Sorry I really am not sure if this is the most appropriate section. But I just need some help and advice. Quick background: I'm 23 and I work 45 hours a week at a construction job where I work by myself. I moved to the city I currently live in to get closer to my girlfriend about a year ago. We broke up mutually a couple months ago after a year and a half of being together and are on good terms and no contact. I have made no friends in this city. I live with a few family members who I almost never speak to as they all do their own thing.
I'm alone every second of every day. I hardly speak to anyone. The loneliness at my job is killing me but it pays well. I tried searching for weekend guitar classes at a local college, nothing. I go to church alone but it's very big, I pretty much walk in and walk out and no one even knows I'm there. I know I need to get involved, but I don't even know how or what I would do there, and my severe social anxiety makes that sort of thing a living nightmare.
Anyways... I'm completely isolated 24/7. I have no one. The pain of constant loneliness and emptiness has overwhelming waves of suicidal thoughts floating in my mind constantly. I've been in this situation before years ago and thank God he got me out of that situation. And I try my best to be grateful and believe God will get me out of this again. I try not to think negativity but sometimes it completely takes over. But now I'm here again and I don't know how much longer I can be patient and strong. I need someone. I need friendship and community. If anyone has advise on what steps I can take to meet people and take some action here let me know. I'm so desperate for a human connection. I'm considering quitting my job and getting a job where I would have coworkers, but that would make my life financially more difficult.
I'm alone every second of every day. I hardly speak to anyone. The loneliness at my job is killing me but it pays well. I tried searching for weekend guitar classes at a local college, nothing. I go to church alone but it's very big, I pretty much walk in and walk out and no one even knows I'm there. I know I need to get involved, but I don't even know how or what I would do there, and my severe social anxiety makes that sort of thing a living nightmare.
Anyways... I'm completely isolated 24/7. I have no one. The pain of constant loneliness and emptiness has overwhelming waves of suicidal thoughts floating in my mind constantly. I've been in this situation before years ago and thank God he got me out of that situation. And I try my best to be grateful and believe God will get me out of this again. I try not to think negativity but sometimes it completely takes over. But now I'm here again and I don't know how much longer I can be patient and strong. I need someone. I need friendship and community. If anyone has advise on what steps I can take to meet people and take some action here let me know. I'm so desperate for a human connection. I'm considering quitting my job and getting a job where I would have coworkers, but that would make my life financially more difficult.