- Feb 11, 2018
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- United States
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- Anglican
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- Single
Some people might jump to conclusions that it's an issue of beauty. It's not. I like my looks in the aesthetic sense.
What I don't like is the culture.
I have always been connected to more white things. I was raised Episcopalian and played classical music for almost 20 years. I sang in an elite chamber choir in high school. I was an English major and read all of Shakespeare's plays (well, except Titus Andronicus).
In early adulthood, I strongly identified with Western feminism because I had been subjected to the moral double standard and it was a thorn in my side. That parlayed into Ancient Hedonism, the Cyrenaic school of philosophy. I continued to explore different paths, especially stoicism. Maybe there's social pressure to become Buddhist or Muslim just because it's not white, but those didn't appeal to me.
The main thing I like about the West is the sanction and protection of its introverts and loners, particularly those suffering from mental illness. I believe our brains are wired differently. Meanwhile, in much of the world, especially the third world, there is zero understanding of mental illness. The black community often places a huge emphasis on solidarity, socializing for the sake of socializing, and having a "hive mind." I have even been called a house n word, by a white person no less (who thinks he's anti-racist), a white person who was a close friend for many years. I was deeply hurt.
Had I stayed in Liberia, by now, I believe I would have just done what everyone else does: get a career, get married, get philandered, get divorced, raise the kids alone, and struggle emotionally, mentally, and financially. And that would make me one of the lucky ones. In black America, often, there is not even marriage. 70% (and growing!) of black households are headed by single moms.
There are a few things about white American culture I don't like, like the fact that some white liberals enable the rage and anger that ruins the lives of whole families because they're virtue signalers, or the fact that the radical left has lost its mind and is saying women can have male organs or increasingly that pedophiles are born like that. But that's not the real world, that's not the majority.
Finally, I feel like the races may very well separate. There may be a civil war. Blacks may be sent to concentration camps or bribed to go back to Africa. I don't feel comfortable being black.
Any words of wisdom?
What I don't like is the culture.
I have always been connected to more white things. I was raised Episcopalian and played classical music for almost 20 years. I sang in an elite chamber choir in high school. I was an English major and read all of Shakespeare's plays (well, except Titus Andronicus).
In early adulthood, I strongly identified with Western feminism because I had been subjected to the moral double standard and it was a thorn in my side. That parlayed into Ancient Hedonism, the Cyrenaic school of philosophy. I continued to explore different paths, especially stoicism. Maybe there's social pressure to become Buddhist or Muslim just because it's not white, but those didn't appeal to me.
The main thing I like about the West is the sanction and protection of its introverts and loners, particularly those suffering from mental illness. I believe our brains are wired differently. Meanwhile, in much of the world, especially the third world, there is zero understanding of mental illness. The black community often places a huge emphasis on solidarity, socializing for the sake of socializing, and having a "hive mind." I have even been called a house n word, by a white person no less (who thinks he's anti-racist), a white person who was a close friend for many years. I was deeply hurt.
Had I stayed in Liberia, by now, I believe I would have just done what everyone else does: get a career, get married, get philandered, get divorced, raise the kids alone, and struggle emotionally, mentally, and financially. And that would make me one of the lucky ones. In black America, often, there is not even marriage. 70% (and growing!) of black households are headed by single moms.
There are a few things about white American culture I don't like, like the fact that some white liberals enable the rage and anger that ruins the lives of whole families because they're virtue signalers, or the fact that the radical left has lost its mind and is saying women can have male organs or increasingly that pedophiles are born like that. But that's not the real world, that's not the majority.
Finally, I feel like the races may very well separate. There may be a civil war. Blacks may be sent to concentration camps or bribed to go back to Africa. I don't feel comfortable being black.
Any words of wisdom?