I wonder?

I wonder if God gives us wants? I am less materialistic than most. I hardly ever desire things. I think I have one thing on my wish list. A perfume that my deceased brother gave me years ago. I may or may not buy it.

However, I have had two miracles happen in the last few weeks. One day I got ready, saw my bare neck in a blouse and thought a necklace would go nice. Well, I received a necklace that day from a classmate who had been a slight bit mean to me in our first week in August. I decided to show her kindness and love. She had wrapped it up so the Lord knew it was coming my way when I suddenly wanted one out of the blue. (PS she now gives me a lift a couple days a week too and had chance to talk a little about God with her. Praise Him!)

Then at my mum's Bible study I have stopped bringing my Bible and have been using the Church's one. Just 2 Wednesdays ago I realised how the Bible was identical to the one I had for 20 years, which fell apart about two years ago! Except this one is a Church edition. Well, I really wanted one. Really did. I have used those for months and not felt so inclined before. That following Sunday the Pastor announced that the pew bibles are getting old and that we are changing to the ESV. So today I asked the Pastor if I can have an old Bible and he said to find a good one when the time comes.

To me, who rarely wants something, this is striking. I feel so thankful and it is quite a healing feeling. I am full of self-condemnation lately but to feel His care is humbling and encouraging.

Also, I have been protected so far from a neighbour who is annoyed with me. Was given a lot of disgruntled messages through facebook from someone I have been kind to over the years moaning that we make too much noise in the morning. But it is really the noise of 4 people getting dressed and ready to go to school etc. Other neighbours, I hadn't told anyone so they have, came to my defence and as I decided to not be bitter had a friend phone me to meet her.

She asked me if I have had problems with my neighbour. She had heard from her cousin who lives opposite me. I was told that everyone is annoyed at the lady who was messaging me. A stranger came up to me a day or two later and put her hand on my arm and said not to let them bully me. But people I don't know obviously know about me and say I don't deserve it and that I'm quiet and nice etc. So I can't stop thinking of Psalm 91. I know other psalms are more fitting but the verses about my feet not striking a rock and that things will happen at my right and left but not touch me.

So I am sorry for the saga but please join me in awe at His Goodness and thank Him with me.

Praise the Lord our God!

St_Worm2 said:

Hi Sam91, I believe God often works through our desires, as long as it is always Him we are chasing after and not the things we desire instead. He, in fact, promises to give us the desires of our heart as long as we are always willing to follow this command/admonishment of His, written by the hand of King David.

Psalm 37
4 Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.
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Yours and His,
David
p.s. - great story BTW, so thank you for sharing it with us. It would have worked out well on our Deeper Fellowship board here too, I think

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Thanks, it was after midnight so was quickly looking for somewhere to post. Glad you enjoyed it, felt so blessed last night.

ilovejcsog said:

What a special lady and Christian you are! I wish a little of you would rub off on me
God bless you and cherish you. I am sure he does and we are blessed to hear from you.
PS Why don't you tell us what kind of perfume you wish for and maybe we can help provide.
Even better maybe God will provide. You deserve another blessing, you are due for one.

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Aww I'm not behaving as I ought all the time so it makes me all the more thankful for His kindness.

As for the perfume, I could easily buy it unless they have discontinued it. I was just thinking if there was anything else I do want because I said that I rarely want things. I do not want that enough to buy it either. It is my birthday this week so I might buy it because if I leave it too long it might be discontinued.