I have maladaptive daydreaming, it is the first time that I have said it or written it down. For those who do not know what it is, it is intense daydreaming that can be triggered by several things. For me, anything can set it off. I am always daydreaming and wishing to be somewhere else, I have read studies online and researched as much as I could because there is not much on it. I only recently discovered that it was called maladaptive daydreaming, I honestly thought it was something everyone did and I did not think that there was a name for it although I never shared my daydreaming thoughts with anyone. I have come to find out that it stems from a number of things and although I do suffer from depression and anxiety, I have had maladaptive daydreaming my entire life. I cannot pinpoint when it started or how, but I have always daydreamed. It really hinders my life and makes me hate myself so much more. I have tried to stop, but my daydreams are the only place where I feel like I am truly loved by everyone and I am talented and amazing so it is terrifying to stop. I dont really expect anyone to reply, but I needed to vent and write down that I have this, because I cant admit it to anyone around me, so my outlet is writing this.