Finally, thank you for your patience with me. I know I can we a lot to handle in a conversation sometimes, but I really want to know WHY it is that I should listen to god and NOT to sin, while both forces are directing me to different paths.
If i were to follow God without knowing why following him, and not sin is the right thing to do, I would never be able to follow him in my heart of hearts. That is just how I see it.
Thank you for listening and having a humble, teachable spirit. You wouldn't be here asking these questions if you didn't value God and if you weren't at least a little sincere. You wanting to know why exactly God is the right choice to follow Him with all you've got is a very understandable reason, please excuse me if I sounded harsh, but this is a grave matter.
My last question then is (and I am absolutely serious about this): "What option should I take, good or evil?"
I get it, God makes me want to do good, and the force of sin wants to make me do evil.
But HOW do I know that I should listen to God, and not the force of sin?
If I were to ask God whether I should take the path to good or evil, he would undoubtedly answer with "the path to good". But if I were to ask the same question to the force of sin, it would probably tell me that I should sin and take the path of evil.
Also, I FULLY UNDERSTAND that eternal suffering awaits me if I choose to disobey God, but does that make it THE WRONG OPTION?
If you want the rational approach, let's do some analysis: What does God offer and what does sin, evil offer?
God offers:
• Getting to know GOD. A relationship with the Being above all values, the Creator Himself.
• Being a true son, a daughter of God through Christ.
• All the beauty that you can perceive of the created world, in its purest form, belongs to Him and is offered by Him. No other Creators, everything else is a creation, nobody else truly owns anything unless given by God.
• An eternal life. Endless time to pursue after endless knowledge, interests of the creation, interacting with eternal souls, all kinds of creatures, growing in wisdom, partaking in creating and experiencing music, all kinds of art forms, all kinds of inventions, all kinds of places, all kinds of adventure, all kinds of good feelings, all kinds of endlessly expansive things that are good at the purest form.
• Being able to observe every single thing that has happened on earth in the past, and is currently going on, and a promise to partake in what's next in future from a position of a kingdom child.
• All of this without any restrictions or worries of time limitations.
• True peace and true joy, in this life and the next.
• Partaking in God's salvation, where you can save an eternal soul, your beloved ones from eternal death. That's more than just gaining an eternal friend, it's gratitude of God the Father Almighty in saving of His child.
• The constant yearning of your spirit, the hole in your deepest heart, the seeking of wisdom of your mind satisfied and filled with the only One that can.
• God the Creator Himself will continue on creating after the day of judgement. Endless possibilities to marvel and endless joys to partake in.
• "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 Corinthians 2:9
• Being able to partake in His sufferings, and thus partake in His eternal joy thereafter. (Partaking in the suffering of the Lord may not sound appealing, yet once you step into it there is great joy in holy suffering, which is but temporary)
• Colors you've never seen of, music and frequencies you've never heard of, places you've never seen, food you've never tasted, interests you've never been able to expand on; all available for an eternity.
• Ephesians 3:19 "
And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God."
Honestly at this point I've realized I can go on endlessly about reasons to choose God, but at some point I have to stop.
"Negatives" to following God:
• No temporary pleasure from sin in a temporary plane.
• ???
Sin offers:
• Temporary pleasure from sin in a temporary plane that never satisfies and calls for more and more.
• Temporary wordly gain.
• ???
Negatives to following after sin/evil:
• Being a slave to sin and the endless discomfort and corruption it brings.
• ENDLESS, UTTER despair, regret and suffering.
You can also sit down and make a list for yourself. I think it is of great benefit to just see in concrete, just what am I exchanging what for? Where's the benefit of my sin I've committed last Thursday? Where's the pleasure? When my heart and my soul fails me, will the sins of my past console me? Will I even remember what pleasure is in a hospital bed? Or in burning flames? Does the pleasure of my yesterday mean anything at all to me in the present? Is past nothings worth an eternal everything? Have my sins helped me in accomplishing the highest desire of my deepest heart? Or have they destroyed and corrupted me day by day until I no longer even like my own self? Am I okay with searing the voice of God to the point where I become guideless, a slave to sin, completely and utterly subject to desire to the point where I have no control over myself and what I see and am exposed to altogether controls and possesses me?
But beyond human rationale, what is more important is, if you only take a small step towards God and get to know His love, you will not look back. I can type what about what having a relationship with the Holy Spirit is like but I won't do it justice.
Also, I FULLY UNDERSTAND that eternal suffering awaits me if I choose to disobey God, but does that make it THE WRONG OPTION?
I just want to know, is sinning INHERENTLY bad, or is ONLY bad in the eyes of our Lord?
Because the force of sin itself probably doesn't think that it itself is BAD, otherwise it would not exist.
For example: A communist would probably tell me that communism is the right option.
But a capitalist would probaly tell me that capitalism is the right option.
God tells me that good is the right option. The force of sin tells me that sin/evil is the right option.
How do I know who is INHERENTLY right?
You must understand that God is a not just a Being sitting on a throne somewhere, not just another living thing within existence. He IS the Existence. He IS the Inherent. The Holy Bible tells us that "we live, move and have our being in Him" (Acts 17:28). He IS the LIFE, the Essence, the Actual, the Aliveness. As He Himself says
"I AM THAT I AM". Bad in the sight of the Lord and inherently bad are not exclusive, they are one and the same. Bad in His sight is bad in life itself, bad in His sight means it is a lie, bad in His sight means that way leads to not life but destruction.
A communist and people in general are prone to error. God is not.
God has your well being and good in mind, and wants to provide what is best. Evil does not.
The "Force of Sin" knows exactly what he's doing and understands it is bad. You can deceive a well intentioned person into believing an evil ideology through deceit, but you don't become the Devil without knowing exactly what you are doing. You yourself have confessed that your higher self is warning you and calling you to better things, your spirit testifies to the Lord, who is the Truth.
If you wish to understand who is right, just judge the fruit and count the costs. Only One has your well being and goodness in mind. Only One loves you and cares about you on a personal level. Only One promises and keeps it. Only One think about you every day with countless thoughts, all for your good and for a future of hope. Only One counted His life for nothing in hopes of receiving and rejoicing in you one day, only One let go of His endless treasures to receive humiliation, pain and suffering for your sake. The other will throw you into flames if it means adding a single cent to his passing, disappearing kingdom of smoke. The other is plain loss and destruction.
My case is, on every level, the choice is clear and simple: God wins. I don't think there is any contest.
Kees, as long as you are going after the truth and wanting to understand while being sincere about it, God won't let you be devoured by darkness, because He is faithful and eager to have a relationship to show how much He loves you. If you give less than half the time you spend here to sit down and talk to God about what is on your mind and heart, He will give you more understanding than you could get from reading ten thousand posts here. If you take away anything from this, may it be that you sit down right now and talk to God for 10 minutes, with no masks, being completely honest, and let Him fill you with peace that passes all understanding.