@Sammy-San > whether we agree or not, I offer that you have make yourself very clear. Our Apostle Paul says God's ways are "past finding out." (in Romans 11:33) Even so > in God's love we can live in His ways, even though we can not figure them out!
In a close relationship in God's love, His ways make our relating better than we can figure out and control. Because God is creative, always bringing us to more and better.
You can consider Romans 9:21. Each person does have a purpose. Each one is a vessel for something, for carrying it somewhere. So, a person gets started in this life, then moves on to one's eternal purpose. There is no need to come back here.
There are drinking cups running over with love's refreshing water to other cups. We get started in this life, then in our resurrection we become so much more His cups of His living and loving waters.
But also there are sewer buckets for carrying "bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking" and "malice" (Ephesians 4:31-32), which we are told to get rid of so this stuff is not being transported by us to where it is going. When people are resurrected after living selfishly, then is when they will reap so much more of this stuff, and on they will go to its place which burns with fire and brimstone which contain and control it, since it is so stubborn. And those dominating and dictatorial lusts for pleasure are also so stubborn and dishonest, that only fire of hell can manage them.
And God knows what is in each human, whether he or she has heard the Gospel or not. I have been informed how people in back isolated jungle cultures can have ongoing vendettas of unforgiveness. Even if they have never heard of Jesus, they do have the nature to be unforgiving and therefore so anti-Christ. God knows what would happen if any of them met Jesus. There are people who met Jesus and they were totally against forgiveness, so that they hated and tortured and nailed and murdered Jesus. And they could be in a lot more trouble, than ones who have never done that to Jesus but who indeed have unforgiveness which is anti-Jesus.
So, in any case, make sure you are all-forgiving. It can be a trick to make issues about God, so we avoid dealing with how we ourselves are the ones who need correction. And when we have done wrong, we can be tricked into worrying about consequences and being rejected, instead of dealing with how we have done what is wrong.
Jesus is so greater and better than explanations and damage control >
"'Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.'" (Matthew 11:28-29)
And if the angels were doing all the work, you could then say, "Oh, I don't need to do anything, because the angels are doing it all." And you could excuse yourself to hide so you do not face persecution and suffering for Jesus.
But we do go through things for Christ, and it is more than we can handle so that we can be asking "why?" And we can't figure things out and make sense of things. But then God's grace takes us closer to Him, and this is what it's about . . . how we learn to trust and depend only on the LORD and share more and more with Him and others who are submitting to how our Heavenly Father rules us in His own peace > Colossians 3:15.
So, like this, an answer to your concerns is you need to get closer to Jesus in order to get the understanding which will really do you good. You need to first submit to God and depend only on Him.
And we answer to Him.
So - - - if we are doubting God, what might God be doing, right now?
Maybe He is in doubt of us?????
If you knew someone was doubting you, when they do not even know you, and you knew they were bringing up issues which were decoying the person from getting to know you > you might doubt that person! Galatians 4:20
