repent or not?
I ceased sinning but that is not repentance. Repentance is NOT just "change of mind" like many simplistic people say it is. Repentance is when you truly understand the evil you have done and from genuine sorrow turn from it. My repentance is entirely intellectual. There is no emotions behind it. I wish there were and I constantly try to force myself to feel sorry but I am unable to.
Also about your thing that "my words have no anointing". This is not something you actually know. Honestly you do not know for 100% if I have the Holy Spirit or not. Nobody can know that for certain until God reveals it to the individual. I would bring up the story about Paul and the believers who maliciously preached about Jesus in order to get Paul in trouble. Paul simply says:
"But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way
, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice. Yes, and I will continue to rejoice," Phil 1:18
So clearly God can even use people who preach Christ with false motives so why couldn't He use me? That's putting serious limitations on God.
Also that's not how I see it. That's how the Bible says it is(about being saved and unsaved and saved).
Hebrews 6:4-6
2 Peter 2:19-22
Hebrews 10:26-31
John 15:5-7
Matthew 13:18-23
1 John 5:16-17
Specifically 1 John says that if someone does a sin that leads to death(spiritual death) there is no reason to even pray for it. The person is done.
I know we want to believe that God is truly merciful(and He is) but He is also a very harsh God. Eternal torment is harsh no matter how you want to twist it around.
Romans 11:22
" Behold therefore the goodness and
severity of God: on them which fell, severity; but toward thee, goodness, if thou continue in his goodness: otherwise thou also shalt be cut off."
We tend to say "God is love" but that is a 100% false claim. God has love. God has wrath. Those are attributes that God possesses. He is NOT an attribute itself. However God is love in the sense that there is no love outside of God since only God Himself can provide us with true love. God has just as much wrath as He does love. God's love is beyond our comprehension but so also is His wrath. Unfortunately some people will be vessels of wrath in order for God to display His glory and some people will be vessels of mercy in order for God to display His grace and also glory.
Romans 9:21-23
"21 Or does not the potter have a right over the clay, to make from the same lump one vessel
1for honorable use and another for common use?
22 What if God, although willing to demonstrate His wrath and to make His power known, endured with much patience vessels of wrath prepared for destruction?
23 And
He did so to make known the riches of His glory upon vessels of mercy, which He prepared beforehand for glory,"
I know you believe 100% free will from what I've read of your posts around this site but the reality is while we have free will, there is also God's sovereignty that comes into play. God could've prevented me from falling away. It was entirely 100% in His power to do so but He didn't. Same with Judas. God stops certain people from falling away(King David) and allows some others to continue in their sins(King Saul). Some of it depends on free will and some of it depends on God simply allowing it to happen. God is all powerful and has complete control. He does not exercise it completely but He certainly exercises it more than we give Him credit for.