Hi- I’m sorry you are going through difficult time. You are not alone, we are here for you.
I want to encourage you to meditate on these Bible verses:
“No weapon formed against you shall prosper,” (Isaiah 54:17)
“He was wounded and crushed because of our sins; by taking our punishment, he made us completely well.” (Isaiah 53:5)
“..We are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” (Romans 8:37)
I was sharing this verse to my friend this morning who is going through severe pain- “Nothing is too hard for God.” (Jeremiah 32:27).
He is God of all humankind. There is, indeed, nothing too difficult for Him. I pray for peace and comfort as you go through this sadness. I hope you will feel better soon. God bless.