This was somewhat hard to read. But I asked people to be blunt. I'm sure you would have been blunt anyways whether I asked to be blunt or not. There is the scripture that says a harsh rebuke done by a righteous man is better than kisses from an evil man. So I need the truth.
I am already dealing with the effects of my sensitivity. It is true that people don't really want to work with me and sometimes they're made to work with me. It is also true that I will not being able to move up if I have a meltdown. But I usually keep my meltdowns to myself until I am at home. Then I have a meltdown. I will never have a meltdown in front of people. But they can still tell that something is wrong and they just don't enjoy being around me all that much.
I know what you are saying is true. I am working on it.
I can assure you that they know when you are upset. They all know.
One of my strengths, or weaknesses, is that I'm pretty direct. I'm not good a fluffing my words. I call it like I see it, right or wrong.
My post may have sounded like a rebuke, but it was meant as more of a.... you need to consider the path your life is on, and whether you want that path or not.
I'm talking to you, as a man who lives alone, works alone, and general stays by himself for life. I am the hobbit. I am 41 years old, and I've never had a girlfriend. I've only been on one date which was last year, and only because she asked me over and over until I said yes, and we went on one date, and never again.
I don't have any friends. None. I've had, past tense, a few friends, but no more.
And I don't even care to change this. I'm ok with it.
But asking you..... are you ok with it? Is that what you want in life?
Yeah it works for me, but it may not be what you want. Fact is, most people don't want to be alone.
You can only control your choices, not your consequences. Do you want to stay on this path? Because from what you are saying, it sounds like you'll end up in the same place that I am. But it doesn't sound to me like that is what you want.
So this isn't as much a rebuke as, consider your ways. Consider where you are going, and if that is where you want to be.
Examine yourself, as the Bible says. Do you want to walk this path? If not, then pray to the Lord for help in changing whatever needs changed.
Do you want to be a hobbit? You want to be like me? Or do you want friends, and have a family, and community? Because you can't have both.
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