What really gets to me and always scares me to death is when I hear people say you can lose your salvation. Not saying this or true or false, but the thought of it scares me. It makes me question my life and depending on where I am at spiritually it makes me feel destined for hell.
FYI, I have been born again and crucified with Christ and my spiritual experiences line up with the Bible. Ever since then I notice a battle inside between flesh and spirit, like a double life I'm living. Lately the flesh is dominant and I don't want to lapse deeper into the old life.
Based on my experiences, it does feel like it's based on our freedom and that God never actually forsakes us and says no. It feels like it's only us who say no, even if we don't realize it. When I repent my heart and have a realization that I forsook God, not him, and then submit my heart to the word of God, my heart softens and I become more receptive to the Holy Spirit and it's fruits in my life and I don't want to sin or have these worries anymore. While I'm in the Spirit, I know that God loves me.. he'll never forsake me, and I am living in utter peace. However when the flesh takes over I feel guilt, God hates me, fallen from grace, I have trampled on what Christ did for me, am destined to hell and all these crazy thoughts and despair.
My question is how do I deal with the occurring thought of ending up eternally lost, and if you can lose salvation, can you get it back? I sometimes struggle to swallow the idea that the almighty God who created the trillions of stars and can see the future would crucify someone to his son and then at some point would dogmatically say no to a person forcing him/her live a death sentence knowing they will end up in hell for all eternity and nothing they can do. The thing is - I don't know if this can happen or not, so if it can I just want to know. I'm sure I'm not the only one with these deep worries and it would be a blessing to hear anyone share their overcoming of this. Will there always be a chance in life to get right with God no matter what? (God forbid as excuse to sin, but in terms of is this actually true).
I would appreciate some advice. Cheers
FYI, I have been born again and crucified with Christ and my spiritual experiences line up with the Bible. Ever since then I notice a battle inside between flesh and spirit, like a double life I'm living. Lately the flesh is dominant and I don't want to lapse deeper into the old life.
Based on my experiences, it does feel like it's based on our freedom and that God never actually forsakes us and says no. It feels like it's only us who say no, even if we don't realize it. When I repent my heart and have a realization that I forsook God, not him, and then submit my heart to the word of God, my heart softens and I become more receptive to the Holy Spirit and it's fruits in my life and I don't want to sin or have these worries anymore. While I'm in the Spirit, I know that God loves me.. he'll never forsake me, and I am living in utter peace. However when the flesh takes over I feel guilt, God hates me, fallen from grace, I have trampled on what Christ did for me, am destined to hell and all these crazy thoughts and despair.
My question is how do I deal with the occurring thought of ending up eternally lost, and if you can lose salvation, can you get it back? I sometimes struggle to swallow the idea that the almighty God who created the trillions of stars and can see the future would crucify someone to his son and then at some point would dogmatically say no to a person forcing him/her live a death sentence knowing they will end up in hell for all eternity and nothing they can do. The thing is - I don't know if this can happen or not, so if it can I just want to know. I'm sure I'm not the only one with these deep worries and it would be a blessing to hear anyone share their overcoming of this. Will there always be a chance in life to get right with God no matter what? (God forbid as excuse to sin, but in terms of is this actually true).
I would appreciate some advice. Cheers