- Apr 5, 2018
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hi,
i want to write a lot and in clear sentences and all, but all the support i have had thus far (until I met Norman today) for the past six months has been online and honestly, and without trying to curse, i am freakin dead tired of online support. Even the crisis psychiatrists are telling me to find and create a support network for in person support.
My ex who abused me for 13 years with narcissistic type behaviors stole my daughter through her own delusional paranoid lies 9/9/2018. There are no court orders and she has also withheld her from school and medical appointments. I don't need advise for CPS or Atty for divorce. That is all in the works already.
But what i do need is some people in San Diego area (Mira Mesa preferred) who can actually meet face to face, lay hands on me, pray for me for deliverance, peace, joy in the intently painful situation I am in. Preferably with personal experience in the issues I am facing with abusive spouses. Women can be quite vicious abusers too - just talking from current experience.
I suffer PTSD, CPTSD, and have been (wrongfully?) diagnosed with IED. My reactions are only when provoked by abusive behaviors that cause dissociation, i throw things. When faced a choice between hitting her and throwing something i choose to not go the jail route. And I have never actually struck anyone in anger in my life. I don't intend to start with that.
I have been called to ministry, which she has essentially and nearly stripped all desire from me to perform through isolation and spiritual abuse. Glory be to God I made an opportunity to talk about my ministry with someone today, and I actually started feeling "intoxicated" down to the face numbness while talking about it with this fine man.
There is another person who received an identical call to ministry between two calls (smaller detail followed by larger detail) of insight I had received over the years.
My ex had isolated me from every aspect of my life. I am currently living in a relatively isolated manner, however i am starting to reach back out. But I need a local support system. I know this sound weird and all, but I am willing to meet at anywhere in San Diego to establish a good, strong Christian support system, who can help me through the abuse, the divorce, and help me understand the ministry call more, perhaps even join in the work.
I am desperately alone. Please respond by IM if you want to reach out to this desperately hurting man, and give him a call, or let him call you to begin.
Please, in the name of Jesus. I just need prayer, emotional, and spiritual support - in person.
I will be happy to pray in agreement with whatever y'all post. I don't intend to reply in writing on this chain, however. Only in IM with opportunity for phone or in person contact at a church or something. Only trying to do what the professionals want me to do. (GOD I HATE ONLINE)
i want to write a lot and in clear sentences and all, but all the support i have had thus far (until I met Norman today) for the past six months has been online and honestly, and without trying to curse, i am freakin dead tired of online support. Even the crisis psychiatrists are telling me to find and create a support network for in person support.
My ex who abused me for 13 years with narcissistic type behaviors stole my daughter through her own delusional paranoid lies 9/9/2018. There are no court orders and she has also withheld her from school and medical appointments. I don't need advise for CPS or Atty for divorce. That is all in the works already.
But what i do need is some people in San Diego area (Mira Mesa preferred) who can actually meet face to face, lay hands on me, pray for me for deliverance, peace, joy in the intently painful situation I am in. Preferably with personal experience in the issues I am facing with abusive spouses. Women can be quite vicious abusers too - just talking from current experience.
I suffer PTSD, CPTSD, and have been (wrongfully?) diagnosed with IED. My reactions are only when provoked by abusive behaviors that cause dissociation, i throw things. When faced a choice between hitting her and throwing something i choose to not go the jail route. And I have never actually struck anyone in anger in my life. I don't intend to start with that.
I have been called to ministry, which she has essentially and nearly stripped all desire from me to perform through isolation and spiritual abuse. Glory be to God I made an opportunity to talk about my ministry with someone today, and I actually started feeling "intoxicated" down to the face numbness while talking about it with this fine man.
There is another person who received an identical call to ministry between two calls (smaller detail followed by larger detail) of insight I had received over the years.
My ex had isolated me from every aspect of my life. I am currently living in a relatively isolated manner, however i am starting to reach back out. But I need a local support system. I know this sound weird and all, but I am willing to meet at anywhere in San Diego to establish a good, strong Christian support system, who can help me through the abuse, the divorce, and help me understand the ministry call more, perhaps even join in the work.
I am desperately alone. Please respond by IM if you want to reach out to this desperately hurting man, and give him a call, or let him call you to begin.
Please, in the name of Jesus. I just need prayer, emotional, and spiritual support - in person.
I will be happy to pray in agreement with whatever y'all post. I don't intend to reply in writing on this chain, however. Only in IM with opportunity for phone or in person contact at a church or something. Only trying to do what the professionals want me to do. (GOD I HATE ONLINE)
