Hi,
When I was 15, I had bad OCD, intrusive thoughts, fear of being the antichrist etc.
Things got really bad and I was pretty convinced I was the anti-Christ at one point being so tired/(prescription drugged out) that I saw my face change in the mirror.
So I asked God to forgive me for blasphemy and being the anti-Christ and said if he did and got me through the disease I would be an itinerant preacher for the sect I grew up in.
So still struggle with OCD, I’m still alive, but I feel bound by what I said I would do.
Trouble is, I don’t believe into that church anymore, they believe they are the only church going to heaven, or at the least “ the rightest way”
I don’t know what to do.
Please help
Also, still having intrusive blasphemous thoughts etc.
Also also, have had compulsive asking for signs from God, for confirmation.
I.e.
“If I get a text right now, I have to be a preacher for that sect and they are the right way”
Have done stuff like this sometimes 20x a day. A few times 2/3 it happened
Don’t know if that was real or just coincidence.
Seems a little vain to think God will just do signs as asked, also why answer 2-3 and ignore 2-300
Confused
I’m sorry
When I was 15, I had bad OCD, intrusive thoughts, fear of being the antichrist etc.
Things got really bad and I was pretty convinced I was the anti-Christ at one point being so tired/(prescription drugged out) that I saw my face change in the mirror.
So I asked God to forgive me for blasphemy and being the anti-Christ and said if he did and got me through the disease I would be an itinerant preacher for the sect I grew up in.
So still struggle with OCD, I’m still alive, but I feel bound by what I said I would do.
Trouble is, I don’t believe into that church anymore, they believe they are the only church going to heaven, or at the least “ the rightest way”
I don’t know what to do.
Please help
Also, still having intrusive blasphemous thoughts etc.
Also also, have had compulsive asking for signs from God, for confirmation.
I.e.
“If I get a text right now, I have to be a preacher for that sect and they are the right way”
Have done stuff like this sometimes 20x a day. A few times 2/3 it happened
Don’t know if that was real or just coincidence.
Seems a little vain to think God will just do signs as asked, also why answer 2-3 and ignore 2-300
Confused
I’m sorry
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