Hi members, I am a new member from Singapore.
This year 2018 has been a bad year for my fiancé. Business has been going downwards and has been very unstable. Walk-in customers are decreasing and the business is sustaining only from the support of regular customers. Reserves are depleting and if it continues, they may have to fork out extra cash to sustain business. The worst is that the business probably has to cease. This business is my fiancé blood and sweat.
Due to this, my fiancé has been experiencing OCD and is visiting a psychiatrist for treatment. He is also currently on medication to control his OCD occurrences.
I started praying to Jesus for a month or so, praying for his guidance and anointment in this difficult situation. By that, I mean that I have trusted in the LORD for years. It started when I got involve in some trouble many years back and I remember I was crying and feeling extremely afraid of the consequences that I was about to face. Back then in an audible voice, I heard somebody saying I am here for You.
However, all these years I have not been living according to his instructions and guidance.
There were many times when I will cry myself at home or when I was praying/working. Recently I will recall the number of sins I have done over these few years. The lies and deceit I have committed. It disgusted me. I surrendered and told God that from now on, I will do my very best to live in His ways. I asked Him to read my heart. Upon praying, I was often reminded through verses not be anxious, and not to worry. I was also often reminded that my Faith has to be there - When you pray, believe that you have received and you will receive.
There were days that business was good, but days when it wans't. And on such days, it is hard although I constantly tell myself that I should not doubt my faith. Doubt your doubts but not your faith! For God's plan is made perfect for us. He has plans to prosper and do us good, not harm.
I refrain myself from asking my fiancé on daily business performance. However when he told me business is nearly 0 for the day, it was really hard for me. I had many questions - asking why is it that I prayed, but still I didn't get the result I wanted. Nevertheless, at night i still give thanks to Jesus. I prayed for strength and guidance. I told him to help me not waver my faith. & I should not doubt Him even if the answer is not what I wanted.
Now, I am still trying my very best to be patient. Believing that he has the best plans for us. Because deep down, I could feel His presence. During good business days, I knew it was Him who has given us His blessings. I pray that my Faith never wavers. Doubt my doubts but not my Faith. And not Him.
This year 2018 has been a bad year for my fiancé. Business has been going downwards and has been very unstable. Walk-in customers are decreasing and the business is sustaining only from the support of regular customers. Reserves are depleting and if it continues, they may have to fork out extra cash to sustain business. The worst is that the business probably has to cease. This business is my fiancé blood and sweat.
Due to this, my fiancé has been experiencing OCD and is visiting a psychiatrist for treatment. He is also currently on medication to control his OCD occurrences.
I started praying to Jesus for a month or so, praying for his guidance and anointment in this difficult situation. By that, I mean that I have trusted in the LORD for years. It started when I got involve in some trouble many years back and I remember I was crying and feeling extremely afraid of the consequences that I was about to face. Back then in an audible voice, I heard somebody saying I am here for You.
However, all these years I have not been living according to his instructions and guidance.
There were many times when I will cry myself at home or when I was praying/working. Recently I will recall the number of sins I have done over these few years. The lies and deceit I have committed. It disgusted me. I surrendered and told God that from now on, I will do my very best to live in His ways. I asked Him to read my heart. Upon praying, I was often reminded through verses not be anxious, and not to worry. I was also often reminded that my Faith has to be there - When you pray, believe that you have received and you will receive.
There were days that business was good, but days when it wans't. And on such days, it is hard although I constantly tell myself that I should not doubt my faith. Doubt your doubts but not your faith! For God's plan is made perfect for us. He has plans to prosper and do us good, not harm.
I refrain myself from asking my fiancé on daily business performance. However when he told me business is nearly 0 for the day, it was really hard for me. I had many questions - asking why is it that I prayed, but still I didn't get the result I wanted. Nevertheless, at night i still give thanks to Jesus. I prayed for strength and guidance. I told him to help me not waver my faith. & I should not doubt Him even if the answer is not what I wanted.
Now, I am still trying my very best to be patient. Believing that he has the best plans for us. Because deep down, I could feel His presence. During good business days, I knew it was Him who has given us His blessings. I pray that my Faith never wavers. Doubt my doubts but not my Faith. And not Him.
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